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Season: 7th. Luke's thoughts on the Ep. where Maggie and Jason think he drank all the wine.



Starting Over

By: Leather


I never thought I'd be so lucky. I mean, yeah I *can* get food and well I found out how to get free cable. But that's not the kind of lucky I was talking about.


I'm lucky with the Seavers. With Mike, and his family. I can tell these are good people, so I don't want to screw this up. It hurt, when I thought they were going to kick me out for good. Just when I thought....


But it didn't matter. I watched them come in, their faces set. I knew Mrs. and Dr. Seaver had already made their minds up and they believed...that I had drunk the wine. That I had drank it all, every last drop!!! I even thought that Mike might believe them. I mean, the wine bottles *were* gone and who was I but just some inner city kid who'd stumbled across a nice suburban family?


Well....then the talk came. I didn't want them to know....the truth. Surely after finding it out, that my step dad was a jerk, and what he'd done, they defiantly wouldn't want me stayin' with them. I was all prepared to leave. It was ok. I hadn't gotten attached to anyone there. I could make it on my own.


Then Dr. Seaver got all psychiatric y on me. And he tricked me into talking, into telling them the truth. No flapjacks, no airplanes till I puked my lunch up, none of that was true. The truth was my step dad was a drunk and I had been abused. That was the truth. Only, they didn't have to know that. I could tell em whatever I wanted to, so I did.


Like with Mike. I told him the story about the flapjacks and the lumberjacks. I told Mrs. Seaver and Dr. Seaver two whole different stories, and told Carol that I had been raised in Jamaica. Cause it was better this way. To pretend. Then I didn't even have to think about....the truth.


It had been a long time since I had. A very long time. When it all came out, the pain...Mike telling me his dad got meaner than Freddy Krugar...and he drank wine too, I knew I had to stop it. I couldn't believe someone as nice as Dr. Seaver was a thug underneath it. So, I emptied out every last wine bottle.


I think they understood after that. I looked up and saw Mrs. Seaver, especially after she learned why I had to leave...something was in her eyes. She had that I just want to hug you forever look on her face.


So...maybe I did get lucky. Maybe me, Luke Brower had finally done something to get lucky.


Cause right now, starting over doesn't seem like a bad idea. I could...even get attached to them.


~F I N~