Fear I must be dying
As this numbness crawls within my soul
I want this cruel life to end
I can never see my heart again
It's gone away with him
Cut into pieces like him
Watched my own blood spill into the snow
'Give him back to me!'
My scream went unheard
Echoing within my head
And slowly I die heartless and cold
For my heart left with him
And one day I'll get it back
Until that day I will make them pay
Spill their blood like they did his
Watch the life leave their eyes just like I watched his life leave him
His brilliant eyes the colors fading the ocean like décor leaving those blank dead orbs staring back at me
For his life I must take them all
I'm sending him company I laugh bitterly
One day I'll join you
I can't feel any pain it left with him
Watch with detachment as I slaughter that man
That man that hurt you so much
The man who haunted your dreams
Caused your tears
And ultimately caused your death
Wake in the night with your scent in my nose
Open my eyes to find you gone
The tears have stopped having any meaning
Flowing wastefully down my cheeks
I nurse this pain with a tourniquet of stolen life
At night your face haunts me
In the day your presence tears at my already frayed soul
I don't know why I still cling to this life that has lost meaning to me
But I don't want you to be forgotten
And as long as I live you live on within me
Yet as days go by I can feel you leaving
Leaving me alone
And my shattered heart cries out to me
Wandering in a daze
I find what I'm looking for and even as I let go of the railing I can hear your pleas
Echoing in my ears
Pounding in my head
And for everyone who caused you pain I gave them back a 100 fold
Spiraling downwards I can see you watching me
Your hand is outstretched
You're waiting for me and as I reach for you the light around me fades
And I see the twists and I see around me the black world in which you reside curled around the pain that will not fade
And I can feel you heart beating frantically and your smile is true
Yet I can see the darkness consuming you holding you to him with a deadly grip
Hold your hand
Feel your fear
Never let you go
