A short fic on the thoughts of Carlisle Cullen, on his son Edward, Bella and Jacob.

Thoughts of Carlisle

Carlisle looked out the window. Another grey day in Forks, Washington. Grey, misty and overall, a very sad look of the worl.

This was the ideal weather to contemplate about things, some would say

*People wonder what I think of the triangle relationship of them.

What I suggest my son to do, what I tell Bella when I see her

To be honest, I dont tell anything. I keep my thoughts to me, where Edward cant hear them.

I do not reveal my true ideas, thoughts and feelings. For feelings I have, yes.

A lot of them.

Anger, hate, hope and then return to anger and hate. But the hardest feeling of them all is the love feeling I have.

Love feeling. Feeling love.

For my son, yes. For Jacob too, yes.

But most of all for Bella. What should I do?

I wonder when people will tell me what to do about those love feelings for her

I dont want to hurt Esme, I love Esme too but more as companion then as lover.

I love Bella. There, I said it. I just wont love her enough for her to be with me*

Hi, Carlisle. Is Edward home?

*It is her! If my heart would still beat, itd be beating so hard shed surely be able to hear it. Its all so wrong of me*

Yes, hes in his room.

She left. Left him again to be with her true love.

Carlisle looked out the window again. It seemed that the day had became even more grey now.

Short AN: I wrote this 4 years after my last publishing here on . Im slowly returning to my love of writing. This due to my break-up with my boyfriend. We were in a relationship for 3 years and today I still love him, I want him back but he wants time and just wants to be friends for now. Friends is better than nothing, but it hurts like hell