A/N this is my first fan fiction. So I hope you like it.

Chapter 1

Katniss POV

The huger games are finished. Everything is how I wanted them to be. Peace and joy. But why am I not in peace and joy. I am in victor's village, in my old home. The main area of district 12 is in a very bad condition, though.

My mother is in district 7 with Prim. Gale has got some fancy job in district 2. I have not seen Peeta since the rebellion but I am sure he is fine.

I live alone in my house. I sometimes go hunting in the woods. It is only place where I am in peace but I can't live in the woods forever.

I feel an emptiness in me. I don't miss Mom or Prim because we are always in contact. I am sure I am not missing Gale. So does that mean that I am missing Peeta? I have not seen him from a long time. I really feel an urge for him. Sometimes I wish I could go back to the time when I had nightmares and Peeta used to comfort me. His warm hands around me when tears rolled down my cheeks. His comforting words. His beautiful blue eyes. His assuring smile.

Before I know tears fall from my eyes. I go downstairs to the living room and sit in front of the fireplace on the couch. I wish I had said yes when he asked me to marry him after the rebellion on the train back to district 12. He said that he has got a job in another district but before I could ask where he left. I don't even know where should I find him and tell him to forgive me.

I still have nightmares from the arena. The mutts chasing me and Peeta…

There is a knock on the door. There is no one here who knows me. At least not like a friend or a relative

I get up and open the door. It's a small boy with an arrow in his hands. He has the same blue eyes that ?Peeta had. I kneel down to his level.

"iz thish yols?" the boy asks. I look at the stretched hand with an arrow. I must have dropped on my way back home.

"Yes. Thank you" I answer to the boy and slowly take the arrow from his hands. He runs back to his house. Just a couple of steps away.

I get up. I face my house. I don't want to go inside. So I take my coat and move out. I don't feel like hunting so I will just take a walk. The snow makes it difficult to walk. As I walk I feel drowsy. I have not been able to sleep properly these days. I am even taking a proper diet. But I don't feel like eating. Not since I have started missing Peeta.

I walk along the shovelled path. The houses I pass are full of joy. I shook my head. My head is spinning. I think I should go back home. But its too late. Everything around me is spinning. My eye lids are heavy. I am beside the cold snow. It is entering my cloths. Everything has turned black

A/N please review to tell me if I should continue and whether it is good or not. Thankyou for reading.