By: Paints-the-Sky
Disclaimer: Don't own 'em, just love 'em.
A/N: This is just one of those spur-of-the-moment standalones, so don't expect an update. What AJ does to Ryan I will leave up to your imagination, but lets keep it PG-13, 'kay? Please review!!!
"How long how long
Will I slide
Separate my sideI don't
I don't believe its bad
Slit my throat
It's all I've ever had…"
-- Red Hot Chilli Peppers, Otherside.
Ryan is alone in the darkness.
And it's so cold.
And it's always so cold.
And AJ bursts in.
And AJ's so angry, with the smell of gin on his breath.
And Ryan knows what's coming.
And it doesn't make it hurt any less.
And that's not the worst part.
And everyone is watching, everyone he thought would help him, everyone he thought had loved him.
And they're just watching.
And when it ends, Ryan doesn't know if he can take it any more
And the pain is eating him from the inside out.
And he's so hurt, so broken, so damaged.
And he doesn't want to do this anymore. Doesn't want to feel this pain and this shame.
And he just wants to die.
And he finds a razor in his hand.
And it's so easy.
And its so scary.
And he can't stop, even though he wants to.
And he remembers the happy day in Fresno, the one he always thought of right before he slipped into unconsciousness, after another brutal beating.
And he's so confused.
And even though everyone is right there, he's so alone.
And he wishes he knew the right thing to do.
And it doesn't matter anymore.
And he knows that no one will miss him, that in the end, it never mattered.
And his soul is swept away in a red river, cut from shining blades.
And hes rising…up… up to a place he could never reach before.
And he's almost there.
And…
And its only a dream.
And Seth leaves, now that Ryan's awake, now that he's okay.
And Ryan still isn't sure that it wasn't real.
And still…
Ryan is alone in the darkness.
A/N II: Well? What did you think? PLEASE review!!
