Disclaimer: I'm only going to write this once. (Although it'll probably get written and posted again) I do not own Harry Potter, or any of the characters in this story. If I did I wouldn't be working at Sears. I would also be living in a mansion. The only thing I own in this story is the idea and Chad my made up character for Hermione. So please don't sue me cause I am a broke college student, with bills to pay.
Summary: Hermione is in a relationship that might truly be harmful to her. She won't tell Harry or Ron what is going on. She feels completely lost and has new feelings for one of her best friends. Harry is extremely worried about Hermione, and starts to realize his new feelings for her but is it too late, and is it enough? I suck at summaries. Sorry!
And on with the story!....
Dear Journal,
I'm so excited! Tomorrow is the first day back at school, and I will finally get to see Harry and Ron. I've missed them so much. I have received a few letters from Ron this summer, but between him dating Luna and me dating Chad, we've both been really busy. Of course I haven't received any letters from Harry because he has to keep Hedwig locked up. So as you can see journal, I haven't told him about Chad yet. I don't know how I am going to tell him. I should have told him sooner, but since he can't reply to letters, I wanted to wait until I could see his reaction. I am sure Harry will understand, I mean he is my best friend. I mean I know that Ron doesn't really like Chad, but Harry is muggle also so maybe he will understand our relationship better than Ron does. Chad still isn't crazy about me going back to school, or going back to Harry and Ron as he puts it. I actually trusted Chad with all of our secrets and stories, except for a few of Harry's personal things. I mean we have grown up together and I do believe that I am starting to love him. I'm not sure though, because I have never been in love, but I think that is what it is. The only bad thing is that he has gotten rather moody and hostile lately, Especially when the subject comes to anything dealing with my "magical life". The other night he actually hurt me. We had fallen asleep on the couch and I was dreaming. The dream turned into a nightmare involving Harry, and I must have muttered Harry's name and next thing I know Chad was shaking me really hard and yelling at me. He asked me if I was having fantasies about Harry and if they were any good. Then next thing I know, he is calling me a slut and then he runs out of the house slamming the door. This ended up making me break down and cry. Now I have a big purple bruise on my arm and I can't heal it because I'm not allowed to use magic outside of Hogwarts. At least Chad called and apologized. Well, I guess I better get some sleep. Tomorrow is going to be a long day. I wonder what Harry is doing right now.
Love always,
Hermione
Hermione closed her journal and let a yawn escape. She picked up a small picture frame from off the desktop. It was her favorite picture of the famous trio. In the picture she was standing between Harry and Ron. The picture was of course magical so it would repeat the same movement every few seconds. When the picture moved it would show Harry and Ron bending down and each kissing one of Hermione's cheeks at the same time, as soon as they stopped kissing her cheek they would all break into a fit of giggles. She couldn't help but smile. She was grateful for their friendship, because she didn't know what she would without the two of them.
As she continued t smile at the picture she heard someone knock on her bedroom door. At this time of night she figured it was just her mom bringing the last of her clothes up for some final packing. Boy had she been wrong. "Come in," Hermione said without looking back. Chad walked quietly through the bedroom door and walked up behind her. H was just about to wrap his arms around her in a big hug until he saw what she had been looking at.
"What the hell is the matter with you! You haven't even left yet and you have already forgotten about me and you are drooling all over this stupid little picture of you and your "friends"" Chad was now very pissed off and was yelling at her like a mad man. His face had even started turning red.
Hermione spun around so quickly and was so surprised to see Chad that she dropped the picture frame she had been holding. The glass frame shattered into many pieces when it hit the ground. As soon as it hit the ground the moving spell on it broke and caused it to freeze on the scene of the two boys kissing Hermione's cheeks.
"Chad what are you doing here? I thought we were going to say our good-byes tomorrow before I left for the train station," she said as she bent over to pick up what was left of the broken frame and the picture. Chad grabbed her wrist and spun her around to jerk the picture out of her other hand.
"What are you doing? Give me that back," Hermione froze as she saw Chad looking at the picture and turning an even darker shade of red.
"So they're just friends, huh? Well, a picture is worth a thousand words, and well in this picture you sure are blushing pretty hard from these two "friends" kisses. So which one do you really fancy Hermione, is it Harry or Ron?" Chad continued with a hiss in his voice that scared her, "Or do you just screw around with the both of them?"
"Come on Chad, get a grip, I told you that Ron is now dating Luna. They've been dating since the summer started," Hermione was fixing to continue until she was cut off by Chad's ranting.
"Oh, so that makes it easier for you to admit your feelings to Harry. He is the one you really fancy isn't he? I've seen how you act when you talk about him. With Ron dating Luna you two don't have to feel so guilty for your feelings, and having to worry about hurting poor little Ron's feelings."
"Chad it isn't like that, you know that isn't true we are only friends. You know how much I care about you and if I didn't care about you I wouldn't be dating you. Please don't get carried away," Hermione said as she moved toward Chad to hug and comfort him. She just wanted him to calm him down.
Before she knew what was happening Chad's had had hit her face with a strong and forceful blow. It had clearly left its mark as her skin had already started turning red and a light shade of purple could be seen in her cheek. It was obvious there would definitely be a bruise there tomorrow. Tears had started slowly falling down her stinging cheek.
"Hermione I am so sorry, I didn't mean to I swear I didn't. I just... I just lost my temper. You know I would never hurt you on purpose, never." Chad tried to wipe the tears off her cheek and tried to pull her into a hug, but this time it was her turn to yell. She had held it all in and this time he had crossed the line.
"Get out, get out now! Leave me alone, I don't want to see you. Just get away from me. Go home."
She just kept screaming until he finally gave up on trying to comfort her. It was clear he couldn't take back what he had done. Hermione just kept letting the tears fall down her cheeks. She didn't even try to wipe them away. She picked up the picture and lay down on her bed holding the picture close to her chest squeezing it tight. She wished that she were with Harry and Ron right now. Especially Harry, he always knew how to make her feel better. "Harry I really wish you were here right now. I really need you," she said as she took one last look at the picture and cried herself to sleep.
Author's Note: Well, what do you think. Should I keep going or just stop here? Let me know something. I really hope you liked it, but I will accept both good and bad reviews! Let me know what you really think. If I get enough reviews I will go ahead and post the 2nd chapter!
