Sirius Black, the king of all. That's what I used to think now I'm not so
sure. Blamed for murders I didn't commit I'm on the run and no one believes
me. No, that's not true, Harry and his friends believe me, but that's not
enough. How can I be a responsible Godfather if I can't be with him? Maybe
that's their plan, drive me out of hiding with worry and terror, make me
rush to his side. I won't let them, not for a crime I didn't commit.
Am I that untrustworthy? Did I set myself up? Perhaps my years of maraudering finally caught up with me. Making Lily mad doesn't seem worth all this now. If only I could take it back. Maybe if I had done one less prank, cast one less spell . . . No; I was doomed to face this. Lily and James were to die, Peter was to betray us all, I was to be a scapegoat like always and run for all my life from a past that isn't my own and miss Harry's youth, and Remus was to stay faithful until the end, and he has, a true friend.
I'm beginning to believe I should take the Beatle's advice and let it be. What can I do about it? They want my life, but don't realize they all ready have it. I guess my purpose for this has changed; I might as well live, fight the battle a little longer. I think I'll write Remus and Harry, Remus will understand and Harry will be encouragement. I'll make it, you watch and see.
Am I that untrustworthy? Did I set myself up? Perhaps my years of maraudering finally caught up with me. Making Lily mad doesn't seem worth all this now. If only I could take it back. Maybe if I had done one less prank, cast one less spell . . . No; I was doomed to face this. Lily and James were to die, Peter was to betray us all, I was to be a scapegoat like always and run for all my life from a past that isn't my own and miss Harry's youth, and Remus was to stay faithful until the end, and he has, a true friend.
I'm beginning to believe I should take the Beatle's advice and let it be. What can I do about it? They want my life, but don't realize they all ready have it. I guess my purpose for this has changed; I might as well live, fight the battle a little longer. I think I'll write Remus and Harry, Remus will understand and Harry will be encouragement. I'll make it, you watch and see.
