Okay so I originally wrote this in Pesterlogs, but I got a note saying that I couldn't do that :/ So I'm really sorry that the first two chapters seem rushed because I had to rewrite them around the fact that I couldn't use PesterLogs. Sorry guys D: But stick around until chapter three because it gets better there 3 Thank you guys!


Roxy Lalonde sat hunched over her computer, a martini in her hand. She was already drunk, but hey, one more wouldn't hurt. She was surfing the internet, bored from sitting there doing nothing. The blonde teenager's computer made a noise and a little message came onto the screen. Roxy shifted her gaze to the pop up message; it looked like a tiny speech bubble with a little blue monster upon it.

'Jane!' Roxy automatically recognized the Pesterchum signal of her bffsy trying to contact her.

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" Roxy? Are you there?" Jane typed.

Roxy opened the Pesterchum tab to find that Jane had indeed messaged her.

"Oh hyt there Janey!" Roxy's drinking messed up her typing as she replied to Jane. '*hjey' she tried to correct it but failed, like usual.

"You're drunk again aren't you…" Jane's message came in with very little enthusiasm.

"Hehehe you vet ;)" She added a little smiley face at the end of her sentence. '*bett.' '*beet'.

Roxy let out a small giggle because she thought that her typos were silly.

"Oh, okay. I was kind of hoping that you were going to be sober…" This post bothered Roxy a bit.

"Why? What is bohering youo dear? Is there something that you ned to talk aboiut?"

Even in her intoxicated state, Roxy knew that something was getting her pretty little dark haired

friend down. She usually never cared when Roxy was under the influence of alcohol, though she would scold her from time to time when she would drink more often than usual.

"Well, now that you talk about it… I guess that I'm not doing my best today." Jane replied.

Roxy frowned. She never liked it when her friend was feeling down.

"Wats wrong Janey?" She asked. "You can tell me what s wrong." Roxy continued making a bunch of typos, but didn't bother trying to correct them because there were so many and she only cared about the well being of her friend at the moment.

There was a somewhat long pause before Roxy received a message from her friend. At least it seemed long for Roxy, she couldn't really tell from the drink in her system.

"Well, it's just Jake…"

Roxy froze. She hoped with all of her heart that Jane didn't find out about him. She waited for the next message to appear.

"Did he tell you he was…"

Suspense began to engulf Roxy, and she was as close enough from the sheer terror that gripped at her heart to dropping right on the spot. Jane didn't type her next message for what seemed like a decade.

"Gay?"

Roxy's heart dropped down a roller coaster. She knew that Jane had had a crush on Jake English, one of both of their best friends. Roxy had even given Jane tips on how to talk to Jake and get her to tell her secret to him, even though she knew. Yep, there it was. Jane had finally learned that her best friend that she had been crushing on was gay. The last joint in their square of friends was his boyfriend, Dirk Strider.

"And apparently Dirk is his boyfriend…" Was one of the last things that Jane typed.

Roxy felt worse and worse every time Jane sent a new message, and the alcohol wasn't helping her keep calm. She started to panic, the affects of her drink making her emotions one hundred times more dramatic.

" I know, im sort. I sgould hve told you earlier." She replied honestly.

"You knew all this time and you never told me?" Jane asked, infuriated.

'Uh oh' was the only thing running through Roxy's slurred mind. She probably shouldn't have mentioned the fact that she had known about this fact for quite some time, and she didn't tell her friend because she was afraid of hurting her. But looking back on it, it probably would have hurt her less back then when Roxy first found out then, when Jane had been through so much trauma to try to tell her about his feelings.

"So this whole time you didn't tell me. After all of the pep talks you gave me, and the advice as well. I don't think you realize how much this hurts me. I finally got up the courage, after all these years, to tell him, and he tells me, and you have known for a long time. It was so embarrassing. I'm sorry Roxy, but I think I need some time alone." Roxy could almost hear the sadness and betrayal in the text that Jane typed onto the screen.

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"Shit. Wait Jsnry.*Janrt.*Janeu." Roxy tried to type her friends name, but she was so flustered and drunk that it wasn't easy. "DAMMIT! Janey please!" Eventually Roxy gave up. No many how many times Roxy typed her friend's name upon the keys, she wasn't getting her to come back so soon. Roxy grabbed one of her stuffed animals and threw it at her wall in a fit of rage, the small fluffy body slamming into the hard flat surface in its way, making a loud thump. The blonde girl then slumped back in her chair and began to cry.

Roxy felt torn. She knew that Jane wasn't going to get over this easily. She felt like everything was her fault and that she wasn't ever going to have her back as a friend. When you're a drunken teenager, your brain tends to work a bit differently. Instead of blaming herself, Roxy's thoughts began to drift in the opposite direction. She started to feel hate towards Jane. It all wasn't fair.

It wasn't fair that she had to counsel Jane every day on her little love problems. She had gotten sick and tired of Jane being a wuss and not being able to tell her true feelings to Jake. Of course though, Roxy was being a hypocrite. She herself had been in love for quite some time, but she also would never ever in a million years confess to them, even if the world depended on it.

At first, Roxy fell in love with brave, courageous, and very handsome Jake English. He was everything that Roxy wanted, and she was so close to telling him the 'L' word. But when she found out that Jane shared the same affections for him, she felt heartbroken. She knew that she would never be able to win over her. Jane was sweet and perfect, and Roxy knew that Jake deserved the black haired girl so much more than her irresponsible and unreliable self. Then when Jane started to consult her for advice on confessing to him, it became very hard for her to handle.

During this process, Roxy found herself start to fall in love with someone else. She knew it was wrong and denied herself at first. It was so impossible! But soon Roxy found out that she was severely lovesick, and she was madly in love with no one else but the one and only Jane Crocker, her best friend in the whole world who loved someone else. Roxy began to drink more and more those days, and her mental state was slowly declining. She had to help the two people she had grown to love, fall in love with each other. So now Roxy's only safe haven was being able to talk with Jane and know that she was happy. But that bond had been severed and Roxy felt as if she could never tie those ends back up again.

As Roxy wept, she slid slowly off of her chair and onto the floor, slowly stroking one of her many cats. Soon, the alcohol and tears began to make Roxy feel very tired. She laid her head down on her ugly stained carpet, her eyes quickly flitting shut and she cried herself into a restless sleep.