I would love to make you a regular thing.
Talking to you in the evenings,
Walking to school in the mornings
Together.
I think, maybe,
I fell in love with your patterns, and inconsistencies
Like the way, you groan on your way to sleep.
And how your heart beats.
I want to be your heartbeat.
Just to be that much closer to you, living
Within you, inside your chest,
Make a home under your flesh.
You wouldn't want me to think that,
So I wouldn't either.
You love things around you,
So I want to do that too.
Waking up to see the sunshine is nice, I suppose.
But waking to see your smile,
Is like having the sun shining in my bed every morning.
The warmth radiates from your side of the mattress.
But novels tell me
It's always weird, always unrequited.
I don't want to be supporting you
As you look for someone else.
I want to support you,
As someone who is yours.
And you,
Mine.
It's intoxicating, the feeling,
Of having someone I want
Close to me.
Thinking when, where, how...
How you could be mine.
But I'll wait.
You're taking me in small doses,
That's okay.
I'll wait to take you in
All at once.
Y'all can decide who is who lel
- Jae
