She watched her reflection as she sat in the room that was provided for her family.

Family

That was still a foreign word to her. She never really belonged to anyone before until he came into her life. She doubted that he didn't truly comprehend how much he mattered to her existence. How much she loved to watch him sleep. How he would get excited over every tiny detail. Those trusting eyes and gentle smile, the way that a room just lights up when he is in it.

Love

She has never told anyone about the day that he came into her world. She loved him with every fiber of her being. For a few drug filled moments she actually thought that his place was with her. So she held him close and told him the dreams that she held in her heart. No one in the room would notice the gold around them. Seeping into his tiny pores, but she knew love. Because it was love that made her hand him to the kind nurse.

Tears

So lost in her thoughts she didn't notice them at first, or the other occupant that now shared her room. She didn't notice the bed dip and the tender hands on her shoulders.

"Emma?" a soft voice called to her as she began to draw her daughter into her body. "It's alright. We will find him, I promise."

Emma looked up into her eyes and saw the conviction behind them. She felt like a child like this. It was a new feeling for her. At times it gave her so much courage and at times it frightened her. She moved her head to the woman's tiny shoulder. Her long fingers rang slowly through her hair. It was at this time that she realized she wanted to change. It would be a slow change but she was going to work hard on letting these people close to her.

"No. Don't. They will abandon you."

Emma could hear the tiny voice of her heart and could feel herself try to calm it by flooding her mind with the soft touches she was receiving and the picture of a brown haired boy.

"I need a favor." She said not looking up.

"Anything, you never have to ask."

Emma stood up and walked to the desk that was in their room. She found what she was looking for and brought it to her mother.

Snow watched her daughter carefully as she brought a small dagger towards her, not quite sure what she wanted. She was surprised when Emma sat on the floor in front of her.

"Can you cut it? I don't know when we will be home again. I don't want anything in the way. Plus .." She said as she looked in the mirror. "I think it's time to change. I'm sure he will be happy to see the color it will be."

Snow nodded and took the dagger from her and began to gather her hair. She tied the long sections and watched her daughter looking at her feet.

"I'm not sure how you want it cut .. "Snow started

"It's alright." Emma said as she looked into the mirror at her mother. "I trust you."

Author Note: I don't own OUAT

So, I am not quite sure where I am going with this. We shall see. I will say ahead of time that I love love Killian and Emma together. But I am not going to just throw them together. They are both difficult and hurting. So it will be a slow ride but worth it in the end... I hope. Let me know what you think so far.