Really? I guess there is far too much hurt to see past that, Bass.

Yes, those were not my greatest achievements. Hurting you was never in the cards, Waldorf. Not everything was bad.

She looks at him. Here was the man who for some reason, would always have this hold on her, to say the least. Despite all of the hurt, the games, and the wasted time. "Not everything... but far too much. You have too much darkness in you. I'm trying to rise above my past and my mistakes. Being around you, well it brings about temptations and causes me to be this ugly person." She knew she was being harsh with her words. While there was truth to them, she knew she was far from innocent. But after losing Nate, she had to keep her resolve. Not get reeled back in.

Her words stabbed him like a knife. He never realised how much hurt he had caused her. He went towards, taking her hand into his and said "Blair..I'm sorry for everything. I'm sorry for not being the man that you've always wanted me to be for you" as he placed a kiss onto her hand.

She could see the pain etched across his face. It cut her deep. No matter what he did to her, she could not bear to see him in any pain. Especially not because of her. But she was determined not to get in his cross hairs again. It would not be easy at all. She loved him, hated him... would die for him, had died from the pain he caused her. He was her weakness. Always had been. His lips across her hand sent a chill up her spine. Pulling her hand away, Blair shakes her head. "I really am glad you are sorry, Chuck. And that is supposed to just wash everything away? Hardly." She could feel these strong emotions trying to take her over, but she had to stay strong.

He knew that there was no way that the two of them would be able to go back to being anything. He lost her a long time ago and it was his fault, everything was his fault. If he had thought better, he would not of traded her for his hotel. He wouldn't of slept with her nemesis, Jenny Humphrey. He looked at her, her porcelain skin was immaculate. All he ever wanted was to make her happy and he had failed to do that. All he could say was "love just doesn't disappear, Waldorf. You were and are everything to me" as he stepped back away from her, walking over to a nearby mini bar, pouring himself a drink.

Hearing his words, they leave Blair stunned. They were beautiful and wonderful, but he had talked like that in the past. And they been just empty words. So while her heart was racing, her head was telling to calm down. It's not like anything could change between them. Still, all during her marriage to Nate, she thought of Chuck. She loved Nate, of course. She always would. But Chuck... he was under her skin and seemed to never leave. She loved him, too. Deeply, recklessly, and with all she had. Her whole heart and body. So while she loved Nate, she was totally in love with Chuck. But he kept hurting her. She would have to be a total fool to let him back into her life. Unfortunately, he was in her heart. Complicated to say the very least. Chuck was toxic, but he was like a drug she could never get enough of. She could tell from his movements he was longing she would say something else but knew where they stood. She wondered why she was still standing here. She should just walk away, but her feet were firmly planted in place. "Love can be killed, Chuck. It is possible." It takes her a minute to hear his words fully. "I am everything to you..." He was speaking in the present tense. "What does that mean? After everything, including me marrying your best friend, how can you say that to me?"

He stood by the window, glass in hand. Just being in the same room with her always brought back memories to him, the good and bad. He knew in his heart, that she was the the one he wanted, the one he needed, the one he couldn't live without. Afterall, Chuck Bass couldn't be Chuck Bass without Blair Waldorf by his side, she was indefinitely in his veins. He was prepared to change to be a better person, a better man, but he knew that with one stretch of the hurdle, something would come crashing down and he would end up to be the villain again. He turned around to face her and just softly said "my love for you is still there, still here" as he let out a laugh, a laugh of a desperate man as he went up to her and whispered into her ear "I don't give a damn to who you have been married to or will marry, all I care is that I can't just let you go" as he stroked her the curve of her cheek, smiling.

No matter how much they fought or wronged the other, they never would be able to get enough of each other. Never be able to really walk out of the other's life. As he said, "Love does not disappear," so no matter what she did or who she married, her feelings for him would not die. She tried to kill them. But they were always there. His presence was intoxicating. The air felt very hot. She could use a drink herself. Or three. "You let me go a long time ago, Chuck. If you think you ever will have me again, you are sorely mistaken..." She trails off as he moves closer to her. Being so close to him... it did something to her. She wanted to run, get far away from her. Her resolve was melting by the second. His hot breath across her skin, his hand on her face... She was saying one thing, but she knew that he could see her facial expression and movements. So he knew that he was getting to her.

He just felt empty in the exact moment she had let those words out of her mouth. The one person who made him feel alive, just made him dead inside. He tried to find these feelings in other people but to no luck. He just grabbed her petite waist into his hand in a close embrace towards him, her scent was intoxicating, he could taste her already. He then let her go and just admittedly said against her ear "letting you go was the biggest mistake of my life" as he stared at her with pain shot eyes. With one quick motion he caught her lips, against his remembering that he was a changed man. He let go of her slowly, whispering against her ear "your free" as he held onto her hand, eventually having to let go.

Her words seemed to make him recoil, as if he had been bitten. It hurt her to say them. They had to be said, but yet she knew it did not change her feelings for him. His response shook her. Remembering everything. How he made her feel. No man had ever compared. She felt weak with desire and foolish for that. Her mouth was saying one thing, while her body was reeling from the flames that danced across her skin. That kiss was sudden, but it left her feeling almost drunk. She could barely speak. Finally, words come or start to. "Chuck... I don't want to be free." She looks down. She did not want to be this weak girl. But even when she was married to Nate, her thoughts were often of Chuck. Try as hard as she might, he was her weakness that she could not resist.

He kept a safe distance from her, he didn't want to say or do anything in fear that he would do something to screw up the situation that he was in. He walked away from her, sitting on the large leather sofa, as he covered his eyes then massaging his temple in circular motions, just to gather his thoughts. He looked up at Blair as he slowly got up, walking towards her, saying "it's just you and me here, remember Chuck and Blair, Blair and Chuck, what is it that you want?" as he took her gently in his arms, just holding her.

Sighing, she paces a bit. She had a headache herself. It was never simple with them. She rests against him, keeping quiet. It just felt good like this. If only things would stay this way. She sighs again. "I think you know what I want. What I have always wanted. Or, rather, whom. But he can't seem to go a day without failing me. So do I trust him again?" She pulls back, looking at Chuck. She was just tired from battling. Was it too much to want some happiness? Things to be easy?