Now this is my first fanfiction,so please be easy on me!
Ok, i wrote this because i hate how everyone hates Edward for leaving Bella in New Moon
So i tought i'd write how Edward felt afterwards and what went throught his head
Enjoy!!
oh and i do not own any charters or plot or whatever... to make it easy... im not stephnie Myers
I quickly rushed away from my sweet Bella. I could see in her eyes that she believed every word of what I had said, and I hated that. How could she believe a single word that came out of my mouth? I thought Bella had finally learned how to read my eyes. Search for t he truth and lies.
I didn't know where to go. I found myself going the familiar path to our meadow. I knew going there would cause me to think of her. Think about what I had done that had caused her so much pain. That had cause me so much pain. It was a decision I could no longer put off. I had to protect her from the monster that hid inside me. Protect her from all the monsters that had caused her so much pain. Protect her from me.
I found myself in our meadow lying against the rock where everything had happened. The exact place I had found love. The place where all the secrets were unleashed. Thinking about a lion, and what I truly called myself that day. A lion was like a butterfly compared to what I truly was. I was a demon released from hell, not to torture any human, but to torture myself. A lion held pride, and that was something I would never have.
Then my thoughts turned to a lamb. What torturous things a creature from hell could do to a lamb. And what would happen if that demon were to fall in love with the lamb? Would that demon bring the lamb into hell with him, or let the lamb life it's life and become mates with another lamb?
What affect this simple human girl had on me? I let a feeling I've never felt overwhelm me for the first time in over 80 years… love. I took away an innocent girl's safety for my greediness for love. I feel ashamed of myself. I felt good to be like Bella. Good that only with her I felt human.
I could no longer stay in Forks, I knew it. I made a promise to Bella to stay away, and I intend to keep it. I realized that it would tear out my inactive heart to do it, but it's something I had to do. A lion wouldn'y be able to love a lamb without the lamb getting hurt.
ok please since this is my first fanfiction Id love some feedback...
Do you like my writing?
Do you want more?
For now
Thanks
-ochaftergirl
