Warning: this fanfic contains yaoi. Character death in later chapter.

I'll Never Live Up To You

Chapter 1:The engagment.

Roys P.O.V

My lips tingle at the feeling of your tounge trying to gain entrance into my mouth. You really are a gift that I no longer deserve in this hectic life. All the pain i've caused for you and your 'family'. 'You always hurt the ones you love', is that really true? Yes. In my mind I find it to be one of the only truths left in this crazy, mixed up world. Oh how I long to spend the rest of my life with you, but I know I never could for I do not deserve someone as perfect as you. Yes. Perfect. You are the perfect example of the word in my mind. Even if you don't beleive it. I lay here with you cuddled up to me wondering if you really want to stay here with me. Well, do you? I always want to come out and ask the question but I fear the answer and my mouth no longer knows how to form these few words. Oh God help me! I feel like i'm leading you on but I do truly love you. I would die for you. I would do anthing to make sure you were happy, even leave if you asked me to leave. But no. You've never asked me to nor complained about any of the stupid little things I do (Except for the first few times we had sex and you were in pain but you refused to let me stop). Oh how magical this past year has been. Just you and me in this big house. Going out a few times a week and spending time with family and friends. It seems like the perfect life to me, but...I wanna know how you feel about it. I lay here waiting for you, my love, to awaken. I watch you with warming eyes as you sleep so soundly. Whenever your beautiful, long, blond hair falls into your face I quickly push it away to see the sweet and calming expression on your face. You start to stir and I whisper somthing in your ear, "I love you,Edward." My words can be heard but are so quiet in tone, as if to let him know I really mean it. It's at this time you speak back in words that are grumbled but soft.

"I love you too, Roy." Oh you look so sweet and innocent just laying there cuddled up to my chest as if you're holding on for dear life. "Roy, can I ask you something?" His voice is clearer now. He's now awake but doesn't want to open his eyes it seems.

"Yes my love. You can ask me anything." My lovers eyes slowly open until he is looking straight into my gaze.

"Umm..Okay. I know this might sound strange and may also seem to be comming right out of the blue so...don't seem too thrown off by it. Umm..well...this is harder than I thought..."

"Come on. You know you can tell me anything." I plant a small kiss on his forehead.

"Well, okay. Here it goes. Are you going to leave me?"

I was dumbstruck by this last question. "Come again?"

"Are you going to leave me?" I quickly came back to and answered.

"What are you talking about? I could never leave you. You are my life,my everything."

"Well it's just...I feel like I don't deserve you. I mean, you're just so perfect and i'm...i'm a total screw -up. All I seem to do is cause problems." Wow. I've never heard him talk like this before. Did something happen that i'm not aware of. Maybe now is good time to ask him an important question that will show their is no posible way I could ever leave him. Yes. I have to take a chance. It's the only way I'll know for sure.

"Edward, it is I who does not deserve you. Why would you ever think for even a moment that you do not deserve me?" What's wrong? Is he really having all of these doubts? Now's the time Roy. Don't chicken out now.

"Well, you're just so perfect. You're the Furher and i'm just the screw-up boyfriend that everyone hates. I'm always causing trouble and making mistakes." Tears start to form in my lovers eyes as he says this so I get up and walk over to the desk and pull out a small, velvet box and start to walk back without letting him see it. "Roy? Are you okay? Are you mad at-" I kneeled down and cut of his words by putting my finger to his lips. Now his big, beautiful, golden eyes are just staring at me questioningly. This was now the most frightening moment of my life but I tried my hardest to seem calm. I finally opened the small box behind my back and took out what was inside it. I took a deep breath and finally spoke.

"Edward.My love and passion. My life, my everything. I love you more than words could ever say. I feel as if I do not deserve you but I still wish to be with you for eternity. So now, I have a very important question to ask you." I pull out a beautiful silver ring with dimonds neatly spaced around the band and gently took hold of his right hand and slipped it onto his ringfinger. His eyes widen and start to fill with tears again. "Edward Elric. With this ring, I ask for you to stay by my side for all eternity. For us to only hold onto each other for the rest of nights. Edward, will you marry me?" More tears started flowing down his face as he started to sob uncontrolably and jumped onto me flinging his arms around my neck. After a few minutes like this he found his voice.

"Yes! Yes! Yes! Of course i'll marry you! I love you more than anything in the world! I've got to be the happiest person alive right now..."His sobs were starting to get the better of him once again.But this time they were sobs of joy. I run my fingers through his hair and just hold onto my lover for about five minutes until the phone rings. Edward had stopped his tears of joy just a minute before and was now losening his grip to get the phone.

"Don't worry honey. I'll get it." I started to get up but felt two small hands grab onto me and pull me onto the bed.

"No. I'll get it." I then give him a quick kiss and let him up to answer the phone. I hear him pick up the phone and start to talk. "Hello, Elric-Mustang residence." Soon it will just be Mustang unless Ed really wants me to take his name instead. God,I would do anything for that boy. "Okay.How about 6:00 tonight?...Great, we'll see you then. Oh yeah, we have a big announcement to make so can you get everybody together?...You know, Izumi and Sig, Havoc, Fury, Hawkey and the rest of our close friends...Thanks. See you tonight...Goodbye." I heard the phone being set down and footsteps walking toward me. Then a kiss was being planted on my lips. "That was Al. Him and Winry invited us to dinner since Pinakko is comming into the city today and I figured we could just have dinner here and Al's getting ahold of everybody and they'll be here around Six. I guess i'll go figure out something to-"

Normal P.O.V.

Eds words were quickly cut off by Mustangs lips grasping his own. He then started kissing back and both of them soon knew where this was leading. While they were still kissing they both took off their boxers and Mustang started to push Ed down on his back still not breaking the kiss and soon Roy was on top of his younger lover. Roy then pulled away from the kiss and Edward felt sad at the sudden loss of his lovers lips on his but was soon brought back into happiness as he felt Roys lips sucking at the tip af his member. Ed was letting out moans that seemed to be begging Roy to just take him already. Roy noticed this and reached over to the nightstand and grabbed a small bottle. Opon opening it he squeezed some lube onto his fingers and set the bottle back on the nightstand. He then went back over to Ed and put his lips on his throbbing member once again as he played with his fingers at Eds entrance as if requesting permission to put them in. Edward simply nodded and Roy gently guided his fingers into his younger lover. After a couple minutes of this Ed spoke. "Roy...please...take...AHH!" And that was all he could get out between gasps but Roy knew exactly what he wanted. So upon hearing this Roy took out his fingers and let his lovers member slide slowly out of his mouth. He gave Ed a lustful kiss and then grabbed him by the waist and flipped him over onto his stomach. Roy then grabbed his waist again and slowly slipped his own throbbing memeber into the youngers entrance. Ed seemed to scream in pain so Roy stopped while still inside of him and said something.

"Ed? Are you okay? You don't have to do this."

"I'm...fine." His breathing was heavy. "You know...how much...I love this...part."Upon hearing this Roy started pushing his memeber in and out of Ed. At first in a steady manor but then quickening the pace. Roy soon felt like he was going to explode but held it in until he just couldnt anymore. He soon burst inside of his lover and feel over next to him. He then relized that Ed had, just as soon as he did, released all over the bed. Ed noticed this and while blushing said, "S-sorry..."

"It's okay honey. As long as your okay."

"Y-yeah...I'm fine. Actually, I feel a lot better now. "Ed was still blushing and his eyes were gazing off to the side. It was then that Roy stood from the bed and picked up his love in a bridal style.

"Come on. Let's go downstairs and sit by the fire and cuddle."

"Yes. I'd like that."

Soon Ed and Roy were sitting naked in front of the fire in each others arms with a blanket wrapped around them. Ed loved this kind of stuff. He was always a secret romantic until he got together with Roy. That's when he started to open up and show his true feelings. They sat there for about an hour in each others arms being extremly silent. Neither one needed to speak. At this moment they knew what each other was thinking. They were so peaceful until a knocking at the door made them jump.

"I wonder who that could be?" Mustang said confused. People rarely just causualy come to the Furhers home unless it was important or family or friends. They did have friends comming over but they shouldn't be there for at least another hour. It was only 4:30. While Mustang was thinking, Ed had wrapped the blanket around himself and gone to answer the door. He would have gone after his lover but relized he was still naked, and that would be embarasing, so he just listened from the den as he heard Ed open the door and speak.

"Hey Al! You're kinda early." Ed seemed confused for a moment. "Hey, where's Winry?"

"Who?"

"Winry, Your wife. Where is she?"

"Oh yeah, Winry..."

"Al? Is something wrong?" It was then Ed relized Al was looking at him very odd and noticed he was wearing nothing but a thin blanket around hi waist.

"She'll be here later. She's picking up Schezzca and wants to take a shower first."

"Okay. You wanna come in?" Ed moves off to the side as he says this, leading Al into the house.

"Yeah, okay. Umm brother? Can I ask you a question?"

"Yeah. Go ahead, ask away."

"Okay. Why are you wearing a blanket and nothing else?"

"Well...Umm...You see...Me and Roy kinda...sorta.."

"Huh? Brother, are you okay? What did you and Roy 'kinda', 'sorta' do?"

"We showed our love for each other in mid-day of course." Roy said as he came up behind Ed and put his arms around him. He gone upstairs a moment before and put on a pair of boxers.

"Ohh...I see. I wondered why you were in such a good mood, brother. Now I know why." Al said this last part with a laugh and Edward just blushed at the comment. It was when Ed turned his head a little to the side something caught Als eye. "Hey brother. Since when do you wear a ring?"

Ed just glanced down and relized he'd forgotten to take it off for a while since he wanted it to be a surprise for later. "Oh...That? Uhhh..." He didn't know what to say.

Al paused and after a moment knew exactly what it was. "Oh my god! You two are engaged! Is that your big announcement? Wow! Everbody's going to be so excited!"

"Well...Yes. We are engaged but dont tell anybody before we get to announce it. We were really looking forward to telling you and everyone else tonight. So keep your mouth shut. Okay?"

"Okay...But first I wanna know something. How long have you two been engaged?"

"Since five minutes before you called." Ed seemed slightly depressed that somebody knew. It's true that he wanted to get on the roof and just start screaming it when it happened but then wanted to wait and see everyones reactions at once. "Just remember, not a word until everbodys here and in the same room. That's when we're going to announce it and then you can talk about it all you want to. Got it?"

"Yup. Got it. Now let's go set up for dinner and catch up on what new and stuff like that. But first you might wanna put pants on."

"Yeah good idea." Roy then lossened his grip on Ed so he had just one arm around his lovers waist and walked him upstairs.

"Hey you two! Dont take too long up there!" At hearing this Roy just waved his hand and kept walking alongside his soon-to-be-husband.

End of Chapter 1!! Yay! well what'd ya'll think? Please review. Oh, about flames...I can take whatever you give me so if you're gonna give flames, go ahead.

And for explanations because I know what you're all gonna ask….. first off Ed and Al have their original bodies back. As for ages Ed is 21 and Al is 20 of course. As for Roys age, he's 28(I'll explain that in a later chapter). Anything I missed, you can ask me.

Disclaimer: I only own a ton of Fullmetal Alchemist merchandise, not the anime or manga.(just copies of it)