Disclaimer: I do not own Cagalli Yula Attha.
a/n: This is just a side chapter, sorry if I haven't been uploading the next chapter, I'm in version 4 of it already, yet it's still not right.
Why the world is literally what I have to give to be with you.
It feels like it's been so long ago, that day we really met on that little deserted island in the middle of the pacific. We were both so young then, but then again it didn't take us too long to grow up. It felt like a refreshing break from all the tyranny, that night we spent talking in the cave. You were so peculiarly calm; it almost felt insulting that you let your guard down around me so easily. You made an impression on me that day- I didn't expect it to go beyond that day to be honest, but I made sure I remembered your name when we parted ways.
Goodness crap! I'm getting to nostalgic about this. Let's skip it a bit, I wouldn't want to get on with the details, those unnecessary at least.
I am Cagalli Yula Attha. You didn't know that back then, when we were in that island, but you knew it when you fell in love with me when met again in space. I can't be anything else other than who I am. Truth be told, I sometimes resent the fact that I had to be separated from my brother, and had to be adopted by my father. But then again I love my father, as you love yours- as you would still proudly keep his name. This is who we are, and we'll never ask each other to give that up.
I am Chief Representative of the United Emirates of ORB. I am the leader not just any nation- the nation who holds peace between all other nations. I am literally walking on a tight rope here. I have to be neutral in everything while still keeping a stand of my own. I have to be strong not only for my people, but also for the rest of world- the world we fought to have.
I am who I am; forgive me if the price of our love is just too much. I know you would understand, because I am confident that you know this well too. It's the truth, and we know that we can't be with each other. It would be too selfish for us to do so. The world needs us more than we need each other.
She closed the window on her computer as it automatically saved the entry in its default name. This was her trying to convince herself, hoping that there will come a day that giving in to her love would no longer mean selfishness on her part, and hoping that he's still in love with her too when that day comes.
