The Choice

I wander aimlessly

Let me help you

Please

I have no choice

I have to let you be

You left a mark

On me

I can't find my place

With you or with him

The winter or the summer

I am sore and sick

Tired of myself

I can't help you now

I reach out

Feel nothing

See nothing

Except pain

When I kiss you goodbye

What if I never see you again

I would die

I feel the knife in my heart

The sutures you stitched

Are ripping mercilessly

Open

I deserve the pain

Hit me

I deserve it all

Don't leave me now

I've missed you

All this time

Passed without you by my side

My sun

My warmth

I have made a fault

I can't go back

I love you, Jacob

Bella