As he fell on my arm, I could only think of one thing. Why does he continue to hide behind that mask? The mask of false wellness. The mask he, as well as the kids and I, know is fake. It tortures us to see him like this, but he does not relinquish it, and probably never will. With it he acts so… happy, yet cold and distant somehow. No longer calling me those stupid nicknames. I find that I miss them, and the bickering they caused. As I feel him sucking the life out of my veins, but still not killing me, I find I don't regret the choice I made in his life. He was dieing, he wanted to die. As he lay there asking me, I felt my heart clench in sorrow and love I didn't know I had. I would not let him. I didn't want him to die a coward's death. So I turned him into what he is now. But I don't regret it. I know I don't. I'm such a selfish being. Tying the one I love to me permanently, against his will. Even if he does leave, I know he will come back. He needs me to survive, to live. And hopefully, one day, he will need me to love him.

Even if he hates me for it now, I will never regret my choice.

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Another thing I wrote while bored in class, I really need to start paying attention...

anyways, I think I made Kurogane sound smarter than he really is, sorry bout that XD