AN: Well, enjoy. I don't own Harry Potter and never will. I do own this idea so steal it and I'll eat you.
All in the mind, you said. Was it all in the mind when Sirius died? Was it all in the mind when he fell through the veil…? I can see it so clearly in my head. Why did you do it? It was your fault. Your life has left a trail of death behind and now you tell me it's all in my head. If this was a dream I would have taken control by now. If this was a dream my parents would never have died. My mother fell like a doll thrown into a dumpster. It was all part of your plan, you say. You claim that it was all supposed to happen. Sirius died, fell through the veil. Belatrix threw him aside after she'd finished with him and there was nothing anyone could do. Yet you say it was all in my head.
And what about you? You let yourself die. You died on purpose, hanging in the air while the battle raged. Then you hit the ground and were at peace while all of the rest of us fought to survive. We fought wishing that you were back. We fought wanting you to come back while we knew you never could. That is why I didn't seek you to comfort me through the resurrection stone. That is why I never wanted you to come back. You said you were going to tell me everything! I learned everything but not through you. Through finding out myself. Through Ron and Hermionie. Even through the man who killed you, but not through you.
I thought you were going to watch and plan. I thought you had a plan for everything. Ron almost left us forever and we almost failed because you neglected to plan ahead. Maybe you did plan ahead. Maybe you didn't. One thing is certain though – you never confided in me. Not once did you truly tell me what you were thinking. Not once did you tell me that you were going to die. If you had told us I could have forgiven Snape before he died. If you had just been able to tell people the truth rather than hiding behind your secrets and your lies Voldemort could have been long gone by the time you were to die. If you had told me all of this so long ago, Lupin and Tonks could have been happy. Mad – Eye could have been a Hogwarts teacher. Sirius could be my friend. My parents could still be alive. I could have grown up with parents. Wormtail would never have had to betray me. Neither would he have had a life debt to me. Dobby would be fine in the kitchens. The Weaslys would all be one big happy family. We would still be able to say Weasly twins and I would never have had to commit murder. But none of this can ever happen because of you. All of this is your fault.
Did you like that? I know Harry would never actually say any of that to Dumbledore, but he was probably thinking it up until the very end of DH. Well, anyway, review honestly and have a nice day.
