A Finite Distance

by Susan Zahn

watching the troops celebrate
i feel happy for them
they've earned this victory
if only i could share
feel their invincibility
but i cannot
knowing too many not here now
brave soldiers and friends
sacrificed
alderaan
though i can't share
won't share
they are welcome to their relief
i am happy for luke
he seems to have found his place here
and captain solo
i am happy for as well
he has what he wanted
part of me wants to cry in outrage
at their enjoyment
while i stand here
slowly draining of meaning