Chapter 1: Missing you
Juvia was surrounded by darkness. Wherever she looks she could only see eternal darkness. She was alone and she's getting scared. She kept on walking but it seems like she was not getting any farther away from she was standing. She's also feeling cold. Her body was freezing.
Then suddenly Gray Fullbuster appeared in front of her. Relief and happiness flooded her heart when she saw the man she loves. She run to him and hugged him tight like her life depended on it. His body was warm. Even though he uses ice as his element, Gray has a warm body.
"Gray-sama!" her voice cracked. She missed him so much. She hadn't seen him for more than six months. He disappeared suddenly without a word. "Juvia missed you so much, Gray-sama. Juvia has been waiting for you every day." She held on to his coat tightly. She was afraid that he might disappear suddenly.
Then she felt his arms around her… pulling her body closer to his. She closed her eyes and sighed in contentment and leaned in onto him. "Aisheteruyo, Gray-sama." She whispered.
This is not the first time she told him her feelings. She told him many times. She showed him many times the love she has for him. And even though he wouldn't answer her back or even though he won't show any signs of him being in love with her, it's ok. It's okay as long as he let her stay by his side. As long as she was by his side, she couldn't ask for more.
"I-" Juvia looked up to see his face only to be terrified because of the dark marks appearing slowly on Gray's face. It's like the darkness was consuming half of his body from within.
He smiled evilly at her. And her eyes widen as she let him go.
This is not her Gray-sama. Her Gray-sama is not evil.
She caught her breath when he abruptly throttled her hard. She tried shoving his hand away from her neck but he was sturdy and strong.
This is not definitely her Gray-sama. Gray would never ever hurt her. He did not hurt her when she fought him when she was still in the Elemental Four. Gray protected her and she knows he care for her even though he rarely shows it.
His hold on her neck tightened and she thrashed around hoping to get a lungful of air to breathe but the action only worsened her situation.
"I…"
She looked at him.
"I am so tired of you."
The words cut her heart deep.
"You don't know how much patience I have spent just to be cool with you. But enough is enough. I just kept you around because you were willing to do everything I want. You would even give yourself to me willingly. And I'm not sorry to tell you… I don't like you. That I would fucking refuse you whenever you throw yourself to me."
"I am so fucking done with you and it's time for me to dispatch you. Sayonara Juvia."
He said the last two words with an evil smile on his face as she felt her neck turning into ice. He was freezing her neck!
"GRAY-SAMA!"
"Juvia-san, are you okay?"
She was breathing hard as she looked around. She's in her house and Wendy was beside her wearing a worried face. Charle was also there.
Wendy being the compassionate girl that she is dabbed a face towel around her face. She just noticed but she was sweating like hell.
"Wendy?" Now she remembered that before she fell asleep, Natsu and Lucy were there but they are not to be seen now.
"W-where's Natsu-san and L-lucy?" she asked Wendy.
The latter smiled at her. "They left. Natsu-san said that he's going to Sabertooth. He said that he will find Gray-san."
Her heartbeat went fast when she heard Gray's name. She has this feeling that she has to find Gray as soon as possible. She has a bad feeling about that nightmare she had.
She stood up abruptly and soon regretted it because her vision swirled when she did. She touched her forehead and tried to balance herself because she felt like she would fall anytime.
"Juvia-san, lie down. You have to rest. You have a fever." Wendy said trying to pull her down on the bed but she pulled her hand away.
"Juvia have to find Gray-sama. Juvia will find Gray-sama." She said firmly before she went on her wardrobe to change in appropriate clothes.
"But, Juvia-san, you are sick. You have to get better first." Wendy tried to calm her but she can't follow her. She must find Gray no matter what.
"Juvia must find Gray-sama. Gray-sama is lost… within the darkness inside him. Juvia must guide him back. Juvia… must guide him back home here!" She cried.
"Juvia-san…" Wendy pitied the bluenette. She can see how Juvia misses Gray. And she can feel how strong she loves him.
The girl sighed in defeat. "Okay. I'm going with you." She knelt down in front of Juvia and wiped her tears. If anyone has a strong connection to Gray then it would be Juvia. They lived together in one roof for six months. And way back when the guild is still not dissolved, everyone in the guild could see that Gray cares for Juvia.
"Arigatou, Wendy."
"Wahahaha! That was awesome!" Natsu laughed as he lied down on the ground with Gray on his left and Lucy on her right. And Happy was on his stomach.
Erza was looking at them with obvious happiness in her eyes.
It's been so long since the five of them were together. It brings a lot of memories.
"Yeah! It's been so long since we've fought together! I can't wait for the guild to gather again!" Gray said as he was breathing hard.
They just defeated the all of the member of the dark guild Avatar. Thanks to Gray being undercover they were able to defeat not just a branch but the whole tree.
After a short while Gajeel, Levy and Lily together with the council's army arrived there. They were surprised to see the four of them together but even more when they saw the members of the Avatar Guild tied down and beaten to pulp.
Gajeel realized by just looking at the four's tired faces that they fought the dark guild. He wouldn't tell this to anyone but he was quite relieved to find the ice bastard with Salamander. It only means one thing to him… Gray is on their side.
"Dammit! Why did you take them all down? You didn't not leave some action for me!"
They laughed because of his statement.
After explaining to them the reason why Gray became a member of the Avatar Guild, the council imprisoned the members of the Avatar minus Gray of course.
Now Gray couldn't wait to be home. He wanted to go home and rest. And he knows Juvia will ready him his bath and she will cook his favorite dishes even though she's not a really good cook.
But still he likes how passionate she is when it comes to him.
"Let's go back now. I'm sure Juvia will be happy to see you." Lucy smiled at him and by just hearing Juvia's name his heartbeat became faster.
He could already imagine Juvia running to him and hugging him for dear life and telling him how much she missed him. He smiled inwardly. He doesn't want to admit it but he was looking forward to it.
"But she's sick when we left. Do you think she's already well now?" Natsu said and suddenly he became worried.
"What do you mean she's sick?" he asked Natsu.
Natsu scratch the back of his head. "Well when we came to the village she was sitting under the rain. She even mistook me as you. That's why I said you're a jerk for leaving her behind."
Goddammit! The fire breath is right! I should've told her!
"Gray, don't worry. Wendy is with her. And you know how good she is when it comes to healing magic."
The calmed him a little bit. He just hopes that Juvia is alright or he couldn't forgive himself.
When they arrived at Juvia's house, he became more worried when they found no one inside the house.
"Where are they?" Lucy asked.
All the negative scenarios are now running in his head. And he don't want to entertain the thoughts but he couldn't help it.
"JUVIA!" he shouted as he searches the whole house.
The whole house was neat. There was no sign that the house was attacked.
What the hell happened? Where is she?
"Gray, calm down." Erza told him when she noticed his magic rising up fast.
"How can I calm down?" he shouted as his hair began to stand and the dark marks starts to appear from within his body. "She's not here. Something must have happened! Where is she?"
"Gray… your marks! Calm down!" Erza shouted but he couldn't calm down.
He wants to see her. He's worried about her.
"Gray… calm down. We cannot find her if you're exerting too much worry. I can't track her scent with your uneasiness all over the place."
That stopped him a bit. "What do you mean my uneasiness?" he asked.
"I can smell your emotions. Don't worry! I'll find her for you. So calm down, ice prick."
His marks began to fade and his hair fell down. He's calmed a bit now. He hopes the fire breath finds her fast. He's really worried about her. What if something bad happened to her? He will never forgive his self because he wasn't there to protect her.
"They went out." Natsu said as he walks to the door. "Follow me. We're gonna track them."
As they follow Natsu, Gray couldn't help but feel guilty. He left Juvia without telling her anything about the undercover mission. He knows that she will be worried about him. God knows he wanted to tell her but he also know that if he did tell her she will insist to participate in the said mission. And he wouldn't risk her safety.
But he didn't know that this will happen. He just hopes that Juvia is fine or he can never forgive his self for not being there for her when she was always there for him.
He's so stupid for not realizing his true feelings for her for a long time. He only realized it when he was far away from her. There wasn't a single day that he didn't think of her. Did she eat her breakfast? Her lunch? Dinner? Is she fine? Will she be okay on her own? Will she go after him and find him? Will she wait for him? Or will she find another man?
The last question bothered him the most. His blood boils just the thought of Juvia with another man. He didn't realize it then but the thought scares him.
Then it hit him. He fears of losing Juvia. He fears of her not loving him anymore. He wants Juvia to love him only. He wants her to smile only for him. He wants to see her every waking day of his life. He wants her for himself only.
He was out of his reverie when he noticed that Natsu and other's horses stopped so he stopped his too. And his eyebrow knotted when he saw the building Natsu was looking at. It was no other than Lamia Scale Guild. Lyon's guild!
To be continued…
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