Maddened bY saddness...
Chi Chi fell... she fell into a hole deep within herself, she could'nt hear anything, see anything. She had gone... Were Krillin couldn't reach her, her dad couldn't reach her, not even Gohan could find his mom behind her blank, once beutiful eyes. Her eyes were'nt even alive anymore, they didn't glow like they used to.
It had been almost a month since Goku had died at the hands of Cell, and Chi Chi had been getting worse everyday. She was growing damn near catatonic, and it scared Gohan. It made him tremble in bed at night, knowing that she was still down stairs with the lights out, sitting in that damned chair with her back straight and her fingers entwined with each other, looking sad. Gohan wondered what she was thinking about down there, all alone. all gone...
But she wasn't all alone...
"She still has me" he thought...
Gohan was in his room doing the only thing he could think of that would make his mother happy... His studies.
So he sat down behind his desk, and turned to page two thirdy-five in his advanced physics book, and went right to it...
He worked for hours, untill the sun slept, and the moon had risen..
When he was finally to tired and fed up to work anymore he went out into the living room intending to get to the kitchen and TRY to make some food for himself and his mom so she wouldn't starve, she had stopped eating and moving two days ago. He went down only to see her still sitting in the same chair, looking very formal, yet overwhemingly pitiful at the same time.
It hurt him...
"Mom?..." he asked gingerly.
She just sat there.
"Mom... can i make you something to eat...?" he asked.
No response.
Gohan's eyes began to tear up... This was ripping him apart.
"Mommy please say something, please, just make a sound... a movement even..." a tear drops from his eye.
Not a word... She didn't move. Was it that she didn't love him anymore? Was it that she hated him for letting dad die? For making such a pitiful mistake and getting dad killed? That had to be it... it had to be.
"Mom i'm sorry... I'm so sorry..." he cryd.
"I love you mom! Please forgive me... I didn't do it right... i could have done it better. Oh god I killed him!... I sorry..." He screamed in pain, but she couldn't hear him. he couldn't deal with it...
He couldn't look at her anymore, he couldn't see what he had done to his mom... He ran... he ran up to his bedroom and locked the door... He turned on the sterio he got as a present from Bulma as a gift for saving the earth. He turned it up loud till all he could hear was the music, all he could feel was the beat... it was Disturbed...
So, are you breathing?
So, are you breathing?(now, now)
Are you breathing?
So, are you breathing?
NOW!
WAKE UP, ARE YOU ALIVE
WILL YOU LISTEN TO ME
I'M GONNA TALK ABOUT SOME FREAKY $*^# NOW
SOMEONE IS GONNA DIE
WHEN YOU LISTEN TO ME
LET THE LIVING DIE, LET THE LIVING DIE!
(SAY)
Wake up, are you alive
Will you listen to me
I'm gonna talk about some freaky $*^# now
Someone is gonna die
When you listen to me
Let the living die, Let the living die
(say)
Gohan let the music lull him, he let his anger and frustrations slip into the flow of the music... all his pain and greif draining away from him into this song... it felt good, he felt peace... and slept.
Chi Chi still sat down stairs, and she heard something... was it music? No it wasn't music... that couln't be music... it was the embodyment of everything she was feeling right now... it was a message... a sign.
Are you breathing now
Do the wicked see you
You still breathing
Your making me known
Are you breathing now
Do the wicked see you
You still breathing
So...What's up, I wonder why
Do you listen to me
I'm gonna make you do some freaky shit now
Insane, you're gonna die
When you listen to me
Let the living die, Let the living die
(say)
What's up, I wonder why
Do you listen to me
I'm gonna make you do some freaky shit now
Insane, you're gonna die
When you listen to me
Let the living die, Let the living die
(say)
Are you breathing now
Do the wicked see you
You still breathing
You're making me known
Chi CHi heard what was said, and felt her anguish, her torment, and her depressions drain away with the music. she let herself flow with the music. let herslelf be taken.
She was going insane, inside herself... she was still breathing... she needed to fix that problem...
Are you breathing now
Do the wicked see you
You still breathing
Chi Chi got up, her muscles terribly cramped from staying in that possition for so long, and she stumbled in the dark of the night toward the kitchen...
Chi Chi walked uncaring over to the counter where the kitchen knive holder lay...she grabbed a knife by the hilt and before she knew it, it was unsheathed.
So
Can't you imagine how good going through this will make you feel
I promise, no one will ever know
There will be no chance of you getting caught
They never loved you anyway
So come on, be a man
And do what you are compelled to do
Chi Chi was possesed by the music compelled by the rythm, and she was so very tired of...breathing... it was so draining to her.
Save me god (echoes)
I can hear the voice
But I don't want to listen
Strap me down and tell me
I'll be alright
I can feel the subliminal need
To be one with the voice
And make everything alright
I can hear the voice
But I don't want to listen
Strap me down and tell me
I'll be alright
I can feel the subliminal need
To be one with the voice
And make everything alright
Chi Chi slit her wrist, it was so much pain, with sweat unlasting adrenaline...This is what she wanted... didn't she?
she lay there on the floor of her kitchen she worked so hard to keep clean, her own warm sticky blood being her only comfort as she passed on.
" Oh Kami please watch over my baby boy" she whispered as the darkness overcame her...
Are you breathing now
Do the wicked see you
You still breathing
You're making me known
Are you breathing now
Do the wicked see you
You still breathing?......
So, are you breathing?
So, do you breath now? Now?
So, are you breathing?
So, do you breath now?!?
Her last thought was..."These blood stains will never come off the floor..."
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Deep within the shadows, soft laughter is heard as it's servant disposes of the knife and heals the wounds on her wrists... The servent punches and mutilates the poor womans dead body, untill it's master bids it to return to the shadows...
"too easy..." the master coos as he and his servant dissapear.
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