A/N Hey yall! I am NOT new to the writing/making of fan fictions but, yes this is my fist ff I'm posting just for so please keep those nasty comments to yourselves! Also R and R's are always accepted and encouraged.
Warning: YAOI! BOYXBOY MALEXMALE I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU CALL IT BUT IF YOU DON'T LIKE IT THEN YOU BETTER NOT BE READING IT!
Disclaimer: Naruto belongs to Masashi Kishimoto and as much as I would like for him to belong to me he doesn't so we have to live with it. Summary: Naruto is writing a letter to Sasuke giving his side of the story on what happened in ep. 109 rated T for yaoi and mild language.
Ah Sasuke, you really were my first love, you know that? But the day you left, the day you betrayed me, you were as good as dead to me. I'm not too sure why I'm writing this letter but I can tell you one thing for sure, if you actually get this letter. If you actually read this letter, than you better come back to Konoha unless you want your ass kicked. You know Sasuke, now that I think about it; I can never get you back can I? You know, I want to say that God's punishing me for sheltering a demon, but that's not it. God is punishing you, not me, God is angry with you, not me, but the difference between us is, God loves you, not me. But Sasuke if you really love me like you told me the night you left then you'll look past all my flaws and all my scars and you'll see the person I really am. God Sasuke how I love you, I love you so much but the rain doesn't wash everything away. The rain can't wash away the hurt; it can't heal the wounds that were left by you. I really love you, you know? I think about what happened that day all the time, how you left me for him, crazy right? You would never betray me I thought you said! I thought you said you would never leave me! WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED TO THAT HUH YOU BASTARD! I'm sure I'll forget about you if I try hard enough but for some reason I can't bring myself to forget you. Your sweet honey-lavender scent, weird huh? You have always claimed to hate sweet things yet you smell so deliciously mouth watering. I also remember the way your lips felt against mine, the first time we kissed, we were twelve remember? I was so mad at you for being so popular, that I think at that moment I developed my love for you without even realizing it. I crouched down on the desk and glared at you, you glared back, remember? We were glaring at each other so intently until Tobio moved his arm and hit my butt which made me bump into you, kissing you on your lovely soft lips. God they were so freakin' soft that even if I hadn't fallen in love with you for being so loved I probably would have fallen in love with you then. I know I know you don't want to remember Konoha huh? You don't do you? You'd rather travel on your lonely path alone, huh? Well Sasuke, you were never meant to be alone! I'm sorry I didn't meet you before, if only I had been there when you were going through such a rough time! Maybe, then just maybe, you wouldn't be so revenge thirsty! Sasuke, if I had been with you would you have left? Would you still love me if I had been with you? Yes I am indefinitely a dobe and I am a usuratonkachi and I deserve your hatred but Sasuke the one thing I never did and never will deserve is your love. I do not deserve your acceptance, your acknowledgment, because that was something that should not have been given to a demon like me. Sasuke, if you decide to return to me then I promise to hold you tightly and never let go! If you return to me I'll love you like no one ever has and I will love you and only you! Sasuke I will love you for forever no matter how wrong or disgusting it is because as a matter of fact, the more and more I try to suppress these feelings the stronger and strong and more noticeable they become. So Sasuke if you come back to me then I promise I will get stronger so I can protect you and you alone.
Love, Naruto
