Only Us

"Only Us" - Song lyrics from Dear Evan Hansen Musical

Elly:

I don't need you to sell me on reasons to want you

I don't need you to search for the proof that I should

You don't have to convince me

You don't have to be scared you're not enough

'Cause what we've got going is good

I don't need more reminders of all that's been broken

I don't need you to fix what I'd rather forget

Clear the slate and start over

Try to quiet the noises in your head

We can't compete with all that

So what if it's us?

What if it's us

And only us

And what came before won't count anymore or matter?

Can we try that?

What if it's you

And what if it's me

And what if that's all that we need it to be

And the rest of the world falls away?

What do you say?

Chloe:

I never thought there'd be someone like you who would want me

So I give you ten thousand reasons to not let me go

But if you really see me

If you like me for me and nothing else

Well, that's all that I've wanted for longer than you could possibly know

So it can be us

It can be us

And only us

And what came be fore won't count anymore or matter

We can try that

Elly & Chloe:

It's not so impossible

Nobody else but the two of us here

'Cause you're saying it's possible

We can just watch the whole world disappear

'Til you're the only one

I still know how to see

It's just you and me

It'll be us, It'll be us

And only us

And what came before won't count anymore

We can try that

You and me

That's all that we need it to be

And the rest of the world falls away

And the rest of the world falls away

The world falls away

The world falls away

And it's only us

Songwriters: Benj Pasek / Justin Paul

Chapter One

Chloe and Elly sat on the couch at Aaron and David's house watching TV. They sat far enough apart that they weren't touching and simply stared at the movie they were watching. Chloe wasn't paying attention to the movie at all as her mind kept bringing her back to the thought if anyone saw the two women sitting on the couch they would look like nothing more than friends.

The pair had been more than friends for nearly 5 weeks now but no one would know it by looking at them.

Elly had done a lot of damage to the Brennan clan. Two months earlier she had been caught out lying that the baby she was pregnant with wasn't her husband, Mark's, baby and had been forced to tell him truth after she had suffered a miscarriage when she'd taken a fall at home. Mark had rushed her to the hospital, terribly afraid that he was going to lose his second unborn child. Their brother-in-law, David, took an ultrasound and the grim news of their babies passing was then overridden when David noticed the baby was close to a month smaller than the dates both Elly and Mark were giving him.

When Mark had taken a few minutes to himself to grieve, Elly knew that David knew the baby wasn't as old as they claimed and didn't need to be the one to explain to David why she was lying. David was surprisingly nonjudgmental that Elly had cheated on Mark for a second time but he was upset that Elly was trying to play the baby off as Mark's and now her husband was grieving for a child that wasn't his.

When Mark returned Elly broke down and confessed all, Mark was furious. As Mark stormed off to head to Toadies' office to immediately ask for annulment papers be drawn up, Elly was left alone to grieve for a baby that whilst she loved with all her heart had been created in a moment that she was desperate to keep her marriage alive after her first cheating scandal involving Mark's sister, Chloe.

Elly was also struggling to deal with what her feelings for her best friend were. Elly had never had romantic feelings for another woman before and was trying everything she could she avoid that she did have feelings for Chloe.

Alone in the hospital, Elly had called Chloe, giving her very little details as to why she needed her. Chloe had dropped everything and turned up for Elly and whilst she was disgusted that Elly had lied to Mark about the baby been his she still stood there by the bed and held onto Elly as she cried all night long. Chloe didn't leave her side.

Despite everything that her sister-in-law had done, Chloe loved her with every fiber of her being. She'd been in love with Elly for half a year. They had one drunken night where the pair had slept together two nights before Elly's wedding to Mark when he had abandoned Elly and called off the wedding with Elly using Chloe's feelings for her for comfort but aside from that Elly had shown no romantic interest in Chloe.

Until nearly 5 weeks ago.

Since that day in the hospital 8 weeks ago Chloe had been the only person to stand by and support Elly, not even Elly's sister Bea or the aunt and uncle whom she lived with, Susan and Karl, could fully forgive her for trying to trick Mark into raising a baby that wasn't his. They were right not to forgive her completely but it still hurt Elly to feel like she didn't belong with her family anymore.

After Elly was discharged from hospital she and Chloe had spent an increasing amount of time together. When Chloe was at work, Elly hid herself away in her bedroom at Susan and Karl's house unable to face the world especially since she lived on the same street as her soon-to-be-ex-husband and all their close friends and family.

When Chloe wasn't at work, Elly was at Chloe's place hanging out with the blonde as they tried to regain their best friend status. It was still difficult as Chloe lived at her other brother, Aaron's, house who he owned with his husband, David, the doctor who had convinced Elly to come clean to Mark about the pregnancy.

The Brenarka household although a new place for them all, it still came with memories due to the people living there.

Aaron was not happy that Elly was at his house spending time on his couch with Chloe, feeling like Mark thought he was choosing his soon-to-be-ex-wife over him but he could also see that absolutely no one wanted anything to do with Elly for the first few weeks since her secret was revealed and despite the horror that she had put his brother through, Aaron theoretically understood Elly's desperation to save her marriage. He also knew she did need support through her own grieving process and didn't want her to go through that alone.

As those first few weeks went on, Elly couldn't help but depend on Chloe. They hung out every moment the sun was shining bright in the sky when Chloe wasn't at work. Elly been unemployed didn't have such distractions. Despite grieving at the time for her marriage ending and losing her unborn baby, within days of spending time with Chloe, Elly knew it was more than friendship.

Elly had been fighting it for longer than she cared to admit. She knew her feelings for Chloe had been sparked by their night together but Elly was so desperate to be married to a man and start a family that she pushed those feelings deep down.

As they spent more time together, Chloe set clear boundaries knowing how much she loved Elly and didn't want to cause her heart anymore pain if she was to get her friendship with Elly back on track. After the night at the hospital where Chloe had held Elly all night long as she cried, Chloe wouldn't allow any kind of physical comfort between the pair and wouldn't let Elly in her bedroom if she was in there. So they spent all their time hanging out at the Brenarka household in the living room, kitchen or out the back by the pool but never in the pool or spa.

But after 3 weeks of spending time together, one night Elly had gotten up from the couch to fetch them some more snacks only to come back and see Chloe had laid out on the couch and fallen asleep. With Aaron and David away for the night, Elly took a chance and laid down on the couch next to Chloe, allowing herself to be spooned protectively by the blonde as she fell asleep in her arms.

When the pair awoke the next morning, Chloe freaked out apologizing for holding her during the night, until Elly had hushed her and admitted that she was the one who curled into Chloe's arms because she wanted to feel the love Chloe had for her again. Before she could hesitate, Elly kissed Chloe very delicately and admitted that she did have feelings for her but had been fighting them for months.

Chloe could barely believe the words from Elly's mouth until Elly kissed her again gently and wrapped her arms around Chloe. Chloe gave into the embrace, her mind spinning as she kissed the brunette.

Elly had taken Chloe into her arms and then led the blonde to Chloe's bedroom where Elly initiated every single moment between them as they made love to one another. Curling up into Elly's embrace, Chloe couldn't believe that her dream was coming true.

Chloe still knew they had an uphill battle ahead of them considering Elly was in the process of annulling her marriage to Chloe's brother and their family and friends had yet to fully forgive Elly for lying to Mark about the baby's paternity.

But as they lay there together in Chloe's bed as Elly held her after they had made love to one another, Chloe couldn't help but feel excited and proud that Elly had admitted she did have feelings for her.

Then Elly had uttered the words to Chloe: "Let's keep this between only us."

Chloe raised her eyebrow as she continued allowing Elly to hold her gently against her. Chloe questioned why Elly wanted to keep their feelings hidden but she needn't have asked, Chloe already knew all the answers as Elly rattled them off to her.

Elly was still trying to come to terms with her feelings for Chloe, Elly's marriage wasn't officially over, Elly was still grieving her unborn child and didn't know how to accept that happiness could find her so soon after, most of Elly's family and friends were still unhappy with her and Elly didn't want them to shift those feelings to Chloe for beginning a relationship with her and of course Chloe's 'favourite' excuse, secret relationships are just more fun.

Elly promised they wouldn't have to hide their relationship for long, she just needed a couple weeks to start putting her life back together and then she'd be comfortable been out in a relationship with the blonde.

Though she was hesitant, Chloe agreed. She was completely in love with Elly, what could a couple weeks of enjoying a secret relationship with Elly between "only us" do to harm a long-term relationship for the pair?

Weeks had passed and still Elly would not tell anyone they were in a relationship. Chloe was getting frustrated at how different Elly was with her depending on the circumstance. When they hung out as 'friends' it was like Elly had an 'off switch' to their relationship and they were strictly best friends only.

Then the moment they were alone with little chance of been caught out, Elly was a loving and passionate girlfriend completely comfortable with putting Chloe's needs before her own.

Chloe knew that coming out was a process and Elly was on her own journey to accepting her sexuality wasn't as straight as an arrow. But the flipping between her best friend who hung out with Chloe watching movies and reading magazines versus her girlfriend who was content to share Chloe's bed and make love to her was beginning to do Chloe's head in.

So here they sat on the couch, playing best friends watching a movie at the Brenarka household whilst Aaron and David were hanging out in the kitchen having some boring financial, paying bills, night in.

Chloe sat there next to Elly waiting for her brother and brother-in-law to head to bed and knowing that as soon as they did Elly would flick the 'on switch' to their relationship.

Chloe was growing impatient with their routine but it had been her decision to keep their relationship between "only us" and she had to remind herself to be patient with Elly if their relationship was to last forever.

One day soon Elly will flick the 'on switch' to our relationship and never turn it off right…?