Everything Changes
Authors note: This is a Ric/ Liz/ Jason WTD. It is not what I wanted to see play out on G.H. It is what even Rick Hearst said would be a good story.
Disclaimer: I own no one in this story I simply borrowed these people from General hospital. I promise to return them unharmed from General Hospital when I have finished playing with them.
Rated: R
It was very Late on a Friday night or maybe even a Saturday Morning. Elizabeth Webber-Lansing woke a little disoriented trying to figure out where she was. As awareness slowly crept in she realized that she was outside under the stars on a blanket wrapped in a mans arms. She said a silent prayer before looking over at him. Then she started to cry as she remembered just how she had gotten there last night.
The hurt of Ric's betrayal along with the news of Emily almost certain death had sent Elizabeth into the chapel at the hospital. The years of pain and loss were catching up to her quickly and she had been crying before she had even reached the door. Jason had been sitting in a chapel also hurting. When she reached to touch him all the anger she felt kind of melted away and he was simply the man who let her dance with him when she had lost Lucky. They ended up holding each other as they cried for Emily.
After they had calmed down they decided to take a ride up to Vista point. It was a beautiful night so they pulled a blanket out and sat under the stars and talked. It seemed so simple one little kiss with an old friend to ease the pain. That was all it was supposed to be but it turned into more and now she lying here in Jason's arms after having sex.
Slowly she moved away while he still slept praying that he would not wake up. She quietly dressed and then slowly walked back to her studio crying the whole way home. She realized as she walked that being with Jason didn't make her feel any better. If it was possible she felt even more empty and broken after than when she was in the chapel.
When she reached her studio she went straight to the shower stripped and climbed in. She felt dirty and sickened with her self as she scrubbed her skin trying to scrub Jason away and stayed in the shower crying long after the water had turned cold. She wrapped herself in her big Terry cloth robe and curled up in a ball on the studio couch still crying for all she had lost and all she had wished she could get back. The most ironic thing was she wanted Ric she realized as she drifted off to sleep.
Sunday evening found Elizabeth still wrapped in her Robe and still sitting on her studio couch. She felt frozen and looking back over everything that had happened on Friday wasn't helping her feel any better. After lots of tears and lots of showers she was still in the same place.
She loved Ric and didn't think she could ever forgive him for what he had done to her but part of her wanted to. Now she had also ruined everything that was left. She had slept with Jason, which meant she had broken her wedding vows. After all she was still Ric's wife. Elizabeth wasn't stupid she knew he had been sleeping with Faith. After all she had basically answered the door to the house in her under wear when she had gone to see Ric Friday morning but she still hated the fact she had broken her vows by having sex with Jason.
Jason, Oh yes her good friend Jason. He was such a good friend that he hadn't even bothered to see if she had made it home alive. Elizabeth laughed to herself as she realized after at one time wanting so badly to be with Jason not only was it the biggest mistake of her life and the most humiliating he was also the worse lover she had ever had. Even Zander was better.
There was a Knock at her door that brought her back to reality. She got up and looked in the mirror and realized just how bad she looked with huge dark circle under her eyes and her hair a wild mess of curls. She made sure her robe was well closed as she went to answer the door. She figured it was Lucky or maybe even Jason. But when she opened the door she was shocked to see Ric.
Elizabeth had answered her door expecting to see Lucky or possibly even Jason standing in the hall but when she looked up and saw it was Ric she had no idea what to do. She was shocked and her heart and head started to fight with each other. One part of her wanted to slam the door in his face but the other wanted to run into his arms and get lost in his warm embrace. Having no idea what impulse to follow Elizabeth simply stepped back and let him into the apartment. She could see all the love and concern in his face.
Ric looked up when Elizabeth opened the door and was shocked by what he saw. There stood Elizabeth looking so small. Her eyes were red from crying and had huge dark circles under them. She was wearing the big white terry cloth Robe she had stolen from his closet while they were married and the biggest shock to Ric was she was so pale he couldn't tell the difference between the whiteness of the robe and her skin. The hardest thing of all was the look in her eyes he had seen her hurt before and he had seen her angry before but this was so much worse. She seemed broken.
She moved backwards into the room and he followed her closing the door behind him. The silence was deafing as neither one made an effort to talk. Ric started to speak but then decided not to remember that Elizabeth always said he was to good with words and not wanting to upset her even more. He was amazed that she had even let him into the studio. He took a deep breath, opened his arms, reached out to her and in a whisper said, " Come here", and simply waited.
Elizabeth just stood there for the longest time simply looking at Ric. Her heart was at war with her head but finally her heart and her love for Rick won out. She walked slowly forward into his waiting arms. She wrapped her arms around his neck and laid her head on his shoulder and started to cry again.
Ric simply stood there Holding her as close as possible. He could feel her shake with her tears and had his own tears silently falling down his face. His heart was breaking for her and he swore no matter what was the matter he would find away to fix it.
Finally as she clung to him he bent his knees reached down and picked up Elizabeth and moved to sit on the couch with Elizabeth on his lap her head never left his shoulder. They sat there for the longest time until her tears finally stopped. Then they simply stayed where they were neither waiting to let the other go it had been so long since they had Just held each other.
Elizabeth was exactly where she wanted to be. Her head was on his shoulder she could feel the warm skin of his neck and could smell his after- shave. She couldn't help herself she started kissing his neck Up to her ear and across his jawline until she finally reached his sexy lips. She leaned back and looked into his eyes then she moved forward to kiss him licking along his lips seeking access into his mouth.
Ric tried to be a good man to simply give Elizabeth comfort and not let his desire for her take over, But when he felt her lips touch his and felt her tongue seeking access his resolve snapped. The kiss went from sweet to passionate in an instant.
Elizabeth reached down and started pulling the black T-shirt Ric was wearing over his head. She felt him shaking as she started kissing his chest.
Ric moved his hands to the tie of her robe and started to untie it but stopped he pulling back. He started to ask if this is what Elizabeth wanted when he felt her finger on his lips. "Shhh," Elizabeth said as she pulled his hands back down to the tie on her robe.
Ric opened her robe pushing it over her shoulders. And as she leaned forward he let out a low moan as her hard nipples were pressed into his chest and they started kissing again. He moved his hand up cupping her left breast with his palm and then tugged on her hard nipple making her moan. His other hand moved down to pull her even tighter into his hardness. He kissed her chin and then down her neck and chest until he reached her hard nipple and pulled it into his mouth sucking sweetly them moving across her chest he did the same to the other nipple. He stood up quickly turned the around with her sitting on the couch and him on the floor on his knees as he slowly kissed down her stomach and then parted her thighs and buried his face into her as he tasted her sweetness. He could feel her shaking and heard her cry out but was surprised that her hands were pulling him away from her after a few minutes. Looking up he saw her smiling.
Elizabeth sat up and reached for Ric's belt. She unfastened it and the zipper and then pulled down his pants and boxers. She then leaned back on the couch spreading her legs and reached out for him. Ric kicked off his shoes and pants and then moved between her legs and looking into her eyes he buried himself into her wet heat. Neither lasts long as they quickly came together at the same time. Both crying out and saying, "I love you".
They lay wrapped around each other under the old afghan on the couch. Elizabeth leaned up to look Ric in the eyes. She started to tell him what was going on her eyes filling back up with fear. "Ric, I need to..." She started to say as her voice trembled only to be interupted by Ric.
"Shh," said Ric. "We will sort all of this out in the morning for now I just want to hold the woman I love."
"Ok, I love you to." She said as she laid her had back down on Ric's chest and snuggled close as she fell asleep.
A few hours later, Ric was jarred awake by the insistent ringing of his cell phone. He reached down to his jeans still lying on the floor by the couch getting the phone from the pocket. He was trying to be as quiet as possible not wanting to wake Elizabeth. She was so beautiful and so peaceful looking with her head on his chest. Turning the phone on Ric answered it. "Lansing here, "he said, "Yes.... Yes...Yes....You do realize its 3am.? Alright, alright I will be there as soon as possible." He closed the phone and laid it back on the floor next to his jeans and slowly tried to get up with out waking Elizabeth.
Elizabeth felt him moving and raised her head. "Was that your phone?" She asked still sleepy.
"Yes," answered Ric as he leaned up kissing her. "I have to go into the office for a while. I'm sorry."
"Can you tell me why?" she asked as she shifted so he could get up.
"Sonny picked tonight to get himself arrested, So of course Baldwin had to call me in", Ric answered quickly as he pulled on his pants hoping he would not be rejected and hating to leave.
"Oh, Ok. "Elizabeth answered as she pulled the afghan closer around her.
Taking a chance, Ric continued talking as he got dressed. "I can be back in a couple hours. I could even bring breakfast and we could eat while we talk if that's ok with you?" He waited for the rejection he was sure that would come.
Looking over at Ric Elizabeth saw how worried he was as he asked and smiled. Sitting up she Reached over catching Ric's hand as he was turning to leave. "I would love it if you came back. I am sorry you have to leave at all, but understand its work. Breakfast while we talk would be wonderful."
Ric smiled and said, "That's great, I will be back as soon as I can. You try to get some more sleep." He kissed her hand and started walking to the door.
"I will," Elizabeth said.
As Ric opened the door Elizabeth stopped him by saying, "Hey Ric, I love you."
Ric walked back over, kissed her and said "I love you to, Now go to sleep or I will never be back with Breakfast." With that comment he left.
Several hours later Elizabeth heard someone Knocking at her studio door. Pulling on her robe she went over and opened the door with a big smile thinking it was Ric. "I hope you remembered the orange juice, " Elizabeth said with a big smile until she looked up and realized it was Jason standing in the hall not Ric.
"Oh!" She said the disappointment could be heard in her voice. "Its you Jason. Why are you here? What do you want?" She asked Sounding annoyed.
Jason was a little surprised at how Elizabeth was acting. "I wanted to see if you were all right." He said, "and I think we need to talk."
Stepping back to let Jason into her studio Elizabeth tightened her robe before she closed the door. "Well, As you can see I made it home just fine by myself Friday night. Thank you so much for asking Monday Morning!" She answered.
"I'm glad your, Ok. "Jason said leaning against the wall by the door.
"Thank you for asking. No why exactly are you here?" Elizabeth asked. In reality she didn't want to know why she really just wanted him to leave.
Jason was amazed at how cold she sounded. "Ok fine. I haven't been able to tell Courtney what happened between us and I wanted to ask you not to."
What Jason was saying made Elizabeth angry and she did nothing to hide it. She realized on Friday that she had made one of the biggest mistakes of her life but what now Jason was acting like all she was, was a whore. She was the one who was married and who had cheated on her husband but he came here asking her not to tell his precious little bunny what had happened. "Why Jason you surprise me. What happened to Mr. I could not tell a lie? Well unless it involves Sonny!"
Realizing just how angry She was Jason attempted to explain things hoping she would understand. "Elizabeth you don't have to act like this. I haven't told Courtney what happened between us because I found out when I got back to the penthouse why Courtney has been acting so strangely. When Alcazar took her prisoner she was pregnant. In trying to escape she lost the baby and didn't want to tell me. She is hurting so much right now I didn't want to hurt her more. Can't you understand?"
"If you don't want to tell her that's Fine, I lost a baby I can understand the hurt." Elizabeth said realizing she really didn't want Courtney to suffer because she and Jason were so stupid. "But I will tell Ric."
"Tell Ric? Why it's that sick twisted bastards fault the Courtney lost the baby in the first place. Jason said now he was angry.
Elizabeth had, had enough and stopped being Civil and started yelling at Jason. "That sick twisted bastard is my Husband, Jason and if he will still have me after I made the mistake of whoreing myself out to you I will continue to be his wife. Oh and for the record if you stupid little twit of a wife had stopped to think about that baby she is mourning so badly, she would have kept her ass at home and would still be pregnant. Its your business if you tell her or if you don't not mine. But my marriage has suffered enough from Lying and I will not be lying to Ric."
"Elizabeth you don't understand that bastard will just use you again. Jason said throwing his hands in the air. He could not believe she was going fall for Ric yet again.
"Use me. Ric isn't using me Jason. He simply loves me. Now you on the other hand have are a different story. Having sex with you has to be the stupidest thing I have ever done. " She said with a firmness that startled Jason.
Trying a different approach he said, "Elizabeth we are friends."
"No Jason." Elizabeth said. "We were friends a long time ago but you haven't been my friend in a very long time. To much has happened. If you were my friend you would have made a lot of different choices. Hell if you were my friend you would have made sure I made it home on Friday night. "
"Your just jealous. "Jason spit out annoyed now. "Your jealous because after sex with you I still want to be with Courtney and not you.'
Elizabeth started laughing at what a fool Jason really was. "Jealous because I can't have you? Give me a break! I am not jealous you fool. I am angry. Angry with myself for being so weak and foolish I gave myself to you. Besides Jason sex with you was so bad I have spent the whole weekend trying to forget! Now, GET OUT!"
Jason reached forward and grabbed Elizabeth by the arm pulling her into his chest. "You can not tell Courtney!" he said his eyes full of anger.
Elizabeth took her free hand and made a fist and started hitting him and she was screaming," Let me go you bastard and Get out!"
Ric could hear Elizabeth screaming at some one as he reached out and opened the door. It banged into the opposite wall. Dropping the take out bags on the floor he grabbed Jason by his jacket pulling at him while yelling. "Jason get your hands off my wife."
Jason let go of Elizabeth and felt her slip to the floor as Ric's fist connected with the side of his face and then his stomach. He was going to hit Ric back but realized he had let things get out of hand and hurt Elizabeth. He simply looked from Elizabeth to Ric and walked out the door shaking his head.
Ric kneeled down beside Elizabeth and gently pulled her into his arms. "What happened here?" he asked and he brushed her hair out of her face.
Elizabeth looked up into Ric's warm brown eyes still crying and said in almost a whisper, "that's part of what we need to talk about."
Looking into her eyes Ric realized that a lot more was upsetting Elizabeth besides a nasty argument with Sonny's robotic lap dog Jason. She had been so full of pain and was so lost the night before and even though they had made love. He new what ever made her look so haunted when he stopped by the night before had not gone away. He pulled her close and said, "Whatever it is Elizabeth you can trust me and tell me. It will be all right. Would you like to go sit on the couch?" Ric smiled to reassure her.
She looked up into his kind eyes and said, "Ok." As she shook her head yes.
Ric helped her up from the floor and over to the couch. He watched as Elizabeth sat down pulling her legs up and wrapping her arms around her knees. He walked back to the door, picked up the take out bags and set them on the coffee table. Opening the first bag Ric pulled out two extra large cups of coffee. "Here we go. Two coffee's black for me and one with extra cream and sugar for you," he said as he handed her the coffee.
"Thank you!" Elizabeth said as she took the cup of coffee from him taking a sip and trying to smile.
Smiling back, Ric took a sip from his coffee and then finished unpacking the take out. He pulled two big blueberry muffins and two orange juices out of the bags and put them on the coffee table. Looking up Ric realized that Elizabeth had started crying again.
Ric put his cup of coffee back down on the coffee table and then reached over and took Elizabeth's out of her hand. "Ok! Enough Baby whatever this is it's killing you. Please just tell me!" Ric said as he sat on the couch next to her.
"Alright." Elizabeth said quietly as she starting speaking very quickly starring straight ahead not able to look Ric in the face. "On Friday when I was told Emily was almost going to die. I just lost it. Everything that had been happening just kind of came crashing down on me. Emotionally it was just too much. I really felt like I broke. I went to the chapel to pray for Emily and I ran into Jason. " She looked over at him and saw his jaw tighten at the mention of Jason's name. Taking a deep breath she waited for him to say something.
"Elizabeth I still don't know why you even given that man the time of day. "Ric spit out.
"Anyway I left the chapel with Jason and we went to Vista point to talk." Elizabeth said. Turning to look at him finally she continued, "Ric while I was at Vista point I..." She stopped mid sentence and the room was silent for the longest time.
"You what?" Ric asked very trying to stay calm and help her finish.
Taking a deep breath and finally looking back into Ric's eyes Elizabeth finally said what she had been so dreading to say. "I had sex with Jason."
Ric shifted forward and trying to keep the rage he suddenly felt he asked Elizabeth," you did what."
"I had sex with Jason," Elizabeth said trying to reach out to Ric. She was saddened when he shook off her hand from his arm.
Ric was desperately tried to stay calm as he raised his voice and said, "You ...You just said you had sex with Jason. "He got up off of the couch and started pacing the floor. After a few minutes, he stopped and faced Elizabeth. "How could you do that?"
"Ric please try to understand! I was lost in my pain and suffering...I wanted to feel something besides pain... I made the biggest mistake of my life Whoreing myself to that bastard. "Elizabeth said as she started to get up from the couch.
Ric ran his hands through his hair trying to calm himself as Elizabeth tried to come closer he held his hand up in front of himself trying to keep her from coming any closer. "Oh my God! Jason Morgan.... How could you let that bastard even touch you? "He spat out. "Why was he her this morning? Was he here for another go round? Did I ruin a lovers spat?"
No.... No ...No! Ric he was only here to demand I not tell Courtney. I told him I would not tell her that was His business but I said I would be telling you." Elizabeth said praying that he would listen.
"Why bother telling me?" Ric asked
Because you are my husband and I wanted no more lies between us from you so that means I can't lie either. Ric I was hoping you could forgive me," ... Elizabeth said trying to get through to him. Ric was angrier than she had ever seen him.
Before Elizabeth could Finish the angry finally just let loose and Ric began yelling at her, "what did you do, bed down with me for old time sake to make sure I was really heart broken? Maybe you wanted to compare to see if I can measure up to the great Jason Morgan? What you to gonna have a good laugh later. "
Elizabeth walked over grabbed his arm and started yelling back, "No Ric...I don't want HIM ! I want to be with YOU!"
Ric brushed her hand away and started towards the door.
Elizabeth ran around him to stand in front of the door. "Please Ric don't leave," she said in a frantic tone, "I love you!"
Ric stood in front of her and spit out," Elizabeth I love you I always will but I can not stay here. Please move."
Finally Elizabeth was angry. "What's the matter Ric?" she demanded. " I forgave for Faith when you had sex with her in our bed. And I found that skank in MY house!!!!! With MY HUSBAND!!!!! In her underwear. Why after all the things I have forgiven you for can't you forgive me?"
Ric moved her aside and opened the door and walked out. Looking back at her with a face so full of pain and rage that it scared Elizabeth. In a very quiet voice he said, "I never said I couldn't forgive you." With that he simply walked away.
Ric walked down the hall, never looking back even though he knew that he was hurting Elizabeth. He simply walked away and left her standing in the hall. He was so angry and full of rage at that moment he was afraid of himself. He knew his darkside had a habit of showing up when he was angry and that he lashed out and he didn't want to do that to Elizabeth. That would be the end of him. For the first time in his life he was scaring himself.
He walked up to his car and almost got in but then stopped himself and figured he would walk and think. He walked along the docks and stopped looking into the water.
He heard voices from the far side of the dock and looked up to see Faith Roscoe talking with her new boy toy. Looking out into the water He remembered Elizabeth yelling at him. "What's the matter Ric?" she demanded. "I forgave you for Faith when you had sex with her in our bed. And I found that skank in MY house!!!!! With MY HUSBAND!!!!! In her underwear. Why after all the things I have forgiven you for can't you forgive me?" He flashed back to that day when Elizabeth found Faith at their Home. He remembered how heartbroken she had been. But until this morning with Elizabeth's confession Ric never realized just how badly he had hurt her. When Elizabeth said she had had sex with Jason it made something in him break and the pain was killing him.
As he continued walking he remembered all the times his sweet Elizabeth had forgiven him. All of the lies, the pain and now he New the terrible betrayal of him having sex with faith. In his heart he knew he owed her so much she deserved his forgiveness.
Ric was actually afraid of himself. He didn't know if he could do this, if he could even forgive at all. Until Elizabeth no one in his life had ever forgiven him when he messed up. She was the only one who ever had ever given him her forgiveness. He new he didn't deserve to even walk in her shadow. She was his angel his greatest treasure. He thought back on all the wonder things she had given him. She had forgiven her the unforgivable over and over again. He did know that everything he had learned about love he learned from her so he hoped her could also follow her example and learns to forgive.
As he started walking again calmer now he tried to figure out what made him so angry. Was it the fact that Elizabeth had sex with someone else that made him so angry? Ric was logical enough to admit that he had no right to be angry with that. He and Elizabeth were separated and he had cheated first. He realized at that point it really wasn't what she had done but rather whom she had done it with. What angered him so much was the fact that she had slept with Jason Morgan.
Jason Morgan the man who he hated and who hated him. The chosen brother, of his own big brother Sonny. The person who he was told he would never measure up to. The man who was supposed to be everything he was not. The man who had basically stolen his place in his own family .The Idea that that bastard had sex with his beautiful wife and then had the nerve to treat her like his whore. Like his dirty secret. Like she had no value and was trash. That simply sickened him. She was worth 100 Courtney's.
Ric finally found himself in the park feeling a little calmer, so he took out his cell Phone and hit a button on the speed dial. "Hello," he said trying to be calm, "This is Ric Lansing is it possible to speak to Dr. Baldwin? Yes I will hold." It started to snow and Ric was enjoying watching a group of children chasing the snowflakes. "Hello Gail, yes its Ric. I know I am not supposed to have a session until Thursday but I was wondering if you could possibly see me for a few minutes this afternoon? I've had something happen in my personal Life and I am trying to work through it and I want to handle it in a constructive way Not simply self- destruct. You can! Thanks Gail. I will see you at three." He closed his phone putting it back in his pocket. Looking down at his watch he noticed he had a little over an hour before he was to meet with Gail. He decided to walk the long way around the park before heading over to the hospital.
He turned the corner and saw Jason and Courtney standing by a bench. Walking up behind them he said, "Morgan I want to speak to you. NOW!"
Before Jason could answer Courtney spoke up Nose in the air as usual. "What do you want YOU sick freak? You should be rotting in prison not running around bothering innocent people in the park."
Getting in between Ric and Courtney and stepping forward Jason finally got to speak," What do you want Lansing?"
Taking a step forward. "I just wanted to tell you this", he said as his fist flew forward connecting with Jason's jaw. As Jason went down on his ass Ric started yelling. "Stay away from Elizabeth you bastard. If you come anywhere near MY WIFE again I will kill you."
Courtney started pounding on Ric's back. "How dare you!" she screamed "he hasn't even spoken to Elizabeth in months."
Jason grabbed Courtney stopping him from hitting Ric again. Pulling her back against his chest and glaring at Ric.
"Oh really he hasn't even talked to Elizabeth, "Ric said laughing at what a fool Courtney. " Well little stepsister, maybe you don't know St. Jason as well as you think you do. But you know what I will let him fill you in."
Jason turned to walked away pulling Courtney with him.
Ric just looked on until they were gone. He could hear Courtney grilling Jason until they were out of sight. Ric started walking towards the hospital. He laughed at the fact that the Great Jason Morgan was shaking in his shoes at the thought that his dumb blonde girl friend would find out. That simple fact really improved his mood on the way to see Gail Baldwin
Later that evening Ric finally made his way back to the studio. He knocked on Elizabeth's door and waited.
Authors note: This is a Ric/ Liz/ Jason WTD. It is not what I wanted to see play out on G.H. It is what even Rick Hearst said would be a good story.
Disclaimer: I own no one in this story I simply borrowed these people from General hospital. I promise to return them unharmed from General Hospital when I have finished playing with them.
Rated: R
It was very Late on a Friday night or maybe even a Saturday Morning. Elizabeth Webber-Lansing woke a little disoriented trying to figure out where she was. As awareness slowly crept in she realized that she was outside under the stars on a blanket wrapped in a mans arms. She said a silent prayer before looking over at him. Then she started to cry as she remembered just how she had gotten there last night.
The hurt of Ric's betrayal along with the news of Emily almost certain death had sent Elizabeth into the chapel at the hospital. The years of pain and loss were catching up to her quickly and she had been crying before she had even reached the door. Jason had been sitting in a chapel also hurting. When she reached to touch him all the anger she felt kind of melted away and he was simply the man who let her dance with him when she had lost Lucky. They ended up holding each other as they cried for Emily.
After they had calmed down they decided to take a ride up to Vista point. It was a beautiful night so they pulled a blanket out and sat under the stars and talked. It seemed so simple one little kiss with an old friend to ease the pain. That was all it was supposed to be but it turned into more and now she lying here in Jason's arms after having sex.
Slowly she moved away while he still slept praying that he would not wake up. She quietly dressed and then slowly walked back to her studio crying the whole way home. She realized as she walked that being with Jason didn't make her feel any better. If it was possible she felt even more empty and broken after than when she was in the chapel.
When she reached her studio she went straight to the shower stripped and climbed in. She felt dirty and sickened with her self as she scrubbed her skin trying to scrub Jason away and stayed in the shower crying long after the water had turned cold. She wrapped herself in her big Terry cloth robe and curled up in a ball on the studio couch still crying for all she had lost and all she had wished she could get back. The most ironic thing was she wanted Ric she realized as she drifted off to sleep.
Sunday evening found Elizabeth still wrapped in her Robe and still sitting on her studio couch. She felt frozen and looking back over everything that had happened on Friday wasn't helping her feel any better. After lots of tears and lots of showers she was still in the same place.
She loved Ric and didn't think she could ever forgive him for what he had done to her but part of her wanted to. Now she had also ruined everything that was left. She had slept with Jason, which meant she had broken her wedding vows. After all she was still Ric's wife. Elizabeth wasn't stupid she knew he had been sleeping with Faith. After all she had basically answered the door to the house in her under wear when she had gone to see Ric Friday morning but she still hated the fact she had broken her vows by having sex with Jason.
Jason, Oh yes her good friend Jason. He was such a good friend that he hadn't even bothered to see if she had made it home alive. Elizabeth laughed to herself as she realized after at one time wanting so badly to be with Jason not only was it the biggest mistake of her life and the most humiliating he was also the worse lover she had ever had. Even Zander was better.
There was a Knock at her door that brought her back to reality. She got up and looked in the mirror and realized just how bad she looked with huge dark circle under her eyes and her hair a wild mess of curls. She made sure her robe was well closed as she went to answer the door. She figured it was Lucky or maybe even Jason. But when she opened the door she was shocked to see Ric.
Elizabeth had answered her door expecting to see Lucky or possibly even Jason standing in the hall but when she looked up and saw it was Ric she had no idea what to do. She was shocked and her heart and head started to fight with each other. One part of her wanted to slam the door in his face but the other wanted to run into his arms and get lost in his warm embrace. Having no idea what impulse to follow Elizabeth simply stepped back and let him into the apartment. She could see all the love and concern in his face.
Ric looked up when Elizabeth opened the door and was shocked by what he saw. There stood Elizabeth looking so small. Her eyes were red from crying and had huge dark circles under them. She was wearing the big white terry cloth Robe she had stolen from his closet while they were married and the biggest shock to Ric was she was so pale he couldn't tell the difference between the whiteness of the robe and her skin. The hardest thing of all was the look in her eyes he had seen her hurt before and he had seen her angry before but this was so much worse. She seemed broken.
She moved backwards into the room and he followed her closing the door behind him. The silence was deafing as neither one made an effort to talk. Ric started to speak but then decided not to remember that Elizabeth always said he was to good with words and not wanting to upset her even more. He was amazed that she had even let him into the studio. He took a deep breath, opened his arms, reached out to her and in a whisper said, " Come here", and simply waited.
Elizabeth just stood there for the longest time simply looking at Ric. Her heart was at war with her head but finally her heart and her love for Rick won out. She walked slowly forward into his waiting arms. She wrapped her arms around his neck and laid her head on his shoulder and started to cry again.
Ric simply stood there Holding her as close as possible. He could feel her shake with her tears and had his own tears silently falling down his face. His heart was breaking for her and he swore no matter what was the matter he would find away to fix it.
Finally as she clung to him he bent his knees reached down and picked up Elizabeth and moved to sit on the couch with Elizabeth on his lap her head never left his shoulder. They sat there for the longest time until her tears finally stopped. Then they simply stayed where they were neither waiting to let the other go it had been so long since they had Just held each other.
Elizabeth was exactly where she wanted to be. Her head was on his shoulder she could feel the warm skin of his neck and could smell his after- shave. She couldn't help herself she started kissing his neck Up to her ear and across his jawline until she finally reached his sexy lips. She leaned back and looked into his eyes then she moved forward to kiss him licking along his lips seeking access into his mouth.
Ric tried to be a good man to simply give Elizabeth comfort and not let his desire for her take over, But when he felt her lips touch his and felt her tongue seeking access his resolve snapped. The kiss went from sweet to passionate in an instant.
Elizabeth reached down and started pulling the black T-shirt Ric was wearing over his head. She felt him shaking as she started kissing his chest.
Ric moved his hands to the tie of her robe and started to untie it but stopped he pulling back. He started to ask if this is what Elizabeth wanted when he felt her finger on his lips. "Shhh," Elizabeth said as she pulled his hands back down to the tie on her robe.
Ric opened her robe pushing it over her shoulders. And as she leaned forward he let out a low moan as her hard nipples were pressed into his chest and they started kissing again. He moved his hand up cupping her left breast with his palm and then tugged on her hard nipple making her moan. His other hand moved down to pull her even tighter into his hardness. He kissed her chin and then down her neck and chest until he reached her hard nipple and pulled it into his mouth sucking sweetly them moving across her chest he did the same to the other nipple. He stood up quickly turned the around with her sitting on the couch and him on the floor on his knees as he slowly kissed down her stomach and then parted her thighs and buried his face into her as he tasted her sweetness. He could feel her shaking and heard her cry out but was surprised that her hands were pulling him away from her after a few minutes. Looking up he saw her smiling.
Elizabeth sat up and reached for Ric's belt. She unfastened it and the zipper and then pulled down his pants and boxers. She then leaned back on the couch spreading her legs and reached out for him. Ric kicked off his shoes and pants and then moved between her legs and looking into her eyes he buried himself into her wet heat. Neither lasts long as they quickly came together at the same time. Both crying out and saying, "I love you".
They lay wrapped around each other under the old afghan on the couch. Elizabeth leaned up to look Ric in the eyes. She started to tell him what was going on her eyes filling back up with fear. "Ric, I need to..." She started to say as her voice trembled only to be interupted by Ric.
"Shh," said Ric. "We will sort all of this out in the morning for now I just want to hold the woman I love."
"Ok, I love you to." She said as she laid her had back down on Ric's chest and snuggled close as she fell asleep.
A few hours later, Ric was jarred awake by the insistent ringing of his cell phone. He reached down to his jeans still lying on the floor by the couch getting the phone from the pocket. He was trying to be as quiet as possible not wanting to wake Elizabeth. She was so beautiful and so peaceful looking with her head on his chest. Turning the phone on Ric answered it. "Lansing here, "he said, "Yes.... Yes...Yes....You do realize its 3am.? Alright, alright I will be there as soon as possible." He closed the phone and laid it back on the floor next to his jeans and slowly tried to get up with out waking Elizabeth.
Elizabeth felt him moving and raised her head. "Was that your phone?" She asked still sleepy.
"Yes," answered Ric as he leaned up kissing her. "I have to go into the office for a while. I'm sorry."
"Can you tell me why?" she asked as she shifted so he could get up.
"Sonny picked tonight to get himself arrested, So of course Baldwin had to call me in", Ric answered quickly as he pulled on his pants hoping he would not be rejected and hating to leave.
"Oh, Ok. "Elizabeth answered as she pulled the afghan closer around her.
Taking a chance, Ric continued talking as he got dressed. "I can be back in a couple hours. I could even bring breakfast and we could eat while we talk if that's ok with you?" He waited for the rejection he was sure that would come.
Looking over at Ric Elizabeth saw how worried he was as he asked and smiled. Sitting up she Reached over catching Ric's hand as he was turning to leave. "I would love it if you came back. I am sorry you have to leave at all, but understand its work. Breakfast while we talk would be wonderful."
Ric smiled and said, "That's great, I will be back as soon as I can. You try to get some more sleep." He kissed her hand and started walking to the door.
"I will," Elizabeth said.
As Ric opened the door Elizabeth stopped him by saying, "Hey Ric, I love you."
Ric walked back over, kissed her and said "I love you to, Now go to sleep or I will never be back with Breakfast." With that comment he left.
Several hours later Elizabeth heard someone Knocking at her studio door. Pulling on her robe she went over and opened the door with a big smile thinking it was Ric. "I hope you remembered the orange juice, " Elizabeth said with a big smile until she looked up and realized it was Jason standing in the hall not Ric.
"Oh!" She said the disappointment could be heard in her voice. "Its you Jason. Why are you here? What do you want?" She asked Sounding annoyed.
Jason was a little surprised at how Elizabeth was acting. "I wanted to see if you were all right." He said, "and I think we need to talk."
Stepping back to let Jason into her studio Elizabeth tightened her robe before she closed the door. "Well, As you can see I made it home just fine by myself Friday night. Thank you so much for asking Monday Morning!" She answered.
"I'm glad your, Ok. "Jason said leaning against the wall by the door.
"Thank you for asking. No why exactly are you here?" Elizabeth asked. In reality she didn't want to know why she really just wanted him to leave.
Jason was amazed at how cold she sounded. "Ok fine. I haven't been able to tell Courtney what happened between us and I wanted to ask you not to."
What Jason was saying made Elizabeth angry and she did nothing to hide it. She realized on Friday that she had made one of the biggest mistakes of her life but what now Jason was acting like all she was, was a whore. She was the one who was married and who had cheated on her husband but he came here asking her not to tell his precious little bunny what had happened. "Why Jason you surprise me. What happened to Mr. I could not tell a lie? Well unless it involves Sonny!"
Realizing just how angry She was Jason attempted to explain things hoping she would understand. "Elizabeth you don't have to act like this. I haven't told Courtney what happened between us because I found out when I got back to the penthouse why Courtney has been acting so strangely. When Alcazar took her prisoner she was pregnant. In trying to escape she lost the baby and didn't want to tell me. She is hurting so much right now I didn't want to hurt her more. Can't you understand?"
"If you don't want to tell her that's Fine, I lost a baby I can understand the hurt." Elizabeth said realizing she really didn't want Courtney to suffer because she and Jason were so stupid. "But I will tell Ric."
"Tell Ric? Why it's that sick twisted bastards fault the Courtney lost the baby in the first place. Jason said now he was angry.
Elizabeth had, had enough and stopped being Civil and started yelling at Jason. "That sick twisted bastard is my Husband, Jason and if he will still have me after I made the mistake of whoreing myself out to you I will continue to be his wife. Oh and for the record if you stupid little twit of a wife had stopped to think about that baby she is mourning so badly, she would have kept her ass at home and would still be pregnant. Its your business if you tell her or if you don't not mine. But my marriage has suffered enough from Lying and I will not be lying to Ric."
"Elizabeth you don't understand that bastard will just use you again. Jason said throwing his hands in the air. He could not believe she was going fall for Ric yet again.
"Use me. Ric isn't using me Jason. He simply loves me. Now you on the other hand have are a different story. Having sex with you has to be the stupidest thing I have ever done. " She said with a firmness that startled Jason.
Trying a different approach he said, "Elizabeth we are friends."
"No Jason." Elizabeth said. "We were friends a long time ago but you haven't been my friend in a very long time. To much has happened. If you were my friend you would have made a lot of different choices. Hell if you were my friend you would have made sure I made it home on Friday night. "
"Your just jealous. "Jason spit out annoyed now. "Your jealous because after sex with you I still want to be with Courtney and not you.'
Elizabeth started laughing at what a fool Jason really was. "Jealous because I can't have you? Give me a break! I am not jealous you fool. I am angry. Angry with myself for being so weak and foolish I gave myself to you. Besides Jason sex with you was so bad I have spent the whole weekend trying to forget! Now, GET OUT!"
Jason reached forward and grabbed Elizabeth by the arm pulling her into his chest. "You can not tell Courtney!" he said his eyes full of anger.
Elizabeth took her free hand and made a fist and started hitting him and she was screaming," Let me go you bastard and Get out!"
Ric could hear Elizabeth screaming at some one as he reached out and opened the door. It banged into the opposite wall. Dropping the take out bags on the floor he grabbed Jason by his jacket pulling at him while yelling. "Jason get your hands off my wife."
Jason let go of Elizabeth and felt her slip to the floor as Ric's fist connected with the side of his face and then his stomach. He was going to hit Ric back but realized he had let things get out of hand and hurt Elizabeth. He simply looked from Elizabeth to Ric and walked out the door shaking his head.
Ric kneeled down beside Elizabeth and gently pulled her into his arms. "What happened here?" he asked and he brushed her hair out of her face.
Elizabeth looked up into Ric's warm brown eyes still crying and said in almost a whisper, "that's part of what we need to talk about."
Looking into her eyes Ric realized that a lot more was upsetting Elizabeth besides a nasty argument with Sonny's robotic lap dog Jason. She had been so full of pain and was so lost the night before and even though they had made love. He new what ever made her look so haunted when he stopped by the night before had not gone away. He pulled her close and said, "Whatever it is Elizabeth you can trust me and tell me. It will be all right. Would you like to go sit on the couch?" Ric smiled to reassure her.
She looked up into his kind eyes and said, "Ok." As she shook her head yes.
Ric helped her up from the floor and over to the couch. He watched as Elizabeth sat down pulling her legs up and wrapping her arms around her knees. He walked back to the door, picked up the take out bags and set them on the coffee table. Opening the first bag Ric pulled out two extra large cups of coffee. "Here we go. Two coffee's black for me and one with extra cream and sugar for you," he said as he handed her the coffee.
"Thank you!" Elizabeth said as she took the cup of coffee from him taking a sip and trying to smile.
Smiling back, Ric took a sip from his coffee and then finished unpacking the take out. He pulled two big blueberry muffins and two orange juices out of the bags and put them on the coffee table. Looking up Ric realized that Elizabeth had started crying again.
Ric put his cup of coffee back down on the coffee table and then reached over and took Elizabeth's out of her hand. "Ok! Enough Baby whatever this is it's killing you. Please just tell me!" Ric said as he sat on the couch next to her.
"Alright." Elizabeth said quietly as she starting speaking very quickly starring straight ahead not able to look Ric in the face. "On Friday when I was told Emily was almost going to die. I just lost it. Everything that had been happening just kind of came crashing down on me. Emotionally it was just too much. I really felt like I broke. I went to the chapel to pray for Emily and I ran into Jason. " She looked over at him and saw his jaw tighten at the mention of Jason's name. Taking a deep breath she waited for him to say something.
"Elizabeth I still don't know why you even given that man the time of day. "Ric spit out.
"Anyway I left the chapel with Jason and we went to Vista point to talk." Elizabeth said. Turning to look at him finally she continued, "Ric while I was at Vista point I..." She stopped mid sentence and the room was silent for the longest time.
"You what?" Ric asked very trying to stay calm and help her finish.
Taking a deep breath and finally looking back into Ric's eyes Elizabeth finally said what she had been so dreading to say. "I had sex with Jason."
Ric shifted forward and trying to keep the rage he suddenly felt he asked Elizabeth," you did what."
"I had sex with Jason," Elizabeth said trying to reach out to Ric. She was saddened when he shook off her hand from his arm.
Ric was desperately tried to stay calm as he raised his voice and said, "You ...You just said you had sex with Jason. "He got up off of the couch and started pacing the floor. After a few minutes, he stopped and faced Elizabeth. "How could you do that?"
"Ric please try to understand! I was lost in my pain and suffering...I wanted to feel something besides pain... I made the biggest mistake of my life Whoreing myself to that bastard. "Elizabeth said as she started to get up from the couch.
Ric ran his hands through his hair trying to calm himself as Elizabeth tried to come closer he held his hand up in front of himself trying to keep her from coming any closer. "Oh my God! Jason Morgan.... How could you let that bastard even touch you? "He spat out. "Why was he her this morning? Was he here for another go round? Did I ruin a lovers spat?"
No.... No ...No! Ric he was only here to demand I not tell Courtney. I told him I would not tell her that was His business but I said I would be telling you." Elizabeth said praying that he would listen.
"Why bother telling me?" Ric asked
Because you are my husband and I wanted no more lies between us from you so that means I can't lie either. Ric I was hoping you could forgive me," ... Elizabeth said trying to get through to him. Ric was angrier than she had ever seen him.
Before Elizabeth could Finish the angry finally just let loose and Ric began yelling at her, "what did you do, bed down with me for old time sake to make sure I was really heart broken? Maybe you wanted to compare to see if I can measure up to the great Jason Morgan? What you to gonna have a good laugh later. "
Elizabeth walked over grabbed his arm and started yelling back, "No Ric...I don't want HIM ! I want to be with YOU!"
Ric brushed her hand away and started towards the door.
Elizabeth ran around him to stand in front of the door. "Please Ric don't leave," she said in a frantic tone, "I love you!"
Ric stood in front of her and spit out," Elizabeth I love you I always will but I can not stay here. Please move."
Finally Elizabeth was angry. "What's the matter Ric?" she demanded. " I forgave for Faith when you had sex with her in our bed. And I found that skank in MY house!!!!! With MY HUSBAND!!!!! In her underwear. Why after all the things I have forgiven you for can't you forgive me?"
Ric moved her aside and opened the door and walked out. Looking back at her with a face so full of pain and rage that it scared Elizabeth. In a very quiet voice he said, "I never said I couldn't forgive you." With that he simply walked away.
Ric walked down the hall, never looking back even though he knew that he was hurting Elizabeth. He simply walked away and left her standing in the hall. He was so angry and full of rage at that moment he was afraid of himself. He knew his darkside had a habit of showing up when he was angry and that he lashed out and he didn't want to do that to Elizabeth. That would be the end of him. For the first time in his life he was scaring himself.
He walked up to his car and almost got in but then stopped himself and figured he would walk and think. He walked along the docks and stopped looking into the water.
He heard voices from the far side of the dock and looked up to see Faith Roscoe talking with her new boy toy. Looking out into the water He remembered Elizabeth yelling at him. "What's the matter Ric?" she demanded. "I forgave you for Faith when you had sex with her in our bed. And I found that skank in MY house!!!!! With MY HUSBAND!!!!! In her underwear. Why after all the things I have forgiven you for can't you forgive me?" He flashed back to that day when Elizabeth found Faith at their Home. He remembered how heartbroken she had been. But until this morning with Elizabeth's confession Ric never realized just how badly he had hurt her. When Elizabeth said she had had sex with Jason it made something in him break and the pain was killing him.
As he continued walking he remembered all the times his sweet Elizabeth had forgiven him. All of the lies, the pain and now he New the terrible betrayal of him having sex with faith. In his heart he knew he owed her so much she deserved his forgiveness.
Ric was actually afraid of himself. He didn't know if he could do this, if he could even forgive at all. Until Elizabeth no one in his life had ever forgiven him when he messed up. She was the only one who ever had ever given him her forgiveness. He new he didn't deserve to even walk in her shadow. She was his angel his greatest treasure. He thought back on all the wonder things she had given him. She had forgiven her the unforgivable over and over again. He did know that everything he had learned about love he learned from her so he hoped her could also follow her example and learns to forgive.
As he started walking again calmer now he tried to figure out what made him so angry. Was it the fact that Elizabeth had sex with someone else that made him so angry? Ric was logical enough to admit that he had no right to be angry with that. He and Elizabeth were separated and he had cheated first. He realized at that point it really wasn't what she had done but rather whom she had done it with. What angered him so much was the fact that she had slept with Jason Morgan.
Jason Morgan the man who he hated and who hated him. The chosen brother, of his own big brother Sonny. The person who he was told he would never measure up to. The man who was supposed to be everything he was not. The man who had basically stolen his place in his own family .The Idea that that bastard had sex with his beautiful wife and then had the nerve to treat her like his whore. Like his dirty secret. Like she had no value and was trash. That simply sickened him. She was worth 100 Courtney's.
Ric finally found himself in the park feeling a little calmer, so he took out his cell Phone and hit a button on the speed dial. "Hello," he said trying to be calm, "This is Ric Lansing is it possible to speak to Dr. Baldwin? Yes I will hold." It started to snow and Ric was enjoying watching a group of children chasing the snowflakes. "Hello Gail, yes its Ric. I know I am not supposed to have a session until Thursday but I was wondering if you could possibly see me for a few minutes this afternoon? I've had something happen in my personal Life and I am trying to work through it and I want to handle it in a constructive way Not simply self- destruct. You can! Thanks Gail. I will see you at three." He closed his phone putting it back in his pocket. Looking down at his watch he noticed he had a little over an hour before he was to meet with Gail. He decided to walk the long way around the park before heading over to the hospital.
He turned the corner and saw Jason and Courtney standing by a bench. Walking up behind them he said, "Morgan I want to speak to you. NOW!"
Before Jason could answer Courtney spoke up Nose in the air as usual. "What do you want YOU sick freak? You should be rotting in prison not running around bothering innocent people in the park."
Getting in between Ric and Courtney and stepping forward Jason finally got to speak," What do you want Lansing?"
Taking a step forward. "I just wanted to tell you this", he said as his fist flew forward connecting with Jason's jaw. As Jason went down on his ass Ric started yelling. "Stay away from Elizabeth you bastard. If you come anywhere near MY WIFE again I will kill you."
Courtney started pounding on Ric's back. "How dare you!" she screamed "he hasn't even spoken to Elizabeth in months."
Jason grabbed Courtney stopping him from hitting Ric again. Pulling her back against his chest and glaring at Ric.
"Oh really he hasn't even talked to Elizabeth, "Ric said laughing at what a fool Courtney. " Well little stepsister, maybe you don't know St. Jason as well as you think you do. But you know what I will let him fill you in."
Jason turned to walked away pulling Courtney with him.
Ric just looked on until they were gone. He could hear Courtney grilling Jason until they were out of sight. Ric started walking towards the hospital. He laughed at the fact that the Great Jason Morgan was shaking in his shoes at the thought that his dumb blonde girl friend would find out. That simple fact really improved his mood on the way to see Gail Baldwin
Later that evening Ric finally made his way back to the studio. He knocked on Elizabeth's door and waited.
