Disclaimer: …ok ok I don't own digimon

Disclaimer: …ok ok I don't own digimon!! Geeze…I think these disclaimers get a bit boring after a while don't you?

Anyway this is my first…and probably last attempt at writing a digimon story. I don't really even watch the show that much! I just really wanted to write a taito..ffn seems to be running out of them so I thought I'd have a go at it… so heres the warning for those who cant take it and are homophobic….

TAITO YAOI TAITO YAOI TAITO YAOI

If you missed it here it is again…..

YAOI TAITO YAOI TAITO YAOI TAITO

Now on with the story…at last!

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Tai looked at the building. It's white sterile exterior were ugly compared to what or more precisely whom it held inside. "My love, my beautiful angel. What would I do without you?" Tai whispered to the building.

Matt stirred in his hospital bed, drips and numerous beeping machines started to life moving as Matt mumbled in his troubled sleep. 'My love' He tossed his head and his movement alerted a nearby nurse. "Shhh kid, go back to sleep." She put more morphine in his drip and watched as he drifted back to his sleep unaware of the whisper that had bothered him so.

Mr. Ishida sat in a nearby waiting room with his ex-wife, TK, Kari, Ken, Davis and Sora. The doctor had just left, leaving them in a shocked silence."Why? Why did he do that?" came the first whispered query. Mr. Ishida looked over at his other son, TK , from whom the question which was on everybody's mind had come. They all shook their heads, no-one knew, no body even thought there had been a problem. Matt was the beautiful, bandleader. Wanted by every girl and friends with nearly all the guys. His best friend Tai wasn't there yet, but everyone hoped he might have an answer.

The door to the waiting room swung open to admit a disheveled, sad looking Tai. Tai shuffled into the room not looking at anybody, his head hanging low. "Tai, do you know…Why?" TK asked. Tai shook his head. No, he was as confused as everybody else.

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Tai slumped in the chair next to Matt's bed. He had talked, or rather everyone else had talked to him, asking whether he had though Matt would do anything like this. 'No' he said 'Its not like Matt. Never. What problems would he have?' Everyone else agreed with him….after all this was Matt's best friend who was speaking. Tai sighed, he so badly wanted to ask Matt why he had done it. It had been a day or so since his Dad had found him sprawled on the bathroom floor, blue in the face and blood pouring out of his mutilated wrists. His father quickly tried to stop the bleeding then ran and called the ambulance.

Then they found out the rest of Matt's problems…He hadn't only slit his wrists but also taken an overdose of aspirin. If Matt's father hadn't reacted so quickly Matt would probably be dead. Tai was close to tears, his best friend whom he loved more than life itself had tried to commit suicide. He didn't even talk to me. Not once. I might have been able to help him. 'knock, knock' Tai's head snapped up as the door opened. Sora quietly came in and stood beside Matt's bed. "Any change?" she asked quietly Tai shook his head. "Tai… What do you think it was?" Tai stood up beside Sora resting his hand on the bed. "I don't know. I really don't. He never told me what the trouble was." Sora nodded "I wish he would have told someone, anyone." Sora added. "You know Tai, I used to think I was…was in love with you…." Tai stood in a shocked silence "But…after this…I don't know. I always used to have feeling towards Matt. It's only now that I see them as they really are." Tai nodded, understanding exactly what she meant. He had been in that exact situation a day or so ago when Matt's dad had rung him telling him Matt was in hospital. Deep inside Tai wondered whether he would ever have the courage to tell anyone that. It was one thing to think you're in love with your best friend but another to actually say it. And now it was worse, he had competition….one of his friends no less.

Matt stirred in the bed, his arm slightly raising and grabbing the sheets in a white knuckled grip. His other hand reached towards his oxygen mask and started to pull it off until Sora reached across and held it down, motioning for Tai to go and get a nurse. Tai quickly ran outside and grabbed a passing nurse. "You kids get out." She ordered as she paged for a doctor. Sora stubbornly refused to move out until she saw a security guard heading her way. Tai quickly grabbed her and pulled her into a waiting room away from the guard. It wouldn't do her any good to be thrown out of the hospital. They waited in the room for a half and hour or more until the nurse that had kicked them out came and got them.

"I suppose you'll be wanting to go back in?" both of them nodded "Well keep down the noise, one of the other nurses has just rung the boys father. So when he gets here I expect you both to vacate the room. Got it?" Sora and Tai nodded. The nurse started to head out of the room when Tai spoke up "What happened?"

The nurse chewed her bottom lip for a few seconds before replying. "He had a small fit after you left. It might have been caused by the overdose, or the lack of oxygen. We don't know yet so we ran some tests." Tai grimaced. This is not good. He and Sora checked the hallway before going into Matt's room, just to make sure there were no more guards. Inside the room Sora asked quietly "Do you think he'll be ok?" Tai strained his face and pulled a goofy smile "Of course, this is Matt you're talking about here. Of course" Even though his brain said otherwise, he had never seen Sora look so sad and he didn't really want to tell her what he really thought.

Mr. Ishida rushed to the hospital after being called by one of the nurses who had been at his son's bedside during the fit. He had just dumped all his work into his car and drove, it surprised him that he didn't get a ticket for the way he was driving but the only thing really on his mind at that time was the welfare of his son. When he got to the hospital he went straight to Matts room to find Matts best friends Tai and Sora there. "What happened?" he asked gruffly. Sora didn't speak but just looked as Tai who sighed "The nurse told us he had a fit. That was all she told us." Mr. Ishida nodded, looked at his son then went searching for a nurse or doctor to explain to him what had happened.

Tai was nearly bowled over when Mr. Ishida dragged a doctor into the room. "Explain" he had said gruffly.

The doctor shifted looking extremely uncomfortable. "Well….you see…when you brought your son in here Mr. Ishida, he had overdosed on aspirin thus causing breathing malfunctions which we believe in turn lead to a shortage of oxygen in your sons brain. This shortage has caused the fit." Mr. Ishida nodded "What can be done about it?" he demanded. The doctor shuffled his feet "Well nothing much, we just have to wait and see whether your son wakes up. From then we can establish whether he has been damaged by the shortage of oxygen. But I'd say if your son doesn't wake up today or maybe early tomorrow it's a big chance he has experienced some brain damage." Tai felt his heart drop. Brain damage. If Matt was brain damaged he might as well be dead. He wouldn't be able to sing any more or play his guitar, then Matt might actually do himself in. Sora looked like she was going to cry. But Tai didn't care, all he wanted was for Matt to wake up and say he was alright.

Tai's eyes drifted towards Matt again. He had never seen his friend look so bad. He knew Matt was skinny, but he looked frail lying in such a big bed. All the machines gathered around him over shadowed him and made him look even smaller. His lovely golden hair had begun to get limp and oily and his normally white complexion had started to look a sickly pale colour. It made him feel sick to see his friend like this and not be able to do anything

Tai knew he had to get out of there, he roughly pushed past Mr. Ishida and the doctor. He started to run when he got into the corridor, he didn't stop. He couldn't if he stopped he would just collapse onto the floor and start to cry. Not here…I won't cry here. I've got to get away. Tai threw open the Hospital doors and ran out into the traffic feeling reckless. He didn't care if he got hit. 'Sccccrrrreeeeeettttcccchhhhhh!' A driver hit his brakes narrowly avoiding a young boy recklessly running on the road "Hey kid! GET OFF THE ROAD!" he yelled before driving on. Tai didn't care he just kept running, he could run for hours the way he was feeling. His soccer kept him fit so he didn't have to worry about anything. Just run. That was all he told himself. Run. Run. Run.

Tai kept running until he ran into a park bench. Then, he had no choice, he had to stop. He sat down on the bench, not quiet realising where he was yet and looked at the scenery, flashes of Matt in the hospital bed dominating his thoughts. No, it can't happen. Matt can't be brain damaged not my beautiful angel…it just can't happen! He slammed his fist into the bench, Tai didn't even notice the blood dripping out of the puncture wounds the splinters had made. His leg throbbed and his fist stung but Tai didn't even notice his own hurts, all he cared about was Matt.

Eventually sleep caught up to Tai, he fell asleep on the bench. His hand had stopped bleeding and like his leg had swollen up with a number of colourful bruises.

Tai awoke with the pain in his hand. "Oww" he groaned as he woke up. He raised his fist to his face, squinting in the early morning light to see what he had done to it. He groaned again as he tried to move his leg which felt like it contained lead. As his memory came back Tai remembered why he was there. I ran….from the hospital…after…after the doctor… brain damage. As soon as he had remembered Brain damage Tai's memory came rushing back. He put his head back onto the back of the bench and shut his eyes. "Why can't it all be a dream? Some horrible nightmare." Because said a small rational part of his brain You know its not. Now get up, go home, clean yourself up and get on back to the hospital. Tai groaned as he got up, but what that rational part of him said was true. He knew it wasn't a dream, now it was time to face up to the consequences of what had happened. He started to walk home, it wasn't far only a coupe minutes walk. But those few minutes seemed like hours, Tai kept on replaying over and over in his head what the doctor had said. He was so busy he didn't notice he'd walked out into the middle of the road and into the way of an on coming car. The driver who was busy doing her makeup while talking on her phone didn't even notice Tai until it was too late.

"SRRRREEEETTTTCCCHHHH! THUD!"

"Kid! Are you ok?" The lady jumped out of her car and ran around to the front of the car to see a bloodied Tai sprawled on the road. "Shit!" she swore "If I don't get going, I'm going to be late for my date!" With that she quickly shoved Tai to the side of the road and hoped back into her car. Tai groaned, it wsa hard to breathe and he felt like he'd run into a brickwall. He didn't know where he was, all he knew was that he was hurt. He tried to open his eyes but they didn't seem to be working. Each movement he made, no matter how small hurt, causing him to shake in pain. After laying by the side of the road for a while Tai gave up. No one would help him, he probably looked like some bum laying on the sidewalk…the type people ignore. His last thoughts as he faded into unconsciousness were 'What about Matt?'.

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Matt looked at his wrists, it was satisfying if not extremely painful to watch the blood run down his wrists to pool on the floor. The white floor looked so..so peaceful, his stomach was playing merry havoc on him. He felt like it was ripping itself apart. Why? Why had he done this again? He tried to remember. He looked at the pool of blood on the floor and saw a face. The face of a perfect friend, one whom he would do anything for…the one whom he was doing this for. Tai. He couldn't …he didn't have the courage to stand up to Tai and tell him what he was feeling. Tai wouldn't feel the same way, he and Sora were an item. Weren't they? He gasped, both from lack of air and from astonishment. Tai…yesterday. Tai had told Sora to shove it. Maybe he was imagining it. That was it. Matt started to feel woozy in the head, he was gasping for breath now…it would all be over soon. He wouldn't have to worry about being called a fag, or being beat up. It'll go to my grave with me. I'm gay and I'm in love with my best friend Tai. There…no one will know now and it will all work out. Matt blinked and the darkness over took him.

Matt blinked again clearing the darkness away. He glanced around him a few times to make absolutely sure what he was looking at was real. OH NO! Someone found me and brought me here! He moaned and the sleeping lump in the chair woke up. Sora looked around and then her eyes fastened on Matts. Oh no! Matt thought God save me if she found me! God save me anyway! I want out! He moved slightly in the bed as Sora put on a delicate smile and placed her hand on his. "How are you feeling Matt?" Matt moved his lips but no words came out, only croaks. He looked at the water on the bed stand and motioned towards it. "Sure Matt. You want some water." She passed him a small cupful and held it while he drank some. "Thanks" he croaked Sora put on that small smile again. Matt wondered what was with that smile, it was so nice it was creeping him out! "So how are you feeling Matt?" Matt blinked a few time before the question registered "Sore, I think and tired…Were's Tai?" of all the people Matt wanted to see Tai was at the top of the list….Of all the people Matt didn't want to see Sora was at the top of that list. Sora frowned "He ran out of here last night after your Dad spoke to the doctor…we haven't seen him since" Matt grimaced he should have known what this would have done to Tai, whether he love him or not Tai was still his best friend. "Try the park" he said. "When Tai needs to think, he goes there." Matt's eyes started to close, he yawned and heard "Thanks I'll tell Kari to look there. Now get some sleep." Matt vaguely nodded and fell into a light sleep.

Sora quickly left the room after Matt fell to sleep and went and looked in the waiting room. Mr. Ishida was spread out on the couch asleep. She decided against letting him sleep and shook him gently. "Mr. Ishida? Mr. Ishida?" No response she shook him harder "Mr. Ishida? Matts awake." Mr. Ishida snapped awake. "Wha?" Sora scowled "Mr. Ishida Matt just woke up." Matt's dad jumped off the lounge and ran into Matt's room. Sora decided he'd leave Mr. Ishida and Matt alone for a while..even if Matt was only sleeping and she'd ring Kari. "Hello? Kari? Hi Its Sora! Matts Awake! Is Tai there?" Kari twisted the phone cord around her finger "That's great news! No…Tai hasn't come back yet." "Kari, Matt suggested you try the park. He said when Tai needs to think sometimes he goes there." Kari untwisted her now purple finger "Thanks Sora! Tell Matt Hi and thanks! We'll send Tai up there as soon as we find him! C ya!" Kari hung up the phone and ran into the lounge room where TK and her parents were. "Guess what everyone? Matts awake!" TK cheered "Mr. and Mrs Kamiya can I please get a lift to the hospital to see Matt?" Kari's mum got up "Sure." "Oh yeah mum on the way can we have a quick look in at the park?" Her mum looked at her "Why hunney?" "Well Matt told Sora that when Tai needs to think he goes there…so I thought…." "Alright, let go!"

Everyone piled into the car and drove down the road to the park. Kari scanned the sidewalks all the way there. What if Tai's hurt? Nuh…hes probably fallen asleep on the grass or something. They drove a round the park until Kari noticed a large hump beside the road. "Mum…" she said warily "What was Tai wearing the other day?" "Ummm a blue jacket and his cargo pants dear..Why?" Kari looked at the hump again, it had cargo pants on and what looked to be a blue jacket "Stop the car! I think that's Tai over there!" She jumped out of the car before it stopped and raced over to the hump. "Tai? Is that you?" She knelt beside it and lifted up the matte of chocolate brown hair to reveal a bruised and beaten Tai. "Mum! Its Tai! And he's hurt!" Kari's Dad rushed over and picked Tai up in his arms. They bundled him up in the back seat and drove to the emergency department where Tai was admitted to hospital.

TK and Kari went up to see Matt while Tai was in the emergency dept. There was nothing they could do for him, he wasn't responding and he wouldn't wake up. He was so cold too. When they reached Matts room they were greeted by Ken, Davis, Sora, Joe and Izzy. Matt was sitting up in bed and smiling. He looks 100% better Kari thought Should we tell him about Tai? She cast a quick glance at TK who seemed to be thinking the same thing. He shook his head, no. Not now. TK ran up to his big brother and gave him a hug. " You gave us a fright. Don't do it again!" Matt gave a small laugh "I won't" Kari went up to him and patted his hand "You look…better. I'm glad of it" Matt nodded then said "Thanks, Where's Tai?" TK and Kari glanced at each other again "Well…" began Kari "We found him at the park……" Matt listened "And? Where is he?" Kari didn't look up "He wasn't in too good shape… He looked like he had been hit by a car and left on the side of the road" she whispered. But the room was quiet and everyone heard her.

Matt slipped down in his bed "Hit by a car… and left….as in to die?" His face was shockingly pale and his eyes were as wide as saucers. "Is he going to be ok?" he asked quietly, this time TK answered because Kari was choked up with tears. "They don't know, we found him and brought him straight here. He's down in emergency." Matt nodded but stared at the wall. Tai, hit by a car? It was his fault. If he hadn't have been so weak and tried to commit suicide Tai wouldn't be in that situation! Matt felt the tears build up in his eyes. I am not going to cry in front of other people! NO WAY! Kari saw the tears in Matts eyes before he blinked them away "I'm going back down there to see what is going on." "I'll come with you" "Me too" Ken and Davis agreed. They left the room and started the long walk down to the emergency dept.

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