If we spend our whole lives looking for something that truly cannot be found i.e. the truth, then are we not submitting ourselves to what they want us to do? To search for something that isn't there, would mean them to be shown stronger if we were not able to find it. If this is true why is it I can still see myself in 10 yrs time looking at a gravestone wondering what went wrong? Or maybe I'm misinterpreting the situation, maybe it is my own gravestone and the shadow of the woman looking down on it is what I will become after my quest, my search, and my lifetime goal that will surely lead to nowhere.

Nothing in life can set us up for grave disappointment, no matter how much we think it can. We can never stop that edge of anger and upset coming through when told the truth cannot possibly exist after all we've done to expose it only to have it all ripped away. I'll say it's not fair, but that won't get anyone anywhere. In this situation I guess all you can do is pick up everything and start again, there really is no other way.

You think blood shedding and scarring is enough to make up for your losing battle for the truth of all your being? You may think it's enough compensation for your life, but those who don't are not given a chance to express it. Truth doesn't exist, because there are those out there that are working all too hard to cover up what has already been exposed, creating another shroud, to cover up another piece. There's nothing in natural power we can do to stop it, we just do what everyone does and go with the flow.

I know that's not what is right now, but I wouldn't feel we have any other chance. The people who are trying to cover up everything will do everything to cover up your simple murder too and that can't happen because with so much at stake, there are people you need to keep at heart. I don't know you all to well but I know both of us on the trail for truth, because that craving feeling for the quest of truth lies dormant in everyone, maybe at the back of their mind or in the bottom of their heart, it's there. Please, I will beg, don't deny it, for if you do, you'll just be helping to covering up the truth, just like them. Not to acknowledge that desire for the quest perhaps is worse in some respects, because it may mean you have failed, or maybe I have. I think maybe we all need to decide for ourselves whose side we're on. Decide what it is we want to do there really isn't more to say on the matter. Case Closed.