This is a dramatized account of an actual period in my life. The inspiration to make this a poem and put it on here was a review by Miyinithil on my fic "The Watcher." She said she didn't understand what it was with Christians and getting other people to "see the light." Well, here's why. Yeh, so maybe it's a little dramatic, but that's for the wonderful people that read this to decide, isn't it? But anyway, for an un-poetic, real-life account of what happened to me, email me! Anyway, I hope Miyinithil reads this.

Huddling in the dark
Moonlight glints on salty tears
Shadows move and everything is frightening
The pictures on the walls of this prison mock me
Showing me my greatest moments
Reminding me of how far I've fallen
Every whisper, every sound becomes deafening
I'm alone in smothering nothingness
There is no existence anymore
Except racking sobs
And the feel of an empty soul
How can I have slipped down this low?
All at once impulse claims me
I reach at air, grab at anything
My hands meet with my baby blanket
Memory of childhood forever lost
I cast it away like a branding iron
Next I touch a necklace once Mama's
Memory of death and pain and loss
I clutch it to my chest for all I'm worth
But it brings no comfort anymore
My arms snake out again and find a book
Thick and dusty, seldom used
My foggy eyes discern "Holy Bible"
Memory of- no, not memory of it
Not memory, but hope of what could come
I look inside for any shred of counsel
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart."
Why should I?
I flip through in disgust
"His one and only son"
"By his wounds we are healed."
It begins to be clearer
My hands lead me to places
I've not visited in too long a time
"By faith Abraham, by faith Rahab"
"Behold, I stand at the door and knock"
And I find myself praying
It's still dark, but I have been enlightened
The pictures still hang on my wall
But now they smile for joy
"The old has gone, the new has come"

Proverbs 3:5-6 "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight."

Isaiah 53:5 "...The punishent that brought peace was upon him, and by his wounds we are healed"

John 3:16 "For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only son, that whoever believes in him will not perish, but have everlasting life."

Hebrews 11 "By faith..."

Revelation 3:20 "Behold, I stand at the door and knock..."

1 Corinthians "...The old has gone, the new has come."

RR, pretty please?