painful

he sat there, thinking to himself.

"why did he have to leave on this day of them all? why?" sasuke said in a whisperd tone. a storm raged outside causing him to jump and shudder at every sound.

sasuke about jumped/fell out of his bed as he heard a knock on his bedroom door.

he thought of it as a insulation and chose to ignore it. but he couldnt stand that sound, i got louder and more frantic.

he got up and wobbled over to the door. he opend the door and staired into the eyes of his worrying mother. wait rewind. "mother?"..."sasuke are you ok? you look paler than normal." mikoto said as she touched his cheeks to check his temp. "you have a slight back down and i will be right back."

sasuke went to lay down but instead he had this nagging feeling telling him something was wrong. he walked down the stairs to find his mother at the bottom. 'where is dad?' sasuke looked for his father only to find him at the table with a knife in the back of his head. "this isn't happning. no. no!" sasuke screamed and ran to his brother's room. sasuke found itachi. alive. but coverd in blood and at the window getting ready to flee. "y-your leaving me to? w-where are you going? are you going to leave me all alone in this stupid house?" sasuke screamed.

"sasuke. stop you will wake the others." itachi said as he got down from the window. "what others?you killed them all-!" sasuke was cut off by itachi kissing him.

sasuke sat up in cold sweat. he had relived his worst nightmare in his mind. a storm still raged outside but everything else that he dreamed was gone. it was as if nothing had ever changed. well it did. he hurt inside. sasuke was in pain but he would never say it let alone show it.

all sasuke could ever hear was the pitter-patter of rain outside his window. he imagined the screams of his nii-san as he killed him. the pain only ever got worse it never got could not ever run to his nii-san again let alone everyone else he held close. his mother, his father, his nii-san. all gone. it was painfil but he had to do it. he could not end his life. he was too afraid of the pain to come. he did not want to anger the others or cause distress. he was alone.

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