I've never wrote an insecure Randy Orton before but I guess I wanted to write something different and I just love Randy Orton, so…Oh, and since I seem to have the tendency to name my fics after songs, this one's named after a Radiohead song of the same title. It's a short, tiny little fic.
I don't own Randy Orton or John Cena
There's this large part of him that knows he doesn't deserve this. That's what Randy's thinking while he's in bed, on his side, watching John sleep.
He's an asshole, he knows that. He's always too honest, too jealous, too angry. There's always the too in front of it. It's the only way he's ever been described. He can't just be angry…he has to be antagonistic and stupid on top of that.
He doesn't belong here, in bed next to John. He is completely in love with John but he's destroyed every other relationship he's ever been in and he doesn't see how this one will be different.
Still, he had agreed to it because he is completely in love with John and apparently has no will power when it comes to him. Which not only makes him an asshole but a selfish asshole.
Most people are under the impression that Randy is a cocky bastard…and he is…when it comes to his career. He knows he's good at his job. But everything else? Not so much. He's had too many people tell him that they can't take living with him. After so many people, you have to start thinking that you're the problem. Randy's knows he's the problem.
John's all light. Nothing ever gets him down. He's an optimist. A genuinely nice and happy guy who draws people to him without even realizing it. John's endlessly optimistic that it'll work out between them as well but Randy knows how it will end.
Randy moves, curling up closer to John and thinks about that day, thinks about the day that John will hate him the same as every other person that Randy's ever dated long term has.
He's an asshole…a creep, a loser. He's heard it all before and he can't help but to be constantly waiting for the day that John will realize it too.
