For the Love in Hate
Summary: Jet and Zuko wake up in the middle of the night. Their thoughts turn to the other and their relationship.
Jet
Jet glanced down at the boy lying behind him, the boy he still thought was a firebender. He let out a sigh and turned his head away. No matter what Smellerbee and Longshot said, Jet knew what he'd seen. And maybe that only proved the boy's uncle was a firebender, but he'd seen the fire in his eyes.
The Freedom Fighter still didn't quite understand how they had ended up like this, how they had ended up sharing the same bed. Of course he could remember everything that had happened, of course he could understand what it had been. He just couldn't understand how he had let it happen. How he could have let a firebender of all people come this close to him.
As he let out another sigh the tanned boy heard the rustling of sheets behind him. He turned his head sideways again to see Li slowly rising. "Why're y'up?" The boy's voice was still heavily laced with sleep.
Jet turned fully, so that they were chest to chest. Even now, in the weak moonlight, he could still clearly see the fire captured in those golden eyes that were staring at him. The fire that made his gut clench in anger and distrust. However, he was finding that same fire less and less threatening every time he saw it.
For some reason the tanned boy's head moved forward. For some reason his lips pressed themselves against the ones of the other boy briefly before bringing his arm around pale shoulders and pulling them down so that they were both lying on the bed now.
The boys' eyes still held contact. The fire Jet could still see even gave him a weird sense of safety. Safety, because he knew that the boy who contained the fire wouldn't let it out and hurt him. Even despite how foolish Jet knew it was to trust a firebender to protect you from his own element or anything for that matter.
"Just get back to sleep," Jet told the other boy, mostly just to get him to close his eyes above anything else. Because if his eyes were closed Jet could pretend he was just another refugee in the lower ring, just someone else who'd been hurt by the Fire Nation, just like Jet instead of the one who'd been inflicting the pain.
The pale boy closed his eyes, and really, Jet knew it didn't actually change anything. But pretending was still easier for now, even though it would only be harder in the morning. Be harder to still believe in everything he had worked so hard for back in the forest.
Despite that Jet closed his own eyes as well. Closed his eyes because being with the other boy made him feel free above anything else. And freedom was what he had constantly been fighting for, right?
Zuko
When Zuko had fallen asleep there had been a body pressed against his. A body that belonged to an Earth Kingdom peasant boy instead of a Fire Nation noble girl. A body that wasn't there anymore when the firebender woke up somewhere in the middle of the night. He slowly opened his eyes to see the shape of that same body sitting on the edge of the bed. "Why're y'up?" Zuko asked as he slowly sat up.
The Earth Kingdom boy turned around so that they were chest to chest. Zuko could see a guarded look on the boy's face as the moonlight was cast on it. He knew the other boy still suspected he was a firebender. Of course he was right, but Zuko couldn't tell him that for his and Uncle's safety. That suspicion had become less and less however, or maybe the possibility of 'Li' being a firebender had just become less important.
As Jet moved his head forward Zuko did the same. He closed his eyes slowly as their lips pressed together. The Prince knew that what he was doing was wrong. Wrong because, sooner or later the Earth Kingdom boy would find out who 'Li' really was, and then everything would backfire on not only him but his uncle as well. The thing was, Zuko just couldn't seem to tear himself away from Jet despite what his gut was telling him. The kiss was only brief and after Jet had pulled away the boy draped his arm over Zuko's shoulders to pull him down to the bed again.
Zuko looked into Jet's brown eyes. There was something off in there. Something the pale teen couldn't exactly place, but knew he didn't like. Something he knew that had to be related to the Fire Nation. It had never been directed at him however, had always stayed in the background.
"Just get back to sleep," was told to Zuko by the Earth kingdom boy. Going to sleep meant closing his eyes. Closing his eyes meant not being able to see but just feel. It meant just being able to feel a warm body pressed against his without having to face the reality that he was in the Earth Kingdom instead of the Fire Nation, in a small apartment instead of a palace and with a boy instead of a girl.
Zuko closed his eyes, and really, he knew that it didn't actually change anything. But pretending was still easier for now, even though it would only be harder in the morning. Be harder to still believe in being with en Earth Kingdom boy to be wrong.
Despite that Zuko kept his eyes closed. Kept his eyes closed because being with the other boy made him feel accepted above anything else. And being accepted was what he had constantly been trying to achieve, right?
A/N: About why Zuko thinks he should be with a Fire Nation noble girl? He was the Fire Nation Prince therefore he should be in a relationship with someone of at least noble standing. She would be Fire Nation considering the war and all that. Because he was a Prince he would have needed an heir and a boy won't give him one.
