Squeezing the soft and larger hand with my own two- tighter and tighter I tried to will life into it. I was mumbling on and on about something- something that blended together as the emotion leaked from it's every decibel. I wanted the hand to squeeze back, I wanted her to sit up and hold me tight and tell me that she loved me, I wanted the blood to push back into her wounds and her warmth to radiate. Watery salt layered my tongue as tears rained down my face, "Mom…" I choked out, I gave up on the hand and tried to push the blood back.

"It'll be okay," I thought, "Everything will be okay, you can stay warm and loving…" I spoke out- "Don't go- I don't want you to go," I sobbed, the blood was already drying into her light soft dress… she was already gone. I felt arms wrap around my shoulders from behind, "Shh… Roxas, it's alright, you'll always have me… forever and ever… I'll never leave you." the deep voice spoke into my ear with mendacious concern but it hit me like knives- knives were used to kill my mother... I wanted to struggle… I wanted to get away but I didn't want to leave her.

"You have to get up," I mumbled out, trying to grab her hand again, but he stopped me, "She's gone," he said indifferently. "No!" I screamed, "She's fine! She's always fine…" my voice was quiet again, "She'll come back…. She always does," I continued in my thoughts, "And then she'll hug me till I fall asleep and she'll take me and Sora out for sea salt ice cream." He tried to drag me away but I wouldn't let him, I kicked and screamed.

My mother was now in a box, they were putting her in the ground, Sora was beside me, crying into my side as we squeezed hands. "This is it…" the voice in my head quiet, Mother was never going to tickle me awake, never going to see me grow up- at my graduation- see me go into first grade. I waited for her green eyes to pop open and for her calming voice to speak, "I'm not dead, I fooled you, I promised I'd never leave, did you think I'd ever leave?"

Then she'd jump out of the coffin and wrap me and Sora in a hug, and I wouldn't be angry at her because at least she'd be alive. But no, she didn't open her eyes, she didn't speak, and she didn't breath, she wasn't ever going to come back- ever.

"Roxas!" My eyes popped open as I heard someone yell my name, "What…" I looked around with panic- trying to find the source, I calmed down when I saw my twin sitting on the floor, "You were screaming in your sleep again… about Mom," his voice was sad, I rolled on to my back and stared at the ceiling, "Sorry," It's been happening more and more… ever since I'd seen him.

He told me he would call me 6 years after her death, and he did, he called me once a week when I turned twelve, the nightmares became a frequent occurrence till he stopped, but then two months ago- after Sora and I turned fifteen he showed up in our room. Thank invisible man Sora wasn't home… but I didn't want to see him, and I didn't like what he told me.

Sitting up I got ready for the first day of school, I need to tell someone about him but there's no one to tell… I can't tell Sora- it'll just worry him. I grabbed my clothes and jumped in the shower quickly, "I have enough on my mind with out the first day at a new school." I mumbled.

First chapter- prologue really~ tell me what you think, if it has potential.

Fixed 4/30/13