So, here's a story about who you probably already know, is my favorite character! This is a turtle-tot fic, that turns into a normal turle fic, and will be Raph centric. And, I'm really sorry, to my Leo lovers out there, since so far it seems the majority of you guys are Leo fans... I promise I'll make a fic on how Leo feels, too. That is, if you review and say that you want a Leo fic!


*Raph's P.O.V.*

Leo had always been the favorite, everyone knew that. Ever since we were little. Either Donnie and Mikey are to stupid to realise it, or they just don't care! It would be a shame if Donnie didn't realise it, though. That would make him a little less smart than everyone thought he was. It's so obvious! Everything Splinter does! Everything Splinter says! Everyday he's always praising him! Mikey and Donnie are starting to praise him, too! It's like I'm the only one who isn't hypnotized by him!

Even this morning, during training. He told Mikey he needed to focus more, Donnie that he needed to train more and stop paying attention to his inventions, and he told me that I needed to control my temper! It's not even that bad! And, when he went over to Leo, he complimented him! After telling the rest of us that we need to do better, he tells Leo that he's perfect!

It kinda makes me feel unloved... Like I'll never be good enough for him, no matter how hard I try, Leo will always be better. Tears threaten to escape my eyes. I try to hold them in, despite the fact that no one see even if I hold them in. Everyones probably asleep by now... Tears escape my eyes, despite me trying desperately them in. I get up to go to the bathroom. I didn't want a repeat of what happened las night... I, uh, wet the bed... But it was an accident, and it won't happen again! I tip-toed to the bathroom, so that no one would hear. There was a knock on the door.

"Hello? Are any of you in there, my sons?" It was Splinter. He was one of the last people I wanted to talk to. Oh well, at least it's not Leo...

"Yeah, uh, I'm in here..." I said. I finshed up and walked out, not wanting Sensei to see me, because I still had tears running down my face. I looked down while a crossed by him and then quickly ran to my room. Stupid! He could've seen me! Oh well, at least I won't have to go through the humiliation of my brothers laughing at me for wetting the bed like this morning. Boy, today has just been the best! First, I woke up covered in my own body fluids! Then, I got my shell handed during training to the god of the house! My thoughts were stopped by a soft knock on the door.

"Hello, Raphael, are you still awake, my son?" It's Splinter, great... I threw a sai at the door to show him that I wasn't in the mood for talking. But, apparently, he took that as his inventation inside. I looked away from the doorway and at my wall. "My son, are you alright? It sounded like you were crying in the bathroom." I cleared my throat and tried to make my voice sound as angry as possible.

"Yeah, I'm fine!" I said forcing myself to continue staring at the wall. He didn't leave. "Go away!" I yelled. Of course, he didn't leave. Instead, he forced me to look at him. Weak! I'm crying over the stupidest of things and the person who I've been trying to impress my entire is witnessing it!

"My son, please tell me what's wrong." He said. I continued to stay as silent as I could. I really wanted to ask him. To ask him why Leo must be his favorite. But that would just make me sound jealous! Jealous and weak! The question burned in my throat. Finally, I forced myself to ask him.

"Why?" I asked. He looked perplexed, so I decided to continue. "Why is Leo your favorite? Why do you love him more than me, Donnie, and Mikey?"

"What do you mean, my son?" He asked. That liar! He knew exactly what I was talking about!

"You love Leo more than us! Every day, you praise him while me and the other two idiots just watch as he gets favorited constantly! What about us? It's like we don't even exist! Even this morning, you told Mikey that he needed to focus more, Donnie that he needs to stop paying attention to his machines and pay more attention to training, and me that I need to control my temper more! Oh, and what did you tell Leo? That he was doing perfect! Well, in my opinion, those katas weren't so perfect! And I think that Mikey and Donnie did a pretty good job, too!" I yelled way more loudly than I had ever wanted to. Once I calmed down, I looked in the doorway and saw Mikey, Donnie, and Leo standing looking surprised, like they hadn't seen this coming from a mile away. Leo began crying and he ran back into his room, and everyone followed him. And by everyone, I mean everyone except for me! Like shell I'm going after him! He's made me cry countless times before this, that I'm having a little trouble feeling sympathy for him! I just waited there before Splinter came back into my room to decipline me.

"My son, why did you say those things?" He asked me. How should I respond to this? Let's see, should I tell him the truth, because right now me telling a little of the truth has probably gotten me in huge trouble, or should I stay silent? I choose silent! "Raphael, your choice of words has made your brother upset. Can you please answer my question?" Splinter asked. I didn't make a peep. I'm not making the same mistake that I had made before. "Answer me, Raphael!"

"I don't have to answer you!" I yell. Stupid, stupid, stupid! I was suposed to stay silent! He turned to look at me, his red-brown eyes full of anger.

"Fine, you don't have to tell me your intentions." You mean you mean you don't know my intentions? I thought I made it obvious at the question my intentions! "You may either apoligise to your brother, or you can be grounded to your room for two months." I think my choice was obvious...

"Grounding!" I chose instantly without second thought. Why would I apoligise to him?

All I did was stay in my room, waiting for the next meal. I was supposed to be grounded for two months, but every time I left my room for a meal, my brothers would mock me, causing my temper to flaire, and me to get in more trouble, as always. It became so much so, that Splinter decided to just give me my meals inside my room. It's not like I'd ever eat them, though. Splinter put the meal on my night stand, and then come back and take the untouched meal a couple of hours later. I was ground for a full five months! Over something so little, five months! I bet that Leo could do that and get away with it without apoligising, nor grounding!

What really confused me though is that Mikey and Donnie made fun of me the most, despite me actually trying to stand up for them!

Even now, at fifteen, I still feel unloved. Leo's now the leader, but it's not like there's anyone who didn't see that coming from a mile away! When he was elected leader, all eyes instantly turned on me, like I was gonna freak! I still cry over these feelings of being unwanted. I guess I'm still as pathetic as I was back then. It's just hard constantly feeling unwanted... I hear a knock on the door.

"Hello? Are any of you in there, my sons?" It was Splinter. He was one of the last people I wanted to talk to. Oh well, at least it's not Leo...

"Yeah, uh, I'm in here..." I said. I finshed up and walked out, not wanting Sensei to see me, because I still had tears running down my face. I looked down while a crossed by him and then quickly ran to my room. Stupid! He could've seen me! Oh well, at least I won't have to go through the humiliation of my brothers laughing at me for wetting the bed like this morning. Boy, today has just been the best! First, I woke up covered in my own body fluids! Then, I got my shell handed during training to the god of the house! My thoughts were stopped by a soft knock on the door.

"Hello, Raphael, are you still awake?" It's Splinter, great... I threw a sai at the door to show him that I wasn't in the mood for talking. But, apparently, he took that as his inventation inside. I looked away from the doorway and at my wall. "Raphael,are you alright? It sounded like you were crying in the bathroom." I cleared my throat and tried to make my voice sound as angry as possible.

"Like you'd care!" I yelled back at him. He's just pretending to love me! He's just pretending to care about how I feel! Well, it's not gonna work this time! I know better than to think that he wants to hear my voice!

"Raphael, why do you think that I wouldn't care?" That liar! Stop lying to me! You might be able to brainwash the others, bu you can't trick me! I learned that a long time ago...

"Because, you didn't care then, and you won't care now..." I said very calmly as I got up to leave. I looked back around and saw the sudden realisation in his stupid eyes.


So, that was it... I'm FINALLY done writing this, and I'm about ready for bed!