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"Rose!" someone called.

I came to a halt.

I was walking from the guardian's main building back to my room, I was pretty annoyed after getting yelled by Hans for "not watching my stake" and "pay more attention" etc.

So I wasn't rally paying attention to my surrounding- so much for the lecture.

I slowly turned around, recognizing the voice.

"Yes Dimitri?"

"I wanted to talk to you" he looked around, "privately" he added.

"Where?" I mentally sighed- I wasn't really in a mood to get my heart broken again…

"Perhaps in my room? In about an hour? If you're not busy."

"Fine" I turned around to Lissa's place. I had absolutely no idea what he wanted from me. All I knew is that he had to stop hurting me and confusing me like that. Maybe he turned Bipolar as a strigoi.

In order to pass the time without thinking about him too much I spent the hour with Lissa. I didn't tell her about my meeting with Dimitri. I don't know why, maybe the power of habit- just like I didn't tell her about his declaration about not loving me anymore.

When the hour passed I knocked on Dimitri's door. They decided to put only two guardians on the door but, thank god, not inside the apartment. Maybe we will have the privacy he wanted. I was also grateful that this time there won't be any crowed to see me humiliated.

He sat across the coffee table from me and started:

"Hi"

"Hi" I wanted to get straight to the point- I REALLY wasn't in mood, not sure if from the darkness or just the way he acted.

"Listen Dimitri, you can't keep doing it! One time you say you don't love me anymore, the other time you defend me from practically an army! One moment you don't want to look at me! Not even talking about speaking! And the second you invite me to your place! "You got to stop it! It hurts me more than when you don't talk to me, this little spark of hope we might be… and the feeling of my heart getting smashed again and again…" I broke at this point. "You just have to stop doing it" I lamely finished.

I didn't mean it to be such a long speech…

"Roza…" he said, using mu old nickname, "believe me when I say that the last thing I want to do is to hurt you more than I already did. But…"

"Yeah and that really works" I cut him.

"But" he continued as if I didn't cut him at all, "you have to understand that I just can't forgive myself for what I did to you. I put you through hell over and over. I hurt you physically and mentally. And I simply can't forgive myself for doing it."

"But I forgive you!" I nearly pleaded.

"But I can't forgive myself!"

The conversation didn't go anywhere near how I wanted. I put on my guardian mask.

"So why did you call me here?"

"What I said that day, at the chapel, it... it was harsh- I shouldn't have said that"

"Unless it's the truth"

"You know it's not the truth"

"Isn't it?"

"No"

At this point I couldn't stop myself. I jumped at him- he was too surprised to stop me- and kissed him.

"Rose" he tried to push me away.

"No. you don't need to forgive yourself, I forgive you and it is more than enough" I put my arms around his neck and kissed him again. This time he gave in.

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