It has been a year since I heard about Starish and Quartet Night. I still remember that night, when I gave up on my dream. When I told them that I don't want to compose anymore and I want to live a normal life, away from all the fame and show business. Since then, my world has completely changed…

I was staying in front of the window and I was watching the beautiful landscape that was in front of my eyes. The snow was falling very slow from the sky and the street was very quiet and empty. No one was there, even if it was Christmas. Everybody was celebrating this holiday with their families. That thought made me feel lonely. A lot of things had changed this year, a lot of things had gone wrong. My grandmother was still mad at me for dropping all my dreams and running away from the two boy bands, whom I loved so much. At that moment I was alone, none of the boys knew where I was because I moved towns, I moved far away from them. I even ended my friendship with Tomo-chan…I thought it was the best for us of me leaving. My songs were becoming less and less beautiful. I was running out of ideas and I didn't want the boys' careers to suffer because of me. They deserved more than I could give them. It was sad, but the most heartbreaking moment it was when I saw Ranmaru's face, when I read the disappointment on his face. He was my first love, but I never had the courage to confess to him, I never had a chance to make this thing.

But I overcame this obstacle in my life, I have learned how to get over the past and live in the present. I can say right now I am a person full of living joy, I buried the past and I was ready to live life to its fullest. Being a composer was great, but I needed to grow up, to open my eyes and be more conscious about the world around me. I have detached my eyes from the window and I let myself to fall on the couch, in front of the fireplace. The fire was burning loudly and it was sending his heat to me.

"Merry Christmas to myself" I whispered while a teardrop fell on my cheek.

I was dreaming with open eyes when a loud knock on the door made me jump. Who could it be? At this hour in the night? I looked at the clock and I realized it was only eight o'clock in the afternoon. The time was passing very slowly. I went to the door and I opened it. My jaw dropped when I saw who was standing there, I thought I was dreaming. I couldn't believe that Ranmaru was here, in front of me, with a relieved expression.

"Oh my God, Nanami!" whispered Ranmaru as he was hugging me. "I have been so worried all this time since you left us!"

The warmth of his embrace was hallucinating and my heart started beating faster and faster. He had found me. But why did he search for me all this time, why was he worried about me? I pulled myself away from him and I looked him directly in his eyes. They were the most beautiful that I have ever seen and I could drown in their depth.

"Why are you here?"I try to speak, but my voice cracked.

He looked a little bit perplexed, but then a big smile appeared on his face, a smile that made my heart melt.

"Because I love you! I know that we weren't very close when you were composing for us, but to be honest I liked you since we first met. Even if I didn't show that." he said and shrugged.

Wait…what? This couldn't be real, this couldn't be real. It was obviously a hallucination, created by my brain to make me feel better. Ranmaru wouldn't say that he was cold and unfriendly with everybody, even with me. This was my imagination, I was 100% sure of this.

"What?" he exclaimed. "I was just joking, Nanami. I came here to tell you that we want you back, we want you to be our composer again." he adopted a solemn air, characteristic for him.

And back to reality… I knew it was some stupid way to make me feel bad. Gog job, Ranmaru! Now I feel so much worse!

"I am sorry, but I made a decision. I don't want to come back. End of the conversation." I replied to him with a fake smile and tried to close the door.

But he was fast and stopped me to close it with his hand. He took a step front and entered my house. I could feel the anger boiling in him. He didn't want to give up so fast. Ranmaru started to walk towards me and with each step of his ahead, I was taking a step back, until I felt the wall with my back.

"I think you should think a little bit more." he whispered.

He closed the space between us and leaned closer to my face. I closed my eyes because I was scared, but all my muscles relaxed when I felt his velvet-like lips pressed to mine. That was the moment when I lost my control and got in his game. I wrapped up my arms around his neck and I responded to his kiss. He grabbed my waist and pulled me closer to his body. I deepened one hand in his hair and with the other one, I was exploring his abs. God, I was feeling so good!

We ended the kiss and then, looked into each other's eyes. He loved it just as much as me and I could see that in his eyes. I bite my lower lip and blush. It was the most beautiful Christmas ever!