Blah blah blah. This is my second Harry Potter fanfiction. I'm still not good at it, though, sorry. Btw, I only made this for about 3 hours so I don't think it will be that nice. Anyway. Reviews? :)


Jealousy and Envy are two different words. But all the same, I am feeling both.

Jealous means "apprehensive or vengeful out of fear of being replaced by someone else." It can also mean "watchful," "anxiously suspicious," or "zealous".

Envy means "to bear a grudge toward someone due to coveting what that person has or enjoys." In a milder sense, it means "the longing for something someone else has without any ill will intended toward that person."

I admit that I envy and I am jealous of Lily Luna Potter. You know, the daughter of the famous Harry Potter and Ginny Weasley? The girl with the beautiful face, the one with red curls bouncing softly every time she turns her head? The girl with an organized freckled-face? The girl who looks so commercial and model-like? The perfect girl everyone's talking about? Yeah. That's the girl.

You might be thinking, why would I, Rose Weasley, envy my cousin? True, I'm still in my right (and intelligent) mind to say it's improper, but I just couldn't help it. That girl has everything I don't have. I don't have that beautiful face. Instead, I have bushy hair that makes people annoyed whenever I'm in front of them or whatever. I have freckles all over my body, and it's not really attractive. I don't look commercial and model-like at all. I'm small, and there's no mistake I'm never going to be perfect like her.

Oh look! Rose Weasley has insecurities!

And ah, there's also that one thing I envy most about her. Not that I hate her for this but… Well, I do but… yeah.

Scorpius Malfoy's in love with her. And vice versa.

Don't get me wrong, I love Lily and Scorpius. For the reason they've been my best friends since Merlin knows when. Well, I don't know. There's just this sick feeling inside of me that makes me hate both of them every time I see them together. Albus noticed my "strange" behavior and talked to me about it. Do you know what he said?

He said I was freaking in love with Scorpius and that I'm just jealous and envious of Lily.

Since then, I started to believe I really am. I mean, it's been 3 years since I've been looking at Scorpius differently, you know? Those butterflies in my stomach and the way I can't help staring at him during classes or meals. It's really strange to think about it.

Oh how cliché!, you might think. I'm falling in love with the best friend and the best friend falling in love with the cousin. Merlin's beard.

I want this feeling to stop. I learned from Muggle Studies that Envy is one of the capital sins of the Catholic religion. I just want to be happy, you know?

But I can't. Because you can't do anything with a broken heart unless time heals it.