1. Return of a new Him?
This is my first story posted here and I'm a little scared of what I might get. Like people please try to be as mean as you can, because really what can I make of 'I like it' where's the inspiration, where am I supposed to get my push from. So don't be afraid because I can take it…
Okay go now and read, thanks.
It was a Friday and I for one was glad about it. It had felt like Monday all week. It was pretty early and so I amongst a very few, were waiting for the school day to start. Mathew, a dark-skinned boy, stood off in the spot were he normally did at this time, waiting for his girlfriend. Of course that wouldn't be for another half an hour since it was like freaking seven in the morning and school won't start till eight ten. Why the hell am I here this early and not dreaming for another half an hour, oh yeah, because I don't have a car and had to get a ride from Britney's mother, Diana Malavazos.
I looked up at the grey sky, my long red hair bobbing as I did so, still in its neat pony tail, high on the back of my head. Small drops of rain landed on my pale freckle-filled face and I blinked as a few fell in my emerald green eyes. At the moment I'm wearing dark blue skinny jeans that showed off my really long legs, ripped at the knees and then my top was an all black shirt with a long sleeved shirt underneath striped black and red. I also wore black fingerless gloves with and brown combat boots and my grey satchel bag hanging off the left shoulder. I might not really be into fashion trends like some girls, but even I have to admit this looked good and decent unlike those whores at this school which decide to wear mini skirts and high heels, I mean who do they impress, really?
My name is Drusilla Henderson, I have long curly red hair and green eyes with a light skin tone, or to be more blunt, pale skin. My height is 5.6 and I have an 85cm seized bust with smooth curves and I'm not fat, but I am not a skinny-ass bitch either. Sorry for my Spanish, hey I don't speak French.
"Silla!" Megan Gloom, one of my four best friends, screamed when she jumped on my back.
Right now people filled into school and were looking at us, but they were use to seeing the way me and my friend act so they just looked away again. I hadn't realized in my time-thinking and looking to the sky that time had jumped to seven twenty two. I always seemed to be in a day dream just a few moments and the outside world just sped up around me, weird.
"Hey Meg…" I smiled at her on my back, her skinny arms wrapping around my shoulders to stay in place.
Her skin was like the rest of the Quileute women, a russet, but more lighter then the rest since her family were both Italian and Quileute. Her eyes were more round and looked anime like her attitude and her face looked innocent. Everyone fell for her looks. She was shorter then I at about five feet exactly and small breast about 79cm, but she had no problems getting guys.
"Did you do you homework?" She asked me, getting off when we entered the building.
She was really the only one I was waiting for since Rachel and Alumina would be late as always. Lucky little things, they got more sleep then me.
"Yeah I did, only thing I could do besides sleeping and reading" I told her as we continued walking to the math class. We both started talking about whether pig blood tasted like chicken; I mean everything tasted like chicken these days.
Later on Alumina walked down the hall to us flipping her long blond hair, her skin a lighter colour then mine and sky blue eyes. Her breasts were also smaller than mine, but more noticeable than Megan's at a size of 81cm. A tall figure like a model, with a round face, at five foot nine, taller than me, she had taken ballet till last year, having gotten bored.
"Oh my good gracious!" Alumina said as soon as we were in ear shot getting that gossip tone on.
"I would ask, but if it has anything to do with the Sam Gang then no thanks" I said and Alumina turned her rosy pink face to Megan.
She was pale, like most white kids at school and had her face pink from the cold. Her blue sweater not protecting her fully from the cold and her blue skinny jeans also no help, but if she cared less about fashion and more about heat this wouldn't be a problem.
"Paul Lahote just sent Mathew into the hospital!" She said loud enough for everyone to hear.
Alumina here was a gossip queen in school and so when she spoke people listened. To get the latest news, on who's dating who and what's on every ones mind, for today it was the beat-down that I had missed.
"I was walking up the steps and saw Mathew screaming at Paul, or the group, and wham Paul just hit him once and Mathew was out like a light. His face is like broken, literally and they had to call the ambulance. If I hadn't seen it with my own eyes I wouldn't have believed it" She finished, and her story was proven somewhat true as the ambulance's sirens sounded outside. People hurried to go see and Alumina smiled triumphantly.
"Okay what the hell, get out of my damn way!" We heard Rachel Littesea make her way through the crowed and towards us.
She, like Alumina, was made to be a model with the perfect oval face. Her long black hair hanging loose around her face, small freckles over her nose and just under her light brown, almost reddish eyes with the same size breast as Alumina, but less noticeable. She was all Quileute and full of energy like always. Just be scared on the days when she isn't talking, it means she's thinking of hurting people. I've known these weird girls most of my life here in La-Push and we've never been apart, there had been a time we fought, but that's it.
"Okay Lumy what happened to Mathew's face" Rachel said once she was in front of Alumina knowing she would have the details.
"Well…" She told her story over and I tuned out like always. With friends like mine, you learn to tune out of conversations and into some dreamland.
When the bell rang we moved to class and waited for the teacher, first period maths. It was clear that the news about Mathew had gotten to everyone so the class was buzzing about it. I was glad to be one of the first to have found out, but still I wish I had seen it myself. No I'm not bloodthirsty, I just wanted to see some action lately it's been quiet and boring besides hearing about the murders in Forks. Also about some Bella chick winding up in the forest and the Cullen family going poof, like a magic trick and there just gone.
"Poor Mathew I hope his face won't be too damaged" Megan said as our small group stood at the back of the large classroom. I nodded my head for the poor idiot, but he should know better then to go straight up to the Sam Gang and start screaming at them. A fight is just bound to break out with Paul in it.
"Yeah, but if he gets Carlisle I'm sure he'll be fine" Alumina said not having heard about the disappearance.
She liked Carlisle since she had gone to Forks hospital once and he was there to help. Many liked him because of his kindness, even I did and trust me, a guy getting my trust or anyone for that matter, is hard. I had ended up going there a few times because of my reckless behavior. Like cliff diving, Sam had been mad at me for that because I jumped from their height. You know where only suicidal people would jump and he had seen me somehow. Also doing dangerous stunts with my skateboard, it broke so did my knee cap and I really don't want to mention the other time at this party. Wow my mom went crazy when she heard that.
"Didn't you hear about the Cullen's?" I asked Alumina and she nodded, of coarse she knew, what didn't the gossip queen know?
"But maybe they are back" She said with a soft smile, she had so much hope in people. I guess she needs a shot at the real world, let see you trust then, babe.
"Looks like Jacob isn't here again" Rachel said teasing Megan about it. Poor Megan had fallen pray to his charm and good looks.
It was odd that he didn't show up, but it had happened before like with Jared and Paul and Embry. I actually expected it when I had the dream about him, looking lost and afraid. I knew that he would join that group sooner or later, the signs were all there too.
"Yeah…" she sighed unhappy and I gave Rachel a glare, but soon turned to a soft look. She had also fallen for one of them and now has to watch from afar. I for one didn't mind them staying away from everyone especially from me.
"Class, take you're seats please" Miss Tulsan said and set her red files on her desk waiting for us to sit.
She was a short woman of about twenty nine and short black hair. She was way to pretty to be stuck in a small town teaching some brats and yet here she was teaching us, I am not a brat, yet you sit amongst them. Join the dark side, oh shut up, shutting up.
I sat next to Megan and Rachel behind us next to Alumina. For the next ten minutes I paid close attention to her, but soon glanced outside at the rain. It always poured down and I loved it. My imagination took over and I was outside dancing and kicking up the puddles. I was there for who knows how long when the class started to make a noise.
I looked around then saw their faces looking at the door. There stood a tall guy, his raven-black hair cut short, body tremendously muscle-tone added with the height, it was hard to recognize him.
"Jacob" Megan whispered excitedly and then I noticed the similarities if it weren't for those deep-set dark brown eyes of his, but they lost there twinkle some how. This really was Jacob Black, but so different.
He wore a light brown, long sleeved shirt that held tight to his torso and a pair of baggie dark blue jeans. I knew better then to find him hot, but I did. Blushing I kept looking as did the rest of the class.
"Mr. Black" Miss Tulsan said also surprised.
"Sorry I'm late, my ride was kind of in the middle of something before picking me up" He said in a deeper voice than before, and Megan seemed even more excited to hear it.
"Please just try to catch up, go sit down" The only seat open was at the back and I think he was glad to have it.
He moved to the back and I couldn't take my eyes off him. He had cut his hair and changed everything. His eyes moved to mine as well as he moved past our tables and then he stopped. For the next minute that's all he did, just looked at us in shock, like we had been the ones to change, or at me. His eyes unfocused then focused again. It took all my will-power to look away; no one has gotten me to feel shy with a look. But that look seemed so possessive and heated, I didn't want to feel this, my heart racing inside my chest as if it might burst and that happy sensation took over my body causing a shy smile to come to my face.
Why the hell was Jacob doing this to me, no go away! The only thing that ever comes from stupid feelings like this was a broken heart and I already had half a heart, let me cling to that piece, it's the only thing holding me together, please.
"Is there a problem Jacob?" Miss Tulsan asked standing by the blackboard with a book in her hands.
He blinked shaking his head more confused then ever. I felt my heart flutter, but I was afraid to let it. I couldn't let it break again; I barely survived the last time. I pushed the feeling away, deep in a box locking it and shove that box into a deep hole pouring the cement in and letting it dry. I let that box be forgotten, losing the key and going back to reality. Here I knew that real love would never exist.
"No ma'am" He moved on and took his seat.
"That was odd" Megan said and I nodded writing down what Miss Tulsan wrote. Her young face was more annoyed now than it had been and it seemed to turn into a thoughtful face. I continued the rest of the period as normal.
"This is your homework" She announced and I gaped at the board. Yep she was annoyed; she would always give lots of homework if she was.
"You're kidding me" I whispered and scribbled the homework down just as the bell rang.
I stood and stretched, turning on my heels and away from her eyes.
" H…I love math, isn't it magical" I said directing the sarcasm at no one really, but Rachel answered with a yip so did Megan equally sarcastic.
We left the class last as always waiting for Rachel to pack her things in her bag not wanting to carry them in her arms. When we left the door a large hand grabbed my arm and I turned to find Jacob there. His hand was supper hot and I feared that he really was sick, but there were other fears in this touch.
"Can I walk with you to class?" He asked and I looked at my friends.
"Go ahead Silla" Alumina said heading to her locker, Rachel followed, but Megan was slower to react.
"See you in Science Drusilla" She finally turned and walked off. I could see this upset her.
"Okay" I said after watching her leave. I calmed myself down and found it easer than others. I could relax around Jacob, odd and nice at the same time.
We both walked in silence to my locker and I was glad for that. Jacob was being really weird, I mean I had never really talked to him much and I didn't plan on doing it now, but I knew that he was not the Jacob everyone knew. I opened my locker and took out my science book then looked at my time table.
Math Advanced
Natural Science higher
Music/Drama
History
Lunch
English first language
Quileute second language
P.E.
I sighed and closed my locker. Jacob was looking down the hall at Jared who was raising his eyebrows at him. Jacob just shrugged and Jared left with Kim in tow. I sighed seeing them, was it really that necessary to have them be together all the time, even if it was really cute how they acted around each other. Ah young love is cute, but when life hits you…well you know.
"Okay so I have Music after this and you?" I asked, as we walked to the lab, trying to make some small-talk in this awkward silence.
"Um…computer then English" He said and I felt somewhat sad that I wouldn't be with him till lunch. Why are you making me feel like this? I asked him in my mind. Hadn't I pushed those emotions away? I pushed these aside and kept my mind on more important topics, like school.
"Oh" was all I said. We got there quick and stood outside waiting for the bell to ring.
"Can I sit next to you?" He asked after a few minuets and I shrugged, but really I was freaking, leave me alone. I haven't wanted anyone new in my life and I definitely won't let you break down my wall.
"Normally Megan, Alumina or Rachel sit with me so I don't know" He nodded and the bell rang. Everyone moved to their seat and Rachel moved next to me. Jacob turned to her and asked as I hoped he wouldn't.
"Can I sit here?" She raised both her brows and then glared at him, even if he was her cousin; I knew she wouldn't be nice to him. Good girl, later I'll give you a cookie for behaving.
"No" She said and turned away from him; he nodded and moved to a seat in the back next to Paul.
I was more surprised that Paul was in class then Rachel's mean behavior. She was always like that with everyone besides us. I was really glad about that more and more.
"Good morning kids" Mr. Michelson said as he walked in and everyone greeted back.
We sat, and he just spoke of the safety rules in the Lab, like we hadn't already learned about them in grade eight. I zoned out for most of the period except when he gave us homework.
"I want to see it summarized and in your books by Monday" I wrote them down and the bell rang.
"More homework for the weekend" Rachel said as we walked out the class this time there was no Jacob waiting.
Instead I saw him talking to Paul. I resisted the urge to go over to him and instead turned to head to the music room at the far side of school. Yes space will clear my head. Music class was fun as me and Alumina both were in it. Megan and Rachel were in Art and Design class.
We all got sorted into our groups and just sang la, oh and ah. No words this time. I loved it, I got time to have fun and prepare for the real boring day ahead. Except for PE, that was another favorite.
Miss Burgan or Burger as Alumina calls her was teaching this class.
"Okay next month there's a musical so here's a script you can all audition on Thursdays and Fridays music lesson" We all took the thick pack of papers and started to read through before the bell rang.
"I totally wanna be the second best friend, she gets most of the attention besides the first, being the lead" Alumina announced and I nodded.
'You might be lead again like last year. She loves your powerful voice" Alumina said as we moved to History. Which all four of us shared again, Yay!
That class was boring and long, but this time I didn't even try to pay attention to Miss Apollo as her African accent filled the class room. She was just that boring. This time I was next to Alumina and in front of us were Rachel and Megan
When the bell rang she had us wait like always till she was satisfied and let us leave.
"Food" Rachel said rubbing her flat tummy. With how she eats, I wondered if she had a black hole were her stomach should be.
Entering the cafeteria we got into the long line. It didn't take long for us to get down the aisles. Rachel grabbed whatever food she thought looked good, which was mostly everything. I took one apple, a small salad, fruit salad and a veggie burger. I greeted the cooks and they smiled at me. They mostly loved Rachel for her large apatite and being the only girl besides the Sam Gang, but Rachel came close.
"Okay I think this is enough" Rachel said having two slices of pizza, a burger, a fruit salad, cup of chocolate and vanilla pudding, one cup of jelly and an apple with a small bowl of carrot slices.
Megan just had a fruit cup and a banana. Alumina had one burger, a pizza slice and a pudding cup. We all took a bottle of water and sat ourselves near the window as always. The groups in school were like all groups. Jokes with jokes, Geeks with geeks and then there was us. All four of us could fit into any group. Geeks, bitch/cheerleaders or popular, a loner group, all of them would welcome us. We were like the Sam gang, a tight group that only spoke to each other and let no one in. Anyone would want to be in on what we were.
Then there was the Sam gang that seemed more shut off then us. They looked dangerous and were all super hot, everyone wanted to be in that group. Guys wanted to be like the guys and girls wanted the guys.
I looked over at their table seeing them all laugh and talk. Kim was among the group, the only girl. She never seemed to leave Jared's side since he went into that gang. It was actually sweet how Jared was always focused on her, when she was gone he was heartbroken like she had left forever and when they saw each other again it would be like a year had past for both of them.
I was now looking for Jacob (stupid me), his back was to me, but it seemed he knew I was looking because he turned. Once our eyes met it was hard to pull away and again I felt the need to go over to him, like this force was pulling me to him. I could see his emotions play out in his eyes from here. They were confused yet loving and kind. It was the window to your sole and yet people never seem to see what people felt and just assumed.
The rest of his group saw he wasn't paying attention and also looked at me, but I only saw him now. I could feel something reaching out to him. I wanted to go to him, be near him, but I feared that getting close to any guy so soon would hurt more than to be alone.
"…Yo Silla, Drusilla are you on planet earth" I heard Alumina call to me.
"Oh…huh…what were you saying" She shook her head at me. Thank you Lumy for being such and attention hogger, thank you for saving me from his eyes, is it just me or did that sound really silly.
"Nothing just wanna know what you're looking at?" She looked past me and must have seen Jacob. "Creep" She whispered. I turned to see that Jacob was glaring at her and then it soften when he looked at me again.
I quickly turned away, Megan was also looking over at the group with hurt eyes and I felt the need to apologize. Damn it, this day is not normal!
"I think Jacob likes you" She said to me and gave me a soft smile.
"If so, then what? Remember what happened last time you trusted a guy like him" Alumina looked angrily at her food. I knew she didn't like the thought of me getting hurt, but did she really believe Jacob was like my ex?
She could remember the time I had been so hurt that I couldn't even walk strait. It was like I was bleeding from the inside, it hurt so much and I had lost my mind. He had moved away after that and not many knew what happened, I sure still felt like he was here. It was hard not to forget what he had done. I really had thought that I could trust, but I should have known. People like him were bad news from birth till death.
"I don't feel so good" I mumbled and Alumina had an apology playing at her lips.
"Forget it, he left and I'm over the guy, but I'm not ready. Never will I be" I said getting up. "I've lost my appetite, I'll be in the music room if you're looking for me, so please don't look for me" I walked away.
'I'm also not hungry" I heard Rachel say before I was out of ear shot.
I stomped down the hall and barged into the room. It was empty, just like I was hoping and I took my spot on the small stage. I took a CD with Flute music on it and let it play. I swayed to the music till I heard someone walk in. Great, someone followed me and I was going to blow up in their face. Well not really, but they were going to see the wrong side of me.
"Broken by Leona Lewis" this song goes to Drusilla, and please tell me if you want more people of earth…or other planets. I'd love to hear from you!
