A/N: I got a message from an eliminator(whatever that means). They were all like 'take the lyrics out before somebody wants to report abuse for using song lyrics!' And since I am a person who has zip self confidence, I did it. I guess this means no sad Songfic for Skyfall by Adele. :( I just took out the lyrics and added detail to the story, so the the main plot line doesn't change. I guess you just gotta listen to the song while you read. Here, I'll give you the link. watch?v=xKCek6_dB0M&feature=kp
Toph sighed as Zuko walked by, but quickly plastered a smile on her face when he turned to look at her. "Hey Toph!" He said. "Hi Sparky." She looked away from him as he approached Sokka, who was sitting next to Toph. She was forcing herself to act disinterested, and it was a wonder he didn't notice. She groaned as Sokka loudly asked him about his Fire Nation girlfriend.
Toph could tell he was bashful about the subject, but eventually he and Sokka were in an all-out verbal battle about which of their girlfriends was better.
"Suki is captain of the Kyoshi warriors!" Sokka argued.
"Well Mai didn't even need any training to throw her knives!" Zuko argued back with a grin.
Toph just started tuning them out. For a moment, she wished that she was Mai. It wouldn't matter if she had to deal with Azula, at least Zuko would be her boyfriend. She was snapped out of her thoughts when they addressed her.
"Hey Toph, who do YOU think is better, Mai or Suki?" Zuko asked suddenly. At this Toph laughed so hard her stomach hurt.
When she stopped, she said, "Does it matter?"
She couldn't tell how Sokka felt about that, because all she could think about was Zuko. Zuko and his little laugh that no one could hear except Toph. She sighed and imagined what it would feel like if Zuko was arguing over her, not Mai.
She listened the first few minutes of his little speech about how great Mai was and how he loved her so much and couldn't bear it if she hated him. After that, Toph just sighed inwardly at the hopelessness of her little crush on Zuko.
Her mind started to wander, and then she started to think about the many sleepless nights she had, when she was hoping he would walk by the door so she could at least talk to him, but he never did.
Toph remembered the tear stains on her shirt, so she went to ask Katara about washing them out. On the way over, she stopped, thinking that maybe he would notice the stains and care enough to ask what she had been crying about.
Sometimes Toph hated how she could never get Zuko off her mind. She hated how even though she hadn't known him much more than a week, she still loved him. She sighed, then realized that the two boys had stopped arguing.
She watched as Zuko stormed away, Sokka having beat him by saying, "At least Suki's not evil!" For a moment, all she could think about was getting Sokka for teasing Zuko like that. She stood up, and punched Sokka in the arm. Hard.
Then, Toph ran up to Zuko where he had been sulking by the woods. "He's just teasing."
"What?" He said. Toph repeated herself smugly. She noticed the small drops of tears forming around his eyes, and how he was flawless even when he was crying. Why was he so perfect? The scar just added to the depth of his personality.
Toph wished she was as perfect as him, maybe then he would like her like she liked him. Maybe then she could stop wishing she was Mai. She was sick of it.
What he said next snapped her out of her thoughts.
"Great! That makes me feel so much better, he's teasing me about how my girlfriend is evil!"
He was even perfect when he was desperate.
"I was just telling you that was was far from sincere." She said.
"Oh... Thanks Toph."
As Toph walked away, she muttered, " Mai better not break his heart, she better not hate him. She better Love him with all her heart and keep him happy."
She stomped her foot, and three large boulders floated above the ground. Toph threw two of them at a tree.
"Mai better know she's lucky to have him love her so much, she better look at him and see how beautiful he is and how lucky she is to have someone as beautiful as him love her. If she doesn't I will personally rip her to shreds!" She threw the last boulder at a bush, pretending it was Mai if she broke Zuko's heart.
Katara looked at Toph strangely, but continued what she was doing.
Toph bit back a sob and held a tear in as she acknowledged again that he would never love her. For once she played a Katara card about hoping that someday he will, but she only barely believed it. She didn't know why she kept trying, but she just didn't want to stop, she didn't want to give up.
Toph sat silently through supper, just wanting to be alone, instead of wrestling for meat with the boys (minus Zuko, he was too princely to do that). When she was finished, she went to her room in the Western Air Temple, closing her eyes She forced herself to stop repeating his voice in her mind, she tried to stop thinking about him.
A silent tear went down Toph's cheek, and she thanked the gods that she never cried in front of the others. Toph wished Zuko wasn't breaking her heart, but she knew it wasn't his fault.
She couldn't stop loving him.
She spent so much time with him, but it never seemed to be enough for him to like her like that. She sat up and tried to wipe the tears away, but the little droplets just kept coming. She closed her eyes and took a deep breath, trying to calm down.
Toph wished for a second time that day that she was Mai so she could be in his arms. That would be all she needed. She would be s happy if that could be true, but she knew in the back of her mind that it could never happen. She wasn't Mai, and he was in lobe with Mai.
Zuko passed her room, stopping in front of the door. "Toph, what's wrong?" Toph shook her head and grinned at him.
"I'm fine don't worry."
Zuko shook his head back and luaghed for a second, then wished her goodnight. As he turned to go, Toph whispered, "Wait, Zuko? Can I ask you something?"
To be continued
