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In all his years as a vampire he couldn't believe that he was in love with a year old girl. She was sunshine , hope , faith, redemption and most in importably a slayer. all in one little package.When he meat her he thought she was a force to be reckoned with. When he kissed her for the first time and changed that was the first time he really hated him self he knew they couldn't last. He would sit at home and wish that he could be the man that he knew she needed him to be. He had been with thousands of women before her he never loved any of them. When he was human he was a playboy hurting the women who tried to love him.He always believed that becoming a vampire was his curse that for his sins as a human. When he made love to her he thought he was forgiven, only to be throwen into limbo wondering where his sunshine had ran to. When she thrusted that sword through his belly he understood he would never be forgiven he would be damed no matter what. When her mother came to mansion and told him to leave her he understood that no matter how hard he tried he couldn't be what she needed. He wanted to die, he wanted to go and meat the sun but knew that would hurt her more then him leaving her life. He had fallen in love with books that remined him how different there worlds really where. When he had told her he didn't want his life to be with her. He wanted to scream at her that he did want to be with her that he wanted to be the one who's children she would bar. He hated him self for making her cry when they had started dating he had promised him self that her tears would never be because of him . When he had lost his soul he wanted to kill his demon for making her cry the way she did. When he came back from hell he would do little things to tormate his demon. He would read a certain book he knew his demon couldn't stand just to piss him off. or Ware a certain shirt. But he knew how this world worked. He knew there would be other men he wasn't stupid sometimes a bit thick but not stupid. he would hate them and he knew that just as long she was happy thats all what matted to him. he always wonder if she knew that his heart would always be where ever she went. When he had heard the word sanshue he didn't dare hope he prayed that it would happen but it wouldn't mean anything with out her. He fights the good fight. when people ask him why he says because of her. She may die before he becomes human but he will never feel truly alive as to when a 16 year old girl knocked him on his ass. Maybe one day when he is ready to leave this world will he be waiting for her she knows that because in his 244 years he has only loved one person her. He just prays that is anuff
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