Disclaimer: I don't own Girl Meets World or anything else except the idea for this story.

Summery: The first time it happened, it came out of nowhere...now it's her daily reminder on how worthless and unimportant she really is. This is a day by day of when Riley was being bullied and how it really affected her.

Warning: This story is rated T for bullying triggers. While I don't use vulgar language, the messages the bully sends are not nice at all. Warnings for depression as well as small hints of self harm. If you or someone you know is being bullied or this subject is sensitive to you, I urge you to read with caution. Also, know that you are not alone.

I also want to warn that I use the word retarded once and it kills me because I HATE HATE HATE using that word in any circumstance but the bully is a jerk and I know unfortunately people use that word in an insulting way.

XOXOXOX

(Day 1)

The first time it happened, it came out of nowhere. She was leaving class with Farkle and Maya who were a little behind her, talking about something in hushed whispers, when her phone goes off.

*Ding*

Riley looks at her phone curiously and sees a familiar name, yet not one she sees on her phone often. Maybe something was wrong and she needed her help. They weren't close friends, but she was always willing to help someone if they needed her.

(You realize they're only friends with you because they feel sorry for you right?! They aren't even including you in their convos!)

She looks up from her phone and sees her across the room with a smirk on her face. She gives a pointed look at Farkle and Maya who were close together laughing before she closes her locker and walks away. She had a smug look on her face, like she was proud of herself for sending that text message.

Riley looks to her friends and puts a smile on her face like normal. She wasn't going to let her classmate bother her and plant doubts about her friendships in her head. Maya and Farkle were her best and longest friends.

"What are you guys talking about?" Riley asked them in her normal happy tone. However, her smile slowly fades when she sees them give each other an odd look and Maya shrugs.

"Oh nothing." She says before lacing her arm through Riley's and leading her away from Farkle.

Her smile is long gone. Well...well maybe they weren't talking about anything important. Maybe they were planning a surprise party for her birthday...five months early. Maybe... But they seemed like they were having a good conversation; they were laughing after all. They definitely weren't laughing at her...

Were they?

Later, on the subway when Maya gets off at her stop, saying that she had to go home because her mom had the day off; Riley hugged her and wished her a good time. She knows her mom works a lot and Maya never gets to spend a lot of time with her.

For the longest time, Maya used to resent her mom for never being around; blaming her mom for her dad leaving. However, after she met and bonded with her godfather Shawn Hunter, she realized how hard her mom was working to make a life for Maya.

She's so proud of the person Maya is becoming; being supportive of her mom working so hard to give Maya a good life. She may just be a waitress trying to make it as an actress; but she loved Maya more than anything and would do anything for her.

Not even a minute after Maya gets off at her stop, she hears her phone.

*Ding*

(They're going to hang out without you. I see them together all the time. They all seem so much closer when you're not around. Especially Lucas and Maya. Thought I'd be a friend and let you know.)

She scoffs as she reads the message and angrily shoves her phone into the bottom of her backpack. Now she knew that she was lying. Her best friends wouldn't hang out and not tell her. Plus Lucas and Maya!? That was just crazy. They teased each other constantly.

But as hard as she tried she couldn't stop thinking about her message. When she got off the subway she could see HER smirking in her seat a couple feet away.

As hard as she tried, she couldn't get her message out of her head. Throughout dinner she could barley hear her family talk about their days, or her parents ask her if she was okay. All she could do is nod and say she was fine before locking herself in her room for the rest of the night.

There was no way she was right. Farkle, Maya, Zay, and even Smackle were her friends. Lucas and her had their unofficial thing! Maya would never have feelings for Lucas and not tell her.

XOXOXOX

That night she dreamed she was standing behind a sound proof glass as she watched all her friends happy and laughing while they sat at Topanga's Bakery. They seemed to be having the time of their lives as they said horrible things about her.

"She is so ditzy! I can't believe she made it to the 8th grade and didn't get held back." Farkle scoffed and shuddering at the thought of her so close to him.

"I can't believe I ever had a crush on her! I mean Maya is understandable, she's gorgeous but Riley!? She's so...plain; she's got nothing on you two ladies." He continued before giving an affectionate look to his girlfriend.

"It's only because her dad is one of her teachers. If Mr. Matthews was just a normal parent, she probably would have been suggested to stay in primary school." Smackle states as a matter of fact and Farkle nods in agreement.

"Yeah I just don't get it. At first I thought she was adorable but then she had to go and open her mouth! I mean she's so clueless! To think that she had a real shot with my buddy Luke." Zay mhmed to the others and nodding towards Lucas who was rolling his eyes.

"Yeah I know what you mean buddy, I only told Riley I liked her because I didn't want her to have a meltdown about being rejected." He said dismissively.

As if their words weren't enough to make Riley scream until her throat was sore; the worst part was the fact that Maya was sitting on Lucas' lap giggling at everyone talking bad about her.

(Day 2)

She wakes up the next morning to her phone going off. She has a horrible feeling in her stomach but grabs the phone anyway.

(Good morning Sunshine pleasant sleep? Maybe you'll do us all the favor of staying home today and spare us your annoying presence.)

She feels like her heart drops as she gets out of bed. She looks at herself in the mirror and tries to really look at herself. Was she really annoying? Was her friends in her dream right? Was she just a ditzy, plain Jane that no one wanted to be around? She bites her lip to to stop them from trembling. No, she had to be wrong...

She must have looked at her reflection for a good ten minutes before her mother's voice woke her from her trance.

She had to stop thinking about herself this way. SHE was not going to dim her spirits; SHE was just being cruel to her for no reason and spreading lies about her friends.

She walks into her kitchen to see Maya sitting in her usual seat munching on cereal. She tried perking up as they talked through out breakfast.

Maya was her best friend in the world, she would never let anyone talk about her like they were in her dream. She was just being silly.

As they walked to the bus stop, Maya was telling her about last night with her mom, Riley listening while she tried not to run into the many people in the streets until she heard her friend mention Lucas, Zay, and Farkle.

Riley abruptly stopped and looked at Maya.

"Wait, what was that?" She asked and Maya smiles at her and gives a little laugh.

"Stuck in Rileytown again, weren't you? I was just saying how after dinner with my mom I saw the guys at the ice cream place." She mentions it like it's no big deal but Riley feels like she just got punched in the stomach.

She replays the text message from yesterday in her head over and over again. Do they really hang out without her all the time?

*Bing*

(Stop smiling so much. You bug the crap out of everyone and it makes you look so stupid.)

Riley holds in her tears she feels building in her eyes as she reads the message. She really looks stupid because she smiles all the time? What was so wrong with looking on the bright side?

"Who was that?" Maya asks her and Riley shakes her head.

"My mom. She's making sure I do my chores when I get home." She lies without even thinking about it. She probably should tell Maya, she would know what to do. However, at the same time she couldn't help but feel like SHE was right and Maya and the gang were keeping things from her as well.

She decided that Maya didn't need to know.

Maya groans in mild annoyance. "I thought we were going to hang out with everyone when we finish our homework!"

Riley shrugs as if her heart wasn't breaking.

"I guess you'll have to go without me." She mutters.

"Like I'm sure you've done many times before." She thinks to herself spitefully.

"Yeah but it won't be the same." Maya pouted.

"I bet you guys won't even miss me." Riley thinks to herself before they get in the subway car.

When they get to school Riley had to act like everything was okay. She smiled at everyone like normal but she felt like she was living a lie.

When she smiled and said good morning to Lucas, she couldn't help but feel like he was staring at Maya longer than he usually does.

*Bing*

(You're an idiot if you think a hottie like Lucas would want you over anyone else. Over Maya.)

Riley puts her phone away when her father walks into class. She couldn't even hear what lesson was being given because she was too busy digging her nails into her arm to keep herself from crying.

She really was an idiot. Maybe it was time to stop smiling so much.

XOXOX

(Day 3)

It's only been three days but Riley could feel her ray of sunshine self slowly slipping away. Every morning she wakes up to messages from HER. Usually they are telling her that she should stay home and to give the world a break from her stupidity and clumsiness. She tried not to let it bother her.

Throughout the day whenever her phone would go off, she would try and stop herself from looking at whatever message was waiting for her. She didn't want to read them, however, it was like an outer body experience and before she knew it she was reading the next horrible thought that SHE thought Riley needed to know. The messages changed but they became her constant reminder on how worthless she was and how everyone would be better off without her.

(You know, I think your dad likes Maya more than you)

She got that message right after History, where the lesson of the day was about the class's past. Maya of course, didn't want to participate because she says it was her past that made her broken.

Her dad, being like a surrogate father to Maya, is trying to teach her that her bad past helped her become the blessed person she is today.

A part of her could understand why someone would think that her dad favors Maya but what she couldn't understand was how SHE knew what was going on in her History class.

Was SHE talking about her with other people? Did more people think this way about her?

As she puts her phone away she can feel Lucas walk with her towards the lunch room.

"Hey, are you feeling okay? You seem a little quiet." He comments and gives her a look of concern. Riley looks at him and she can almost forget every horrible thing that has been on her phone the last couple days.

Lucas always had that way to make her happy. He was her Pluto.

"Yeah, I'm okay. I just have a lot on my mind lately." She tells him and she's hoping that he asks her what it was about. A big part of her wants to tell him about...about the messages.

Before Lucas can say anything, Maya swoops in and wraps her arms around them both.

"Hey Riles, stuck in Rileytown again?" She jokes and Riley tries to smile at her. She knows Maya is just teasing, but why does she have to do it all the time? Her head isn't always stuck in the clouds. Maya is making her feel like she's being laughed at.

"No Peaches, just thinking." She answers with a false cheerful smile on her face. She wonders why Maya and the rest of them haven't been able to differentiate her fake smiles from her real ones.

She breaks apart from them and watches them continue to walk and talk to the lunchroom; Maya's arm still around him.

*Bing*

(Don't they look cozy? Oh and what's Rileytown?)

Riley's heart stopped. She had a feeling it was about to get a lot worse.

XOXOXOX

(Day 4)

*Bing*

(Wakey Wakey Loser, get your head out of Rileytown and join the human race like a normal person!)

Riley groans when she reads the message and throws her head back on the bed and puts her pillow over her head. She would not let this girl destroy her sacred place. Rileytown was something her and Maya invented as her safe place for her to be herself; almost like her Bay Window. Now that SHE knew about it, it's like she's made it her life mission to destroy Rileytown and all it represents.

She drags herself out of bed and was about to head into the kitchen for breakfast when she heard the familiar noise that seems to haunt her.

*Bing*

(If I were you, I'd wear something loose. You're so fat! God how can anyone look at you without barfing!)

Her hand is on her doorknob and she can see her hand is trembling. She walks back towards her mirror and looks at her outfit that she choose for today. She was wearing a form sitting T-shirt and skinny jeans. Before when she looked in the mirror she thought she looked okay. Now, however, she noticed her stomach was poking out, making her look like she was either pregnant or wearing cloths that obviously didn't fit into. Her arms were jiggling, and her growing curves looked a lot bigger than what they were supposed to look like.

She quickly ripped off her outfit before putting on a long maxi dress and a putting on a sweater over her arms to hide her fat.

There. Now she didn't look as bad as she did before.

Nodding to herself she walked into the kitchen.

"Morning Riley." She hears her mom say before placing a large stack of pancakes in front of her.

"Eat up baby girl. I know these are your favorite." She says before patting her on the head and finishing up Auggie's breakfast.

She looked at her plate of food with disgust. All those pancakes, all those carbs would go right to her stomach and thighs; she couldn't eat this.

Just then, Maya walks inside like she owns the place and sits down in her normal seat.

"Morning Riles, you almost ready?" Her beautiful blonde friend says and Riley just smiles at her sadly.

No wonder everyone loved her. She was tough, beautiful, thin, and she knew how to handle herself. She was the perfect girl. Riley knew she would never be as wonderful as her best friend.

"Hey, you gonna eat that?" Maya asks and Riley shook her head before pushing her plate towards her.

It's not like Maya would gain the weight.

When they got to school, her phone went off again.

*Bing*

(God you're so ugly! Why don't you get home schooled so we don't have to look at you?! Where did you get that outfit the garbage can of the Goodwill?!)

She sadly puts her phone away before walking over to her friends who were all talking in their little group. It almost looked like she wouldn't fit inside of their little circle.

"Hey guys, do you want to watch a movie after school?" She asks them and they all look at her with guilty expressions.

"Sorry Riley, I'm meeting with Smackle about the next science convention for young geniuses." Farkle says feeling bad because he can see something was bothering her and she wanted to be with her friends.

"Yeah I need to stay after school and work on my art piece for back to school night." Maya says, also feeling bad that she hasn't spent a lot of time with her best friend this week.

Riley looks over at Zay and Lucas with a hopeful look.

"Riley...I wish I could but me and Zay already promised my folks we would go help my uncle clean out his house. They're moving back to Texas next month and need a lot of help." Lucas wanted nothing more than to spend time with Riley; spending time with her was his favorite thing in the world but he made a promise and he had to commit to it.

Zay just nodded to Lucas since his pal already told her that he would be helping his uncle as well.

Riley gives her best fake cheerful look.

"It's okay. Maybe this weekend or something." She replies and Maya looks like she wanted to say something but the bell rings.

As she walks towards her dad's classroom she is rammed into the lockers by HER. Pain shoots up her arm where the locks dig into her.

"Watch where you're going freak." SHE hisses at her before moving a little closer to her.

"Couldn't help but notice none of them want to spend time with you. Can't say I'm surprised." SHE mocks her before skipping away to her own class.

Riley watches her go with tears springing in her eyes. She hates this; hates this feeling of being worthless. She pushes her arm deeper into the locker and almost relishes in the pain.

It feels like the only emotion she's been feeling lately was pain.

That night when she went to bed that night she kept poking the new bruise on her arm until all she could feel was the physical pain. Physical pain was nothing like emotional pain.

She couldn't help it though; all she kept thinking about was her newest text message in her phone with a screen shot of the social network Farkle posted of Smackle, Maya, and him hanging out together at Farkle's house.

Why wouldn't they invite her?

Oh well, it didn't matter their reasoning; they didn't invite her because they didn't want to. She knew the truth now.

XOXOXOX

(Day 5)

Friday was usually a great day for her. She would dress up nice, make plans with the gang, make time to spend with Auggie, and of course award her for the good things she's done this week at her weekly Riley Awards Show.

Today, however, she wanted to do none of that. She just wanted to lay in bed, especially after her morning text message.

(If there is one person I wish was never born it would be you. Do us all a favor and make everyone's wish come true)

How can someone say that to another person? No one should ever be told they should kill themselves. A big part of her was angry that SHE really crossed the line but another part was just so tired. Tired of being treated like she was a nothing, tired that no one could see how upset she's been, tired of keeping up this charade.

She knew though, that she had to keep moving. She had to get up and get dressed, and do what she always does.

Her and Maya make it to school and she's happy that she hasn't gotten another message yet. Maybe SHE knew that her message this morning was going too far and is backing off. Maybe, because she hasn't responded, SHE has gotten tired and is going to leave her alone.

She made it through History, Art, Science, and Gym and she thought she was finally home free. Her smile could have lit the whole school. She was so happy she didn't have to be afraid to look at her phone anymore.

She was walking with Maya and Lucas to lunch again, more into their conversation than she's been all week.

"So I was thinking after you get out of your Art meeting, we could get a pizza, then have a movie marathon." Riley suggested and Lucas gives her one of his shy smiles and nodding his head.

"I think that sounds great." Lucas answers and she can feel the familiar butterflies in her stomach.

"Hey Huckleberry, you think you can stop by the art room after school. I need to use a guy for this piece and Miss Kossal suggested you." She smirks at him and he can't help but grin back at her.

"I thought Miss Kossal said kids my age don't look like me." He jokes and Maya giggles in a very un-Maya sort of way making Riley look at her weird.

If that exchange wasn't bad enough to make her butterflies die, her phone goes off.

*Bing*

(You thought I was going to leave you alone didn't you? That's why you had that retarded* grin on your face all day?! Why don't you stop being who you are before I stick my foot in big stupid face!?)

Her face falls as she puts her phone in her pocket and follows her friends to get lunch. Would this day ever end?

For the rest of the day her phone went off at least twice every period, making her have to turn her phone on vibrate.

(You will never be anyone special. No one likes you)

(Lucas only talks to you out of pity, that's why he never asked you to be his gf.)

(God you decided to wear THAT to school today?! I can see way too much of your fat ass!)

(Do you realize how stupid you are?! I mean how did you even make it to the 8th grade?!)

It was like every insecurity she ever thought about herself was being brought to life. It was like no matter how hard she smiled, how optimistic she tried to be she couldn't shake the horrible feeling in her heart.

These messages started out of no where but somehow they became her daily reminder that she will never be good enough, that she was a nothing, she was completely worthless and no one would ever truly love her.

By the end of school, Riley found herself in the middle of the hallway like she usually did on Fridays.

"Today at the Riley Awards, Riley will be announcing the winner of this weeks achievement." Riley says in a fake older voice.

"Well thank you for that amazing introduction Riley. And now for the award for the most optimistic attitude for the week is..."She hesitated as she pretended to open an envelope. She gave a gasp.

"Oh what a surprise! The winner is Riley Matthews!" She says as she skips around the hallway to get to the middle once more.

"I'd like to thank my parents, Auggie, Maya, Farkle, Lucas, Zay, and Smackle for everything they have done to help me achieve this honor this week. Thank you all." She says and takes a bow.

Just as she's about to leave she hears a slow clapping. She quickly turns around and sees HER, walking towards her with her phone out in a way that Riley can only assume meant she was being recorded. SHE recorded her during her secret Riley Awards that not even Maya knew about!

"That was such a...lovely performance." SHE sneers at her; her eyes dancing with laughter as she finally puts her phone down.

Riley can only look at her in shock as she tried to keep the tears from forming in her eyes.

"Why? Why are you doing this to me?! Why can't you just leave me alone? I never did anything to you!" Riley had to ask. She never hurt HER. She never was mean to anyone!

"Oh poor pathetic Riley. I'm doing this because I can. Because you need to know that the world is not Rileytown; the real world is harsh and cruel and you should know that now. If anything you should be thanking me." She laughs at her and moves closer to her so they were face to face.

"So thank me Riley." She demands and grabs her wrist so hard that Riley could barley feel like.

She looks deep into HER eyes and swallows in the tears. She should fight back. She should tell her that SHE was nothing but a bully that needed to stop treating people so badly.

But she was just too tired.

"Thank you." She whispers so low, she's surprised she made any sound at all. Yet as soon as the words come out of her mouth, the grip on her wrists is loosened and SHE backs away from her slowly.

"There. That wasn't so hard now was it? Enjoy your weekend Freak," SHE blows her a kiss before walking out of the hallway towards the school exit.

Riley stood there frozen in place relaying the past five days in her head like a movie. This was just one long nightmare. It had to be. People were not this mean. She had to keep smiling; she had to look on the bright side.

She repeated her mantra in her head until she could hear Maya and Lucas walking and talking towards her. She quickly wiped her eyes and put on her best everything-is-fine smile.

They could never know.

TBC!

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