He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came
-The Fray, "How To Save A Life"
You step. And onward. Trying not to breathe
Too loudly; he makes his way
As if he does this, and you realize
Maybe he does, every day.
And still you're irritated, even though
You've never done this before
You don't like falling behind
Even if no one's keeping score.
One hundred and fifty Galleons. Someone tried
To tell you what that would be worth today.
It doesn't matter. A matter of pride
Is all for which you can play.
We should sit down you find yourself not saying
Too many conversations only take
Place in your head. You passed a Muggle
An hour back, but how did you know?
Read it off his face, his empty eyes.
Are you no better than the ones you claim
You're better than? They have their ways around
The valleys. Tricks, tools, but just as soon
Try a Bubble-Head Charm as give it all up.
Why not a Summoning Charm, if that?
Or are there really any here at all?
Somerset is relatively...flat.
"Wir sollen sitzen," you hear yourself say.
He laughs, mollified, and you do.
He doesn't ask and you don't explain
How little you remember. You were five
When they celebrated Hallows' Eve.
Your father relaxed but your mother feared.
Peace then, but for how long? And they taught you
Pieces and bits, some way to reach out
Across the boundaries. It didn't work.
You only wanted to go up, not out.
And here you are, climbing through fading air.
And here is chance, and here as well is doubt.
"Maybe tomorrow, eh?" His laugh is deep.
"Yeah, maybe." And what then? You want to know
What you'd do if you'd find one. Stupid. He's
Done this before, he'd be the one. But you
Are faster on a broom, could pluck
It out of the sky. And then do you just squeeze?
Stupid! This isn't you, you must
Be too high, too far gone to think right.
"I think we should go back." And every step
Drags you closer to the ground
But no closer to who you were before.
What's going on back home is wrong
And this is illegal but such
A thrill. Does it matter anymore?
