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A Promise Is A Promise
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I swear that no one would believe me even if I told them. It's hard. I mean, I don't belong in this world. It's getting harder and harder to be here… harder every day… This isn't who I am. This isn't who I'm supposed to be. I have to stop pretending.
Pretending. I do that a lot. I like to pretend that the gang needs me, or even wants me there at all. I like to pretend that I'm as impulsive as I let on. I like to pretend that I'm the child of miracles. I like pretending; it keeps me sane for a little while. But Veemon knows. He knows all about my dark side, my connection to that stupid ocean that has me wired like a time bomb. He knows all about why they sent me here.
My family put me here when I was five. They said I didn't think right, that I was messed up in the head. They said that I wasn't good enough for them. And who knows? Maybe I'm not.
I know why they sent me here. They sent me here to get her. They're "queen of the dark ocean" and junk. They sent me here to play the idiot and catch these guys off guard. They sent me here like it was some kind of punishment or something. God, my life is so messed up.
Then I met the others, met Kari and met Jun… I just couldn't do it anymore. I feel like I've failed every single person I know. And I can't stop thinking about the whole stupid thing. I can't stop thinking about whether anyone will miss me when I'm gone… Something I highly doubt, but whatever.
One day it'll be that all this pretending of mine will stop, this web of lies will fall apart and this world will be gone to me. One day. But for now, I can't wait much longer. I can't play the role of hard-headed Daisuke much longer… And the rest of the destined have to know. I have to tell them.
I just don't know how.
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Simply Just Being (secret princess of the dark realm)
