A/N this is my first btr fic. All reviews are welcomed. I really want to improve my writing. I did this on my ipad so it might be off. I hope you like it.
Disclaimer: as much as i wish i did i dont own big time rush...
Life with a broken mind
Chapter 1
James walked into Logan's room and saw him staring out of his window "Logan? How are you today?" James asked calmly. "Hi James" Logan said looking away from the
towards the young man who took care of him. "Have you heard anything?" He asked hopefully. James knew that look all to well. It pained him every time because the answer was always the same. "I'm so sorry Logan but Camille hasn't called for you". Unable to look at his broken expression he looked at logan's wall of photos. There wasn't many but they did help him. Logan's favorite was of his beautiful wife Camille and his 2 year old twins, Lora and Matthew. They were adorable, both with big brown eyes , hair to match and pale white skin. They had so much of them both. That photo was almost 3 years ago. "Figures, I wouldn't call me either" he sighed turning back to the window. "I'm leaving your tray here?" James said, setting the small tray on the nightstand. "I'll be back later. Ok?" Logan nodded and James left.
He walked down the hall to check someone else when he saw Kendall coming down. His green eyes were filled with happiness but quickly changed to concern as he saw James' worried demeanor. "hey James. What going on?" "oh nothing really... I just saw Logan..." he trailed off. "how is he?" Kendall asked knowing how James cared for logan " ok.. I guess.. He was asking about Camille again. I can't believe she won't see him, or let the kids see him, not even call him. I think he really misses them." "Of course he does. I suppose it's better then him talking about... The other one?" Kendall said patting his friend's back trying to calm him down." I just feel so bad he's 26, our age, and he is in a mental hospital." James sighed. " yea i understand. Come on and help me with Jo. She's in her depressed phase." James just nodded as they walked down the hall.
Logan sat on his chair by the window, watching the sunset thinking. ' how did I end up like this? Why? is the better question. I wish Camille would let me see the kids they are probably so big, going to school, playing with friends, learning to ride their little bikes. They probably don't even know I exist.' "man I feel so alone. When did everything go wrong" he said out loud "I WOULD SAY AROUND THE TIME WHEN YOU WOULD SNEAK OUT TO SEE YOUR 'OTHER' FAMILY" Logan heard from the other side of the room. He turned and saw the preteen girl with long brown hair and dark brown eyes who smartly replied to him. "Katie, sweet heart I've told you I didn't sneak out." he said. "now come here and give me a hug." smiled holding out his arms and she walked into them with the biggest smile. " I miss you" she mumbled into his chest. Kissing her forehead he whispered "I miss you too" letting go he saw the tray James had left him. "shouldn't you take that?" his adoptive daughter asked pointing to Logan's medications. "yea... I'll take them right now." she nodded heading towards the small bookcase in his room. 'should I ? what if Katie isn't real and I lose her. Guess I'll find out.' with that he took the pills and water.
Turning around quickly to find Katie still there. He had a sigh of relief as he walked up to her." so you are here alone?" Katie found an interesting spot on the floor. "umm... Yea.." this didn't go unnoticed by Logan. "Katie, what's wrong?" "they wanted to come!"she blurted out quickly "but Dak started again." she said the last part in almost a whisper. Logan wasn't surprised Katie's older brother always made trouble. Lately it was more about Logan. He just nodded. "So how are you? How is everyone?" they walked over to the bed and sat down as Katie started. " we'll I got a B on my science test and an A on my math quiz." she defiantly got her smarts from Logan. She was top of her class and loved everything about school. She was beyond her years when came to persuasion. She could make you sell her your pants then have you buy them back for twice as much. "and I have a softball game tomorrow and girls hockey game on Sunday." she loved sports to especially hockey. That wasn't from Logan. "that's great! I am very proud of you." she blushed "thanks" " what else?" Logan asked " well Jennifer got promoted" jennifer was Katie and dak's bio logical mom. Logan had adopted them 6 years before he came here and a year before the twins were born, katie was 7 and Dak was 9. He loved everyday of it. Jen was helping out while Logan was 'getting better'. "dak's baseball team won the championship and he got that job at the skate shop." Logan smiled and nodded as Katie caught him up on there lives.
Then she looked at her feet. " umm... That's it." "whatever it is you can tell me" Logan said knowing what was coming. She took a deep breath. " and papi got a new phone and changed his number." hearing this hurt Logan more then it should have . it had felt as if someone took a knife to his chest as his mind flooded with reasons as to why this sudden change ' why did Carlos do that? does he not want to talk to me or maybe he met someone new?' "ohh... Well that's good... What was Dak going on about today?"he quickly changed the subject " oh he said that... He doesn't want to see you.. He thinks you abandoned us." her voice becoming low. Tears rimmed her eyes. " hey" Logan said putting his arms around her. " I didn't abandon you guys. I'm just getting better. remember I'm sick." she looked at him " Dak says you think we don't exist, that we're just in you head, that we're a lie." "oh honey... I love you and Dak and papi... And I always will. Ok?" she nodded then got up wiping her tears." I better go before it gets dark. Gotta get my sleep for my games , wish me luck." she hugged him " i love you dad" Logan smiled " I love you too, and kick some behind ok... Remember head up..." " and stick on the ice" Katie finished smiling brightly. "yea" with one last hug Katie left.
Twenty minutes later James came back and Logan was laying on the bed smiling. "hey! You look better." he said walking over to check the tray making sure Logan took his medication. "why didn't you tell me?" Logan said sitting up "tell you what?" James asked truly confused. "that Katie was coming. I missed her so much. " Realization hitting James "um... Logan did you take your medication?" he asked carefully " of course.. Why?" " Ok then who is Katie again?" " my daughter" Logan said as if it were obvious to the world. " Logan Katie isn't real. That family isn't real. Your only family is Camille and the twins." "what?! No! Camille isn't real, she never comes or calls. Carlos and Katie and Dak are real they love me!" Logan began to yell getting off his bed in anger. The short young man walking up to the much taller brunette looking ready to attack. "Logan, calm down before it gets out of hand." " I will not calm down coming here telling me my family isn't real. You know what go to hell!" "Logan look at the wall everything on the wall is real. Is Carlos on the wall?"james said in attempt to calm the screaming man."no.." "who is there?" "camille... No! What did you do?" Logan turned and pointed at the tall man. "what?" "what did you do with Carlos' pictures?" "nothing Logan. The pictures never existed because they are not real." Soon Kendall was in the room with them hearing the yelling outside. " calm down Logan!" he yelled as a last warning. "WHERE ARE CARLOS' PICTURES?!" "they aren't real. Now one last time calm down" Before Logan even responded to the comment there was a pinch in his arm and his body went numb. All he felt was a pair of arms catch him as he fell. His eyes closed as the darkness enveloped him.
A/N so there it is. Hope you like like it and please review.
