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SHIKI

Chapter 1: Memories

"You should love yourself more!"

Yes those were the words that woke me from the inside and out. I was only a puppet to them all. All except for her. She was always by my side. Always the one who supported me silently and never left me even in the darkest moments. How could I have been so blind? I even hurt her because I was so weak. And yet...... she still stayed beside me.

If I were to drink her blood, would it full fill my thirst? Could i ever do it? Would it reassure me that she feels the same way after all this time?

Even now I'm feeling a little uneasy but I know that I will become stronger for her sake more than for mine. I never want to see her get hurt again.

Maybe this helped me see things more clearly. Things I was blind to beofre. It has helped me realize that I dont want to be away from her. That I dont like it. Her very presence means that somehow some way I might be alright. If she's near me I know I have a reason for being something other than a puppet for others to control, just like my mother. I wonder if she had had someone there for her too would she have been able to escape the destiny she now suffers? Either way I cant really say.

I'm not sure myself what would have happened if I didnt have Rima there to make me see what I was becoming. I might have died inside trapped in my mind while my body was being used, or I would have killed Rima. I'm not sure I would have been able to live with myself knowing that. No matter what happened though she always came back and in return I will protect her. I will become strong for her.

"Does her absence bother you that much?" the soft voice came almost as a whisper and sounded more like a statement rather than a question. It was the new night class student Kaori.

"Did you follow me here?" that was the only way she would have known I was out here.

"She's coming back tomorrow. The stars look amazing don't they?" she said sitting down. I didn't bother looking at her. I stayed laying on my back looking up at the sky. It would be pointless to try to deny anything.

"hmmmm" was all I could respond.

"Your not denying anything. I know either way how you feel about her." she continued. From the corner of my eye I could see that she was now sitting facing me.

"what does it matter to you?" I wondered aloud.

"It doesnt. But I'm wondering what's keeping you from telling-"

"That has nothing to do with you" I calmly told her.

"I can give you what you want." was all she said. I could see her blond hair start to dance with the wind that was picking up now.

Not knowing how to respond I didn't say anything.

"I'll be waiting" she smiled getting up.

"The seed is planted now" she quietly whispered before walking away.

Still staring up at the sky I felt more relaxed. She was coming back tomorrow.

~End of a sweet dream but I'll show you another one~