Fear I must be dying

As this numbness crawls within my soul

I want this cruel life to end

I can never see my heart again

It's gone away with him

Cut into pieces like him

Watched my own blood spill into the snow

'Give him back to me!'

My scream went unheard

Echoing within my head

And slowly I die heartless and cold

For my heart left with him

And one day I'll get it back

Until that day I will make them pay

Spill their blood like they did his

Watch the life leave their eyes just like I watched his life leave him

His brilliant eyes the colors fading the ocean like décor leaving those blank dead orbs staring back at me

For his life I must take them all

I'm sending him company I laugh bitterly

One day I'll join you

I can't feel any pain it left with him

Watch with detachment as I slaughter that man

That man that hurt you so much

The man who haunted your dreams

Caused your tears

And ultimately caused your death

Wake in the night with your scent in my nose

Open my eyes to find you gone

The tears have stopped having any meaning

Flowing wastefully down my cheeks

I nurse this pain with a tourniquet of stolen life

At night your face haunts me

In the day your presence tears at my already frayed soul

I don't know why I still cling to this life that has lost meaning to me

But I don't want you to be forgotten

And as long as I live you live on within me

Yet as days go by I can feel you leaving

Leaving me alone

And my shattered heart cries out to me

Wandering in a daze

I find what I'm looking for and even as I let go of the railing I can hear your pleas

Echoing in my ears

Pounding in my head

And for everyone who caused you pain I gave them back a 100 fold

Spiraling downwards I can see you watching me

Your hand is outstretched

You're waiting for me and as I reach for you the light around me fades

And I see the twists and I see around me the black world in which you reside curled around the pain that will not fade

And I can feel you heart beating frantically and your smile is true

Yet I can see the darkness consuming you holding you to him with a deadly grip

Hold your hand

Feel your fear

Never let you go