CHAPTER 3 But you are
"…I cannot deal with this right now. I have a Chem. test Friday that I need to study for, and ... our B&B is about to reach is climax, and there is prep for the S.A.T.s, and ... I am supposed to go to Worthington…. I can't be pregnant."
Joey could not believe all of this was happening. She felt as if the world was moving so fast but she standing still.
"But you are." Dr. Patterson declared.
CHAPTER 5 Urgent Dispute
"You know what!" Joey buttons were pushed, "You want to know why I choose him over you. He might not get all A's Dawson but he's smart. He might not know what he wants to be but he is dedicated. He might not always share his feelings but he is kind and sweet. He cares about others before he cares about himself. He peruses me to fulfill my dreams. When I was with you Dawson, I felt like I am still a child! I felt like I was limited… And another reason why I choose him over you was that I love him!"
CHAPTER 6 Now they know
Pacey got comfortable and sat on the end of the hospital bed, "How are you?"
"Frightened." Joey labeled.
"Because of what happened." Pacey assumed.
"No. Because now everyone knows about me." She declared.
CHAPTER 8 I still am
"No. I'm going to speak my mind…" She walked over towards Joey, "Do you know how I feel when I found out that my younger sister, which I might add I am supposed to take of, is thirteen weeks into her pregnancy? Do you know I feel?"
"This isn't all about you Bessie... How do you think I felt when you slap my boyfriend last night?" Joey defended.
"You're not seeing that boy again. I forbid you!" Bessie prohibited.
"You forbid me… You know what… You cannot forbid me from anything. I make my own choices." Joey started to get upset.
"Yeah and let me add that you've done a great job so far, you got yourself pregnant!" Bessie would not give her sister a break.
"Bessie, you know that I don't want to be pregnant. Okay but morning after morning I wake up and guess what, I still am." Joey declared.
CHAPTER 9 Ever since I can remember
Dawson tried not to yell but he could not help that his voice was in a raise tone, "Damn it, Joey I know the world is cruel. I know that life is not always fair. But the one thing…. the one thing I counted in this world was you, Joey. It was you! Why did you betray me?"
CHAPTER 12 Trust
"Look Jen, I know we had our ups and downs in our friendships. Actually, I had ups and downs with all my friends, but the truth is that I don't have anyone else right now. Dawson hates me. Pacey is ignoring me. Bessie wants to get rid of me. The McPhees, well I don't know what problem Andie and Jack has with me, but I know that they don't exactly want to speak to me… Jen… I don't have anywhere to go…………. Please, Jen can I stay with you?" Joey expressed.
While thinking about it, Jen just looked at Joey. She looked so scared and alone. Jen thought about if she was in this situation and wondered if Joey would do the same thing for her. She then said, "No problem…" She knew Joey would do the same thing for her.
"Joey, I'm sure Grams is going to have her own set of rules, but I have a few of my own that you should hear." Jen declared.
"Name them." Joey said.
"Actually I only have one… No more lies ever, okay? There will be nothing between us." Jen listed.
"Okay, promise. No secretes between us." Joey answered.
Chapter 15 A Suprise from the Past
For these past couple of weeks, Dawson had been tracking down Joey's father, Mike Potter. Dawson had informed Mr. Potter about Joey's situation. Dawson told him that his daughter needed help and her father, at time, was the only person who could help her.
"I love you so much!" Mr. Potter said.
"I love you too Daddy." Joey said
CHAPTER 18 Opinions and Judgment
"Ms. Potter… If you put this baby up for adoption, it will mean that you will never see this baby again. Your baby will have another family, father, siblings and another mother that she or he will love. Your baby will have no idea who you are… Now, at this moment, you're probably thinking that this is too hard to listen to…. But the truth is Joey, if you want to, I will find your baby the best home so you won't have to worry about your child. You won't have to fear about the dangers your child might go through. You won't have to worry about if your baby has enough clothes, or food, or a nice home. You won't have to worry about that because it is my job to find the child the best home for her or him……. You won't have to worry about anything. But if you want all of this, you're going to have to start having some opinions for your choices…. Okay?… Can you do that Joey?"
CHAPTER 19 Kids can't raise Kids
"It is all for the best Pacey. You need to sign the contract." Mr. Potter asked in hypnosis way.
Pacey took a deep breath and read the print again, I the father, rightfully give my biological child up for adoption. Pacey stared at it long and clear. This was happening so fast, but a decision needed to be made now.
Pacey looked at Mr. Potter and said, "Do you have a pen?"
CHAPTER 21 Influence
"Joey, I love you." Dawson said.
Joey felt utterly happy when he said it. When he said those three words (most importantly love"), Joey felt that he truly meant it.
"I love you too." Joey responded.
Joey did not wait for him to make his move. It has been almost a year since Joey and Dawson were together. Joey leaned and passionately kissed Dawson on the lips.
CHAPTER 22 Mixed Feelings
"I'm going to ask you plain out, do you want to keep the baby?" Mr. Witter asked.
"Yes." Pacey replied.
"Do think you can raise the baby so he or she can have a normal life?" Mr. Witter questioned.
"I can do my best." Pacey said sincerely.
"Then I think I can help you… Help you keep your baby." Mr. Witter initiated.
CHAPTER 26 Past Problems, Future Developments
Joey looked down at her stomach and then said tearfully, "Do you think this baby is a mistake?"
"What! God no!… See there you go again, everything I say, you assume the worse out of me… You know what was a mistake. It was a mistake the first time we kissed. It was a mistake that I ever thought I had a chance with Miss Perfect Joey Potter. It was a mistake that we know each other." Pacey confessed.
"Why do you say that?" Joey wondered.
"Joey did you know it has been exactly twenty-seven days since you last talked to me. I guess I didn't mean that much to you. Because after I agreed to put the baby up for adoption, you're still mad at me. Why are you still mad at me?" Pacey commenced.
"Why?" Joey repeated.
"That what I'm asking you? Why are you mad at me?" Pacey responded.
Pacey did not understand Joey's question so she elaborated, "No. Why did you agree with me? Why did you stop wanting to keep the baby?"
"Why does it matter now?" Pacey keeping quiet.
"No, Pacey. Just leave me alone." Joey grabbed her stuff ready to leave. Pacey did not even tried to stop her.
Nonetheless, before she left, Joey felt her body change. She started having aches in her stomach and pain in abdomen. She was feeling really uncomfortable. Then all of the sudden, water leaked to the ground.
"Oh my gosh. Pacey I think I'm in labor!" She said clearly.
CHAPTER 29 Rightful Place
"No! No more interjections Dawson. I've been listening to you for almost this entire pregnancy and I've been following you're choices. But if god has mercy on my soul, I want you out of this room now!" Joey said in soft yet insistent voice.
Dawson left the room with out any outburst. Joey's behavior appalled Joey. However, he did feel that he was out of place. Dawson did not know if it was the morphine or her the pain, but most of what Joey had said, was true.
"What's the attorney for?" Dawson demanded but he already knew. He just needed to hear it from Pacey.
Pacey took a deep breath, stared in Dawson eyes and said, "I think you already know."
CHAPTER 30 What is Pain?
She took one last look at her son, her beautiful baby; she handed him over to her father and then Mr. Potter handed him over to Mr. Armstrong.
However, Joey was too detrimentally sad to say anything. She started to boisterously crying. Jen leaned to Joey and both of them hug as Joey continued to cry.
Giving up her baby boy was the hardest thing for Joey and she would not want to do it again. It was too painful!
CHAPTER 31 Legally or Morally
Mr. Wellington decided to spice up the ending, "Legally you decide whether Pacey should be a father or not. However morally you can't make that choice… Even though Pacey Witter doesn't match up to a perfect father, he would be a decent one who will love his own son."
Mr. Witter continued, "Look at today's world. There is no such thing as a perfect family. There no such thing as the world's best dad, but God damn it, Pacey is going to be a good one. That is more than necessary"
"Deep down in your heart, you too, know Pacey will make a good father… Throw out the legal obligation and replace it with the moral expectation." Mr. Wellington confronted.
Pacey finally spoke up for himself and said, "Are you going to allow me to keep my own son?"
CHAPTER 32 How do I Know?
"How do I know that you love me? How do you know you love me? How do we know this relationship is real?" Joey simplified.
Dawson took a deep breath because he did not know the answer, "Joey…"
"You don't know, do you? Do you!" She assumed.
Dawson did not say anything because he did not know what to say. He did not know how to express his love for Joey.
"I don't think we should see each other anymore." Joey said the unwanted.
Joey sat down ready to write the letter. This was so weird to her. How was she suppose explain everything in one letter? How was she supposed to tell her son that even though she put him up for adoption, she still loves him? How was she supposed to apologize for something like this in one letter? Needless to say, Joey tried to write everything in one letter:
CHAPTER 34 One Letter
Dear Joshua,
I don't know if you will understand this. I don't know if you will ever read this but my name is Joey Potter and I'm you're real mother. I know you have another family, with another mother, which I am happy for. I hope your new mother is kind and sweet. I hope that your family loves you.
If you read this, don't feel sad. Don't feel sad that you were adopted. Because your new family is probably much better than what I could have ever provided you.
When I'm older and I am on my own, I'll come find you find. I'll look day and night; night and day. So when we are together, I can explain everything to you. Because right now you're probably confused and mad, and these emotions are is understandable.
But just so you know, you were the best thing that ever happened to me and even though I had to give you up, I will never forget you. .
I will never forget that you were my first son. Nothing will make me stop loving you. I will love forever. I hope that your life turns out fine and if you are still confused, remember that you'll be in my heart forever.
Sincerely,
Your mother, Joey Potter.
Chapter 35 A True Goodbye
"I guess I got to go." Joey said, preparing for Pacey's department.
Pacey grabbed Joey's hand and passionately kissed her. This action came out of know where. The kiss pleased Joey. Therefore, she responded to the kiss. She moved her hands around his neck. They began to kiss one another more passionately.
After they break from the kiss, Pacey said, "Joey… I love you!"
"I love you too!" Joey repeated.
All of this was too much for Joey. Joey gave Pacey one more kiss and she ran off in the rain.
However, before she left, she turned around and said, "Goodbye Pacey."
"Pacey, your son wants you." Mrs. Witter came to Pacey with his son.
"Hey, Josh!" Pacey held his young son.
Mrs. Bedingfield, the social worker, allowed Pacey to keep his son. Even though it did not look like it now, but Mrs. Bedingfield knew that Pacey would make a great father. She thought that the move to New York would be good. Therefore, both Pacey and his son, Joshua, would be able to have a fresh start.
"I want you to know that, everything will be okay Josh." Pacey said.
Pacey did not know when, but one day, Pacey would tell Joey. However, that day was nowhere in the near future.
