This idea came to me in work a few nights ago and wouldn't leave me alone until I wrote it. I also have a 12 days of Christmas in 221b in progress, the first chapter should be up tomorrow and will be updated in the run up to Christmas. Please review i'd love to hear your thoughts and reviews make me happy which I need as i've been battling pneumonia which has gone into pleurisy, so all in all not fun!

Disclaimer:

Sadly I don't own Sherlock if I did Mycroft would have his own show!

"But It's Christmas."

Sherlock smiled as he registered John's words hardly daring to believe it and had started to

answer before his true meaning became crushingly apparent. "I feel the same! Oh you mean it's

actually Christmas," he said the smile fading from his face.

For that split second he thought he had been able to achieve the impossible,finding someone who not only accepted him for who he was but who actually thought like him. He realised just how wrong he was.

John was the closest he had come to having a friend and someone who

understood and to an extent embraced the life he led. However he knew John didn't approve of some of the things he did and wished he could change some things about him.

He didn't want to go back to a life without John but he had opened him up to pain he had never experienced before. John had opened his eyes to a life he never knew he wanted and was very aware that he would never have.

He could never tell John how he felt he would take what he could get and remind himself how lucky he was to have that as Sherlock's life revolved around him while he was just a part of John's as he a full life outside 221B.