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A/N: drabble, I was wondering how Andromeda felt upon hearing that her favourite cousin had turned out as bad as any of the Noble House of Black. Can be viewed in its own right but also works quite nicely in conjunction with my fic Ruby Knife.

Siri'

Oh Sirius, what happened? I remember the smile that you gave me in that night "I'm going An'. I'm not coming back." Your voice held a glimmering hope that I had never heard in it before. Filling your usually hollow tones with something that seemed to make the words swell out through the darkness. I gave you a hug goodbye, and as I clung to your thin shoulders, I was trying to find some way to follow you. But I had no one to go to; I never had those close friends at school like you. Oh but what have you done to those friends now Siri', betrayed them, betrayed them so badly.

You, out of all our family, The Most Noble and Ancient House of Black, I thought you would survive. Ironic, I know, you thought you would certainly suffocate within those dark walls. But, you see, I knew you would escape, and hoped that someday I would too. And I did survive, I found Ted, dearest Teddy, and he smiled so sweetly and spoke so nicely, not in the refined tones of a well-to-do pure blood family, but in a voice laced with kindness, and words that brimmed with sincerity, a voice so many miles away from the icy falsities our family existed on. And you Siri', you escaped, surely that would guarantee survival more then anything else, complete escape from that noble house. But perhaps you can't escape family; perhaps I only survived because I made my own family, with dearest Ted and sweet little Nymphadora. But you never made your own family, I think you tried to make your friends your family once, but they had their own. And James, your dearest friend, if ever you had a family it was him. He had his own family, his wife and baby boy. And where did that leave you Siri'? Alone again, I suppose. Is that why you did it, Sirius? Because he abandoned you?

Or perhaps, that's why you joined Him in the first place. Did you think you could make that your family? It wouldn't surprise me, a band of extremists, high on their own ideals and convinced that they are gods amongst insects. Sounds like our childhood home to me.

But you never believed them Siri'! Even when you had lost faith in everything else you still knew that whatever there was for you to believe in, it was not their obsessive pure-blood ideals. It was often the only sensible idea that I could get out of you, everything else you said was just a blur of self-pity and rambling anger.

So what made you change your mind? What did they say to you, Siri', that made you change your mind?


Shortest fic ever written, I know. But hey, it's a drabble! Review anyway? C'mon, inflate my ego!