A/N: For Zarya, cause, y'know she's kewl.
Dear Yuffie,
Life is funny, huh? Not nescessarily in the "ha-ha" way all the time, but it has it's quirks. I mean, when you pushed me into the pool without warning, yeah, I was a little mad. But I could shrug it off, and though it seems like a silly comparison to how bad I hurt you, it's not completely far off. Same kind of deal, on two different standards.. And I won't apologize, because it doesn't mean anything. As you're reading this you're probably thinking, "Yeah, right, he expects me to ever look at his face again." And I don't, because what I did was wrong, but maybe you could at least try and not blow me off immediately.
I sound so formal, writing a letter to you starting with 'Dear' and I don't mean that in a bad way, your humor is something to admire. I am amazed at the fact you can let things slide off you so easily, even when things are at their worst. That's why I'm writing, maybe you'll forget what happened. I know it's highly unlikely, I know I hurt you, but it wasn't intentional, believe me.
If it was, you would have known. Heh.
I'm always the one to collapse on my knees and beg for forgiveness, and I know you don't like that. So "I'm sorry" would be a useless attempt at getting you to look at me again. But I can't help feel overwhelmed, I never meant to leave. I don't like saying goodbye, just like you don't like sorry. In a way it upsets me, because it makes me feel like I won't see you again. Bittersweet, y'know?
I'm a little foolish, I know you can hold a grudge, but it's not only for you, it's for me too. I need to be able to admit that I messed up and I'm not the Perfect Hero everyone takes me for. I make mistakes, I hurt people's feelings. Just like all humans, but I can admit I'm wrong and fess up. I can see what I did wrong, and I can look at myself and say it.
I screwed up.
Leaving you was the hardest thing I ever had to do, and you retailated with such bitterness, it hurt. You didn't give me a chance to explain, and I think that's what got me the most. People listen to you, you're outspoken and creative, but you didn't let me. And I needed to go, part of the job thing. An emergency came up.
I feel a lot older than I really should, writing this to you, but being able to see you smile again his worth my maturity level.
Sorry is such an over rated word and life is such an ironically funny concept. But we all smile at good times and somber at bad times, we all laugh and we all cry. We're human. And we all make mistakes.
Love,
Sora
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He slipped the envelope through the crack in her door, making sure he was quiet, he didn't want to disturb her. He paused a moment, peering into the door and watching her as she lay on the couch, sound asleep. And maybe it was because he couldn't help but feel ashamed, but he didn't say it. Though he longed to. His time would come, when she would grin at him again, he'd say it. Until she woke up and until everything was normal, he'd keept it to himself.
Maybe it was wrong to take it so seriously, maybe he should have been angry that she snapped at him for something beyond his control. Maybe that was her mistake. But sometimes she couldn't help herself, he guessed, she was only human. Getting angry at him hadn't been her first bad choice. And leaving her wouldn't be his last.
But himfalling in love with her---That was certainly her mistake.
A/N: I wrote this for Zarya cause she is just so funny and so awesome. She's so nice and a really AMAZING writer. If you haven't read her stuff please do, she's awesome.
