Sin here. I ran into my ex last night and he is someone that I didn't want to run into. The one that turns my world upside down every time I see him and now is no different. This story is based on how he makes me feel and I used my name so sue me if you don't like it. I just hope that you like the story. I own no one but the plot and Sarah, James and Cole. So enjoy.
There is this man that always comes into my life at the most craziest times and turns my world upside down. Honestly I love him with all my heart no matter how hard I try not to. There was just something about him that trapped my heart to be just his. We all know that that it is always a man that does this to us. But this last time I hadn't seen him in five years and finally was moving on and falling for someone else. Then it happened, he walked right into my bar and I knew then I would never be over him. That ache in my heart started and my breath quickened just seeing him. This of course made me think of all the nights of wild pleasure he always gave me. He hadn't seen me yet. It was crowded but I had seen him. I felt him the moment that he walked in. So I look at my friend and waved him over. "I'm going back to my office when he and his friends leave come get me and I'll help out more until then Sassy will help you."
He nodded as he looked at the men that I pointed out as I ducked into the back and fled to my back room. I couldn't look at him. I wouldn't let him do this to me again. No I was set to be married and he wasn't going to ruin that for me because he will never marry me. I wasn't good enough to be his wife. He told me that once and still I went back to that. Still I wanted more from him. Not this time, no this time he gets what I got no.
"Are you sure this is her bar Shannon?" I asked him as I looked around for her.
"Oh this is her place alright. I see her here every night." Shannon said to me.
"Then where is she?" I asked him.
Shannon shrugged and then looked at me. "The last time you two did anything you hurt her badly man. Maybe she seen you and split after all she is getting married in a few months."
That news was a blow to the gut and I knew then that I had to get to her before she married someone. "Who is she marrying?"
"Cole Miles." He said to me and I saw red. She deserved better than him. She deserved me and I wasn't going to rest until she was mine.
We made it to the bar and I looked at the bartender. He was glaring at me and I knew what Shannon had said was true. She seen me and split. Shannon nodded to the guy and sat down. Matt sat down on one side of him and I took the other. "James we are here to talk to Sarah."
"Sorry man she isn't here. Wasn't feeling good and she took off a few hours ago heading to her man's house." He said throwing a glance at me.
"I just want to talk to her." I said to him.
"She doesn't want to talk to you." James said to me.
"Too bad cause she is going to talk to me and soon. Tell her that for me. This isn't over. She is mine and she knows it." I said before I stood up and headed for the door.
"Actually I belong to no one." She said from behind him.
I turned around and looked at her and lost my breath. She was so beautiful in that moment with all her anger, pain and love pouring from her eyes. I knew she was meant for me but I never knew that she would move on. "That is where you are wrong Sarah."
"No that is where you are wrong Jeff. I'm over you and I'm done with your shit. Remember you were the one that said I would never be your wife. You lost I found someone that loves me and that is all that matters to me. James hand me my purse so I can get going." She said to the guy.
He handed her the bag and she turned around to walk into the back. "What I remember is you telling me that one day I'll realize what I had in front of me all along. Well I did and I'm here to get it back."
"I also told you that by time you realized that it would be too late. And it is Jeff. It's way too late." She said before she disappeared into the back of the bar.
I wanted to go after her but when I made the move to James got in my way and folded his arms over his chest. "You will leave my big sister alone or I'll show you what an ass beating really is."
I put my hands up and stepped back then I turned and raced out of the of the bar and around to the back in time to see her get on her bike and start it. I was running towards her when she backed up and then pulled away. I knew she had seen me because she looked at me as she backed up. Never had she done this to me before. No she would always listen to what I needed to say even though she knew that in the end I was lying to her. But not this time no she just left me standing here in utter shock. This wasn't the Sarah that I knew and it turned me on even more.
As I flew down the road I knew that my heart was breaking with every turn of my two wheels. But I had to do this to myself. It doesn't matter that Cole can't turn me on just by walking into the room. It doesn't matter that Cole doesn't talk to me for hours at a time for no reason at all. And it doesn't matter that I don't love Cole all that matters is he loves me and I need that I need it more than anyone will ever know.
So I don't turn around even though everything in me wants to. I don't cry because I won't allow it to happen. Nor I will not remember what he can do to my heart, body and soul with one touch. He won't be getting me this time. I'm going to make sure of that.
Then I heard it. I knew then that he wasn't letting me go without a fight and that scared me. He has never chased me before. No he would just let me go. So something has changed but it didn't matter to me anymore and I sped up. They were a few miles behind me but they were catching up. I was going to kill Shannon for this. He was the only one that knew where I lived. No one in town knew where I lived because I didn't live in Cameron anymore. No I had to leave there.
I sped through the yellow light and turned a corner going the other way back to the bar hoping that Shannon didn't realize this when they got through the stop light. I sped down the back roads to get there faster and when I arrived back I went by it and into the garage by James's place. I would be staying there tonight. There was no way in hell that I was going home. That was for damn sure. I let myself in and locked the door back up before I headed to the quest room. I didn't want to do anything but sleep. I didn't want to think. I didn't want to talk all I wanted to do as sleep the night away and wake up so I can pretend that I didn't just see the one man that has a hold of my heart and just won't let go.
Shannon made us pull over a few miles after the red light and looked at us. "She isn't heading home and I don't know where she would stay in Cameron. After all you have the same friends as her."
"What about her little brother where does he live?" I asked him.
"No idea." He said to me and I knew that he wasn't going to tell me. I wouldn't blame him he already pissed Sarah off enough telling me where she lived and showing us how to get there.
"We'll catch her tomorrow." I said before I turned my bike around headed back to my place.
Now all I have to do is think about how I was going to get her to talk to me. I had no idea how I was going to do that until an idea popped into my head and smiled. Sarah never missed gamer night. After all she was the best and we all always try to beat her. So that was what was going to happen. We would be having gamer night tomorrow and I will have Shane call and tell her it's at his house. I know she wouldn't be caught dead anywhere near Matt's or my place.
When we pulled up at Matt's I parked and got off the bike with a huge smile. "What are you up to now Jeff?"
"We are having gamer night tomorrow at Shane's." I said to them.
"Oh you are an ass let it go she doesn't want you anymore." Matt said before he walked to the front door.
"You still hate me for it don't you Matt?" I asked him.
He turned and glared at me. "You broke her down and built her up all the time Jeff. You tried to make her into someone that she wasn't and when she wouldn't be that person you left her high and dry. She always deserved better than that and the fact that you finally see that doesn't mean that she will run into your arms and tell you that she is yours forever after all Sarah belongs to no one."
I shook my head and rolled my eyes. "No you are mad that I got her hooked on me. The fact that with one kiss she wouldn't look at you anymore. The fact that she isn't yours."
A smile spread across his lips and mine disappeared. "I was the one she ran to Jeff. I was the one that had her screaming my name when you weren't around or was with some dumb whore. Sarah would never be mine and we both knew that but I gave her something you couldn't. I gave her the truth and she loved me for it. She still does. Tells me she loves me every time we talk. How about you Jeff when was the last time she told you that she loved you? Stop and think of that. Yeah Cole isn't good enough for her but neither are you so let it go."
I couldn't believe it Matt was the one that Sarah ran to when I put her on the shelf. He was the one that had her when I was doing stupid shit and I never knew. They didn't act like that. Even when they were dared to kiss they didn't let it show. I couldn't believe it. No I wouldn't believe it. "Liar!"
"Think what you want." Matt said before he walked into the house.
Sarah… Oh Sarah where are you? Jeff called to her as she moved through the woods without making a sound.
She stopped when she realized he was close to her and held in her breath. She didn't want to be found just yet. No she wouldn't live that down for a long time. She backed up into a tree and flattened herself against it as he moved past her.
"Sarah…" He purred and she tried to hold her breath in. He was getting to you. He had been getting to her for a long time and he knew it she could see that he knew it.
When she didn't hear him anymore she turned and ran the way she had come. She had to make it back before he did or she was the one that was it. She hated to be it. They would all just leave her alone in the woods for hours on end. But she wasn't it tonight. She was the first one there and that meant that she was safe until the next game.
"Sarah…" She heard in her ear a few minutes later and almost scared until a pain of lips kissed her neck and then licked at the cooling sweat. "You taste so good Sarah."
"Jeff… please stop." She whimpered and she felt his smile against her neck.
"No one is here but you and me. I made sure of that one." He whispered against her skin and she quickly jumped down and raced away from him. She couldn't understand what he was doing. She was fat and Jeff didn't go for the fat chicks. Not once had he ever done that. She made her way through the woods and was almost out when Jeff tackled her from behind.
"Why are you running from me Sarah? You want this and we both know it. So why run from what you want?" He asked as he got up enough to turn her onto her back.
She closed her eyes and didn't say a word. She couldn't speak he was scaring her, turning her on and freaking her out all at the same time. "Look at me Sarah. Come on Baby look at me."
She slowly opened her eyes in time for him to take a picture of her and get up. "I swear you are too easy."
She didn't say anything as she got up and headed to her car. She didn't need that shit from him. The others were looking at her laughing until they saw her face. But it was too late. Sometimes it was too hard being the only girl in the group of your friends.
Shannon rushed over to her car as she opened the door and she stepped back from him. When he went to hug her she moved around him and got into her car. All of the watched in shock when she started her car, slammed the door and peeled out before she sped away from them.
She allowed the tears to fall after she was at home in her room. She wouldn't let anyone see her cry because of this. No they wouldn't be able to see the real pain all that had caused her. She was curled up in her bed with her back to the window so she didn't see when it opened and three guys stepped into her room. "I hate you Jeff." She sobbed out before she closed her eyes and cried herself to sleep.
Matt and Shannon looked at Jeff as he looked at her shaking form. Then he slid to the floor under the window and just sat there staring at her. Matt and Shannon both joined him and that was how she found them the next morning. There staring at her bed without moving. She didn't say anything to them as she got up and left the room.
She knew that they wanted to be forgiven but she wasn't ready to do that. No she wasn't ready for them to think that they got away with it. Last night made her realize a few things and she couldn't stop that from happening if she forgave them. So she didn't.
When she came back from the kitchen all three of them were gone but there was the camera sitting on her bed with a note.
Sarah,
I know that I am an asshole but I never meant to hurt you. We all thought that it would be a good laugh but in fact it wasn't because of the fact you got hurt. I know that you are mad and we all understand that. Just know that I am sorry and so are they. It was my idea to begin with so please don't' stay mad at them. They weren't the ones at fault.
Luv,
Jeff Hardy
I sat up in bed and screamed out my anger of having that damn dream again. I was sick and tired of it all and that meant that I would be making sure that he will let me go and move on with my life. That was for damn sure. I knew that I was kidding myself then but I had to try. I needed him gone out of my world so I could move on.
That was the only thing that I knew for sure. I needed to move on because with him it was only a dead end. One that I'll never hit again. "Hey sis are you ok?"
"I'm fine James." I said to him as he walked in with two cups of coffee.
"Didn't make it to your house I see." He said as he handed me one of the cups.
"Asshole and his friends wouldn't let me." I said to him as he sat down.
"I could kick his ass for you if you want me to." He said to her and she smiled.
"Did I ever tell you that you are a great little brother?" I asked him and he laughed.
"No." He said to me.
"Well, James you are an amazing little brother and I would never trade you in for the world." I said and he pulled me into his arms for a hug.
"You are the best big sister and even though I tried to trade you in a few times I'm glad no one took you." He said and we both shared a laugh.
I pulled away from him and sighed. "He won't leave me alone you know."
"I know." James said to me and I shook my head.
"It doesn't matter anyways. I won't talk to him. I can't let him do this to me again so he can just up and leave once more." I said to him and he nodded.
"Shannon is worried you are pissed at him." He said to me.
"I am." I said to him and he nodded.
