My Dearest Drow,

It is at my greatest regret to inform you, that although we are married, I am not in love with you. As you can clearly see, I don't even remember anything before the age of seventeen. I had never been in love or known was love is. Perhaps I loved my parents, whoever they were. I just can't remember them. I want to love you with all my heart. I want to be able to wake up next to you and utter those soft words. I just don't know how to feel it just yet. In all reality, I'm just a baby. My emotions are all new. I can remember my past, but it feels like a far off distant dream, as if this woman that I remember isn't really me, but a different me. Perhaps the weeks I've spent alongside my companions, has created a new woman out of me.

You hardly hesitated when I asked you to marry me. You just knew. And yet, I think I'm the one who is hesitating. I think you are a beautiful man. You treat me like a princess, and don't even question me when I say something crazy or off the wall. I want to praise you for trying to get to know me, when I don't even know myself.

Yours truly,

Meeka Devine

Meeka placed this quickly written up note next to her sleeping husband. It was very early morning, before the sun had even risen. Meeka just couldn't sleep that night. She'd been brooding over her past. The things she's done since she'd met her three friends (now five). However, she'd had a sort of eye opening. She wasn't exactly sure if she wanted to remember the old Meeka. The old Meeka seemed heartless, sad, and uncaring. Now she was all smiles all the time, actually got along with her friends, and didn't mind having a good time. Of course, what she wouldn't give to know who her parents were. Her family. Did she have brothers and sisters too? Where were they now? Those questions that haunted her, kept her on her current drive to get her memories back. Lolth was a forgiving and gracious goddess. Meeka understood why her memories were taken away. Because she had fucked up and gone into a zombie infested town, because the curiosity got the better of her, was why she was now the nicer, happier, carefree Meeka, that everyone now knew. To tell the truth, Meeka was scared of her past life.