Now Begins the Diary of Lily Evans

Tuesday-3:00am

I decided to finally pull out the diary that James Potter gave me as a joke on my birthday... 5 months ago. Originally I had planned not to use it because, I mean, come on...it's James Potter, Master Idiot, ruler of the Dummies, who has never in my life been nice to me. I don't know...it all seemed so fake, him giving me a diary and all, as if he had a copy so he could read what I wrote. He swore he didn't and after careful inspection of his room and places surrounding it, I have come to the conclusion that he in fact doesn't have a copy of this diary hidden in his room somewhere. Not saying that Sirius of Remus or even that idiot Pettigrew might have it...but you never know... I am hoping not as I am about to write my deepest most darkest secrets that I have only told Jen up until now. I have two best friends, Jennifer Jordan and Katie Holmes.

Lately, Katie has been going out with all the guys I have liked.

First, there was Remus, who I only liked for a little while but the next day, they were going out.

Then, there was Sirius, which almost worked out...except that Jen let it slip to Katie that I liked him and then she flirted so bad with him...it didn't happen, but still...

And now? Now there's James Potter, whom I have liked since my first year, the day I first saw him, met him, first began liking him...it was on the Hogwarts express. He came in wondering if anyone had seen his robe which his friends had run off with, then, smiled and said something along the lines of, "I didn't know such beautiful girls like yourselves would be coming here...otherwise I wouldn't have been so reluctant to come."

Something like that. From that moment on, I had a crush on him. But, Oh wait, here comes Katie onto the scene...I never even told her that I liked him, but somehow she INSTINCTIVELY knows who I like and flirts, asks them out, or gets asked out by the guy I like... unfair?

It gets better.

So I like James Potter... and then Jen and I bump into him in the halls right? And Jen is all like 'Oh hi!!' all cool. Then we walk away and I was all ' you know him and you never TOLD me?? Jen, you KNOW I've had a crush on him forever!!' and she says 'of course I know that... he also just asked Katie out...' Needless to say, my day went DOWNHILL from there. Alright...let me tell you just HOW it went downhill...

First of all, Professor Lya got all upset at me because I forgot his essay that was due today... It was in my room, but would he give me a pass to go get it? Noooo

Secondly, I find out that we have a essay due for Transfiguration. Great.

THEN I found out that James Potter, whom I've had a crush on FOREVER has asked one of my BEST FRIENDS out... How UNFAIR is that?

Fourth, lunch... was Alfredo Pasta. I don't eat Alfredo Pasta. I'm allergic to the Alfredo sauce. So I didn't get to eat anything.

Fifth, I ran into Malfoy in the hallways and he cursed my book bag open, and it spilled all of my books, and I was late for Defense Against the Dark Arts (kinda ironic huh?)

Sixth, I RE HEAR the rumor (which of course is not a rumor but a fact) that James Potter and Katie Holmes are going out. Oh my goodness! Its like whisper this here, whisper this there...yada yada yada. Blech...

Seventh, at dinner, James Potter, Sirius Black, Remus Lupin, and Peter Pettigrew all come over to where Jen, Katie, and I normally sit, and sit by us. I mean, that's understandable because Katie IS James's girlfriend.

Eighth, When we go upstairs to the common room, and then I retire to my bedroom, Jen comes up and is all, 'You could have had your chance with him and you blew it.' All I said to that comment was 'WHAT??'

Ninth, I cried. When everyone went to sleep, I cried. I guess I have no right to cry, I mean, my love life is only in SHAMBLES. My BEST FRIEND betrayed me with out knowing it. My academic life isn't going so well. Oh, and then my face was all blotchy and ugly from crying.

Tenth, I couldn't go to sleep, so here I am now...at 2 o'clock in the morning!!! Well, now it's actually 3 o'clock... but that's besides the point.

I better go to sleep... Just one more thing though. You know what hurts the most?? More than a sprained ankle, or a twisted wrist?? When you're talking to your friend all casual about how YOUR CRUSH asked HER OUT, and she says something about how 'her boyfriend' did the cutest thing. THAT hurts. Having Her call Your Crush her Boyfriend. That hurts a lot.

Well, goodnight. Errr, I should say, good morning...Tomorrows another day...

~LILY