I watched the dangling necklace hanging from my fingers. My eyes red, puffy and dried out from all the tears that had fallen. My breath deep and hard, my heart beating through my chest, i stared into the stone walls caved around me. There was no way out now. The deed was done, and to my dismay, i couldn't turn back time. She had told me it wasn't my fault and not to worry, and her last words will stay in my heart forever.
I remember everything clearly.
"It's raining!" Ally squealed, and i watched her look up into the sky that was now dropping water all over us. I smiled at my girlfriend, and laughed as she spun around dorkily. She looked adorable. Damp hair, sparkling chocolate eyes, dancing crazily in front of me without a care in the world. When i looked at her, i was looking at the definition of perfection, standing right there. There was no need for a dictionary when she was there to define everything for me.
"We need to get out of the rain, Als." I laughed, taking her wrist softly and trying to pull her with me. She rejected strongly, digging her flat shoes into the ground to stop me pulling her towards me.
"I don't want to." She groaned and a croak it her throat, and my eyes widened, tucking her close to my body, lending her the warmth she needed. Ally was everything to me. If she needed oxygen, i would give up his own for her. If she needed a heart, i would pull out my own, and give it to her forever. If she needed a miracle, i would grab a shooting star from the sky and give it to her to make her miracle come true. Whatever she needed, i would do it for her.
"You're catching a cold, come on, we need to get you inside." I started pulling her again but again she rejected, grabbing me back and we collided. She tripped on her feet, falling back but i caught her, pulling her back up to me. She smiled up at me and wrapped her arms around my neck, her face buried into my chest.
"I'm cold." She shivered, teeth chattering. I instantly felt the need to help her, and i pulled her closer to my body, warmth flowing out of me and colliding into her, making her warm and feeling her squeeze me. The feeling always came into me, whenever she was feeling down, that it was my fault. I was her guardian, her protector, and if anything happened to her i would always blame myself. Because it basically was my fault. It's my job to help her, my job to protect her, and my job to make her feel safe. I would do that all for her, and as cheesy as it sounds, i love her too much to let her go from my arms.
"Better?" I asked her and she smiled softly, nodding. I kissed her forehead softly, my lips pressing against her soft skin, and she gently accepted my hand holding hers, and also accepted me leading her in the nearby café. But suddenly she stopped me and pulled me back, stunning me and looking at me innocently.
"Can we do something first?" She asked, and i looked at her in confusion, and nodded slowly, wondering what she wanted to do. "Kiss me." She whispered, moving my damp hair out of my eyes and she stared into them. I stared back at her, and admired her. She was completely and utterly drop-dead gorgeous. I was extremely lucky to have her, and i couldn't imagine my life without her. Leaning in close to her, she got onto her tiptoes and grasped the collar of my shirt, pulling me down so our lips were brushing. I kissed her back as she kissed me, and my arms wrapped tightly around her waist, pulling her small fragile body towards me. She let out a groan into my mouth and i smiled against her lips, colliding my warmth with hers. I felt her sink into my touch, and our lips parted, eyes never unlocking themselves.
"I love you, Ally. Not like the casual 'i love you', but the love as in i would die for you. I would catch you from your fall and stroke your hair softly and kiss you to make you feel better. I would protect you with my life. If you ever get taken away from me i'll die inside and never be able to live again. I love you so much it hurts." She started blushing as i breathed out my last few words and she stared at me in shock, never leaving my eyes. "You're my everything." I murmured, stroking her soft chocolate and blonde highlighted hair. She stared at me, silence falling on her lips and her eyes sparkled, telling the whole story for me. She hugged me, burying her face into my chest, to the right of me, and i stumbled back, before embracing her petite frame into my body. I loved this girl. She was just the thing i needed. I didn't need my career, i didn't need my voice, i didn't need my record label, i just needed her.
"I'm holding my world in my arms." She said smiling, breathing into my shirt and tightening her grip. I felt my cheeks start to blush and i embraced her more softly, burying my face into the crook of her neck. My gaze was lifted to a shadowy-like figure looming in the mist of the rain that pattered on the sidewalk. I tried to focus my vision on who it was, and realised it was a guy with a black hoodie and blue ripped jeans, and he seemed to be watching us. My head tilted slightly in confusion to why this guy would have anything to do with me and Ally but i just ignored him, until something caught my attention. He reached into his pocket, while i still tried to properly focus my vision, and he pulled out something. It looked like a phone, but he started lifting his arm, looking unsure of what he was about to do. But then it became clear. He was holding a gun. As it pointed towards Ally, my eyes widened.
"Ally, we need to go." I said quickly, pulling her with me but she rejected.
"But Austin, i like the rain." She giggled, swinging my arm, but i was too horrified of what was going to happen.
"No, honey, we need to go, please." I whispered to her, kissing her head and quickly pulling her with me. The guy's finger's trembled on the trigger and my eyes widened as i realised he was going to shoot. Reacting quickly, i covered my body over Ally, protecting her from anything that could hurt her. And then the sound blasted into my ears.
He shot.
Nothing.
No pain was rushing through my body, nothing was happening. My ears echoed the sound of the blast, but other than that it had made no difference to my health or how i felt. My breath lowered, and i tightened my grip around Ally. She seemed so weak and tired in my arms and i frowned softly, pulling my face from her neck and looking at her. Her beautiful features shone in my face, but there was one thing that stood out to me.
Her head.
She was…
Bleeding.
My breath sharped. She had a gaping hole in the top on her head, her eyes were closed and her body unmoving. No, this can't be happening. No. No, why? I was covering her! She wasn't supposed to get hurt! She can't, she, she…
"Ally! Als!" I shrieked, my voice croaking. "Are you there? Are you okay?" I shook her body, trying to wake her. Her lips trembled, and her eyes opened slightly, showing me her drooping eyes, and her beautiful features had been crumbled by the wound in her head. I kissed her cheek, stroking her head reassuringly. "It's gonna be okay, everything will be fine, stay with me. Stay with me, Ally." My voice shook as I took out my phone to call an ambulance and as I started dialling a hand landed on my phone and took it from me weakly.
"No, Austin. Don't." She whispered, cracking her voice by struggling to raise it. I stared at her, arms around her as she lay on the ground, rain falling on her face and joining the tears that were already falling.
"It's not your time. It's all my fault! I promised myself i would protect you with my life and if anything ever happened to you it was all my fault. And it is. You can't do this Ally, i need you, please don't leave me here alone." I begged her softly, tears falling onto her as they fell from my eyes. She just smiled weakly, stroking her hair, and then stopped, coughing roughly.
"I don't want to go yet, Austin. Don't let me go." She whispered, lisp trembling in fear. I felt her heart and it was already slowing down rapidly.
"I won't ever let you go. You're my angel, Ally." I whispered softly into her ear and caressed her beautiful body in my arms.
"I just want to say something." She said with a cough rumbling in her sore throat. I nodded and held her hands. They were so cold, it made me feel so horrible. I wanted to make her warm and instead i ended up making her cold. As cold as the snow, and that isn't what i wanted. I never ever ever wanted to see her hurt. It was my worst nightmare, and now it had just come alive. "You changed my life, Austin. You made me feel alive. I honestly just felt like resting in your arms and letting myself fall asleep and i knew i was safe. You made me feel so restful and safe, and i couldn't have felt better. Just know that this isn't your fault, love. You had no way to know this was to happen. I love you so much, just know that, because if you forget i won't be able to rest in heaven." She croaked her last words, forcing them out of her dying lungs. "I am going to heaven, aren't i?" She whispered, staring at the sky longingly. I let out a groan as i cried and nodded softly, stroking her cheek.
"Of course you are. All angels go to heaven, darling…" I murmured into her ear and cradled her like a baby.
"Good." She smiled to herself. "I'll see you there. And we can get together again and get married, i can be your and we can have a family together. That's all i ever wanted." She said and looked at me again, her chocolate eyes fading away slowly. That's what she wanted? And i was never able to give it to her. We never lasted that long. How can i ever let myself live this down?!
"I promise we can get married in heaven. I'll be there." He whispered, tears running down his cheeks in despair.
"Kiss me." She muttered, her heart close to stopping. "Kiss me until i fall asleep." Her eyes shimmered and i smiled down at her, moving the hair from her eyes.
"I love you, Ally." I murmured.
"I..love y-you…too…" She strained to find her voice, and I quickly slowly put my lips against hers, kissing her lovingly and her soft lips began to kiss me back. I smiled weakly, hand pushing against her cheek. Sparks were lightening inside my stomach and i couldn't believe this was the last time i would ever kiss Ally Dawson. My tears were rolling down my face and Ally wiped them away, mumbling into my mouth, "Don't cry, my love. It'll be okay." And her breath was deepened, her lips that were motioning stopped and her hand fell from my cheek. My lips stopped moving against hers, and i clenched my eyes shut, letting my head fall over her unmoving body.
"Don't go, Ally. Don't leave me here alone. Stay with me, I'm sorry, i'm so sorry." My voice cracked as i burst into tears, finally letting myself go as my world crumbled apart.
But it was too late.
I couldn't bring her back.
Everything was gone.
Then i looked up to the side, eyes darkened and my tears dried. The smoking gun that had shot Ally was lying flat on the ground and i felt myself start to burn up, Rage pounded in my stomach and i stood up, holding Ally bridal style and walking over to the gun, picking it up with my free hand and staring at it. It was still smoking, but it had one more bullet inside. My frown lowered and i looked at Ally's pale face, her beautiful features showing through the wound and i growled. I set down Ally and kissed her face.
"I'll avenge you tonight, Ally." I stood up and loaded the gun, hearing it click. "I swear."
Should i do the second part? :) If you liked it please review!
